It hurts when it seems like all your friends just seem to notice you and nothing else. What have I done? They only seem to see me and say hi, we used to talk so much. Now I'm just another person.
Other than than that life seems to be okay, except I've started talking to myself when I'm alone. I so wish to really be able to talk to someone without them holding it against me. The only friend I had that I could ever talk to like that has been so mean to me.
I dont think she does it on purpose shes not that kind of person, but whenever I feel like she rubs it in my face and has to show me up. I hope nothing has happened or anything.
I feel like I'm tearing myself apart keeping everything inside me. Theres so much I wish to say, and so much I want to tell; but I cant.
At night I look around in the darkness of my room, and I feel at peace. I find myself confiding all my secrets, hopes, and fears to the darkness around me.
One day..