it always had been all sinful.

how saint are you that your evil can towers over us all?

Sometimes i forget that i am "not that rich"...because they still can afford hurting me,
as if i have all the strength to grow from that luxury of outbursts.

I guess the poor is wealthy too when time allows it.

To be infinite, moral, ethical, patience, and fun.
To entertain yourself so you may entertain others.

I do not believe i have that much of luck that i can animate without knowing how to draw
nicely. In fact, i don't even know how or who to ask to draw.

Vision of Escaflowne,Ashita No Nadja,Samurai Champloo
Samurai 7,Dissidia Final Fantasy,Persona
Shin Megami Tensei,Bleach,One Piece,JJBA
Princess Tutu,Princess Comet

This world is not soft and safe...
And there's nothing to change it.

Should add to my failing memory and gullibility...
There's no love nor peace... only transcient moment of living and consuming.
Heaven must be goddamn sloppy.

Not sure. Maybe a trick.
Maybe a trick chance.
Maybe fate. Hahaha, how funny and twisted!

And so god asked for the child to be sacrificed... and thus thou kills.

And the many follows to kill.

I guess i don't care anymore being banned from particular sites. 
It's hard to even care. I do not want to be followed, nor do i want to influence.

I just wish my views can save the world.
But i guess since religion do not believe in evolution, they are fine being cruel and consumptive.
And i guess humans are still the same goddamn monkey, but now, much worse.

And god sure evolve from allowing murders into very suicidal and martyric.
But still not away from consuming lifes of animals and plants...not infinite.

And when particular religion tells its people to cover themselves...
i guess they are that unevolved ones that still lack self-control...
Or really... maybe god and humans are the same devils, the same parasite.
I think they can handle a few hells.

Yeah, i am guilty, not asking better of myself.
Ask from the gods, they say.
A mangaka, A game creator, A composer.
That's all. And who cares, maybe die after
a few drawings...because this is the reality of the majority.

Desire. They say you can ask and be given. 
Sort of. And human may plan, but it is god that decides.
I wonder then, does it matter that i ever ask? Knowing that you may not get it at all.
And it felt a little bit lonelier and scarier...
This vicious cycle of consumption.

From spritedatabase.net

But yeah, that's the funniest part.
Even if you asks so much, not all god provides.
And just like that, life goes on...uncontrolled, unforgiving.
Seems benefitting. Now i talk without listening.
In my ever short term memory, that god and life has decided upon me.
The absolute fate of this life and its omnipotence.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pa_t0KMQwLM

I mean, obviously right?
To make a joke, out of every?
Am i smart, or stupid?
Definitely not rich right now.
Can only afford to hear my Looney Lala mind.
And stuck in this world's predatory cycle, one that
not even god left away from. Bahahaha!
Hear me, my laughter! Tommorow may always be
the end anyway!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IB5Le3KHbbo

Sometimes i think about dreams and achievements,
all these arteur that has been romanticized in the public news.
Then i remember again that, i am no part of it. Not their culture or success.
Must be nice born in the same nation with the highest achievers, or
of the same kin... there is some sort of pride and ambition, or at least,
a romantic outlook of life to hold on too. 

Nah, it's too strange. I cannot hold on to anything now.
Maybe it's because of religion... trying to be as saint,
but the greatest thing the saint does, is just dying.
Self-love, making room, no one is enslaved,
and just like back then, we do not, was not,
expecting a saviour at all.

Jokes on me.
But then, what to do?
Can we save people from our noise polution?
Now my head sounds in several accents.
Is this, god's creation too?

Quite the, incredible joke.
I still do not see myself being baptised, in front of the public,
with the ccrowd eyeing me like they do. 
The crowd began to sound in my head, of many things i wish them
would do, but never does. It's a strange feeling.
It's the greatest disconnect i could never understand.

i'm glad i translated for my aunt in lightspeed.
this sunday feels as awkward as usual again. a life i could never understand.
Ah, i still don't know what kind of job life i should go or struggle for.
Life's a struggle. I am used to struggling grumpily, i guess.

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