Wazzup, wazzup! I'm feeling pretty good today. Apart from being bored at work, that is! Sigh...*shaking head* I hate it when I don't have much work to do. It's the 2nd day like that. But I'll talk about that later. This is the intro so I got to make it quick and sweet! *wink* Haha...you're gonna be reading some more thoughts from me. "Sophie's World" has made me think about things a lot. I was gonna write an entry last night but I got too lazy. Hehe...:D You know me! :P But I hope this entry will be a short one since the last one was extra long!!! Oops! But that day deserves that much space in my journal cuz it sure was fun, fun, fun! Well, let's get this started. It's already getting long. Hehe.:D
Work has been boring! My boss didn't come in yesterday and didn't leave me enough work for me so I was done just after lunch. And then he called in so I asked him what I should do and he told me to go talk to the editorial. So I went but they didn't have much work for me. After about 15 minutes of waiting at their door, they gave me this sheet with radio frequencies that I have to match up with another sheet with the same info. Some of the numbers were different and they asked me to change them on one of the sheets. But the list was short and I was done in less than 5 minutes. I went back to them again and they asked me to go ask the secretary, Linda, for work. She gave me work but it involved printing 100 copies of one of the PDF files, one side first, then the other side. I was supposed to fold them up but printing takes a long time so I had no work to do and it was just driving me crazy! Same sort of thing happened today again. My boss said he would be out for an hour but he didn't leave me that much work. So I was asking around again and he came back only after an hour and a half. One thing that I don't like is that when I don't have work to do. I want to be constantly working. I don't mind doing all that work but I don't wanna sit around with nothing to do. That is why I took this job. It doesn't involve waiting on people. I do my own thing at my own fast pace. Well...ok...enough whining already. You probably don't want to hear it anymore. :P Well, if you're still reading this journal, then you might be pretty bored so I'll provoke your mind a bit with my thoughts! *wink*
So the other day, I was just chatting with people on IM. Lalala...and this thought came to mind while I was talking to Richard about the thoughts I had in my previous entry, whether we are in a story or not. We started talking about destiny. Do you believe in destiny? It's a hard question and of course, it depends on your beliefs. But I think it's kinda cool in that everything is planned out for us but we don't know any of it and we just try to judge everything with our own reasoning. For me, sometimes I think everything happens for a reason and sometimes I just don't believe that. I think your actions would lead you to other things, right? Like if you take this way out then it will lead you to different set of things than what the other way would take you. But it's always interesting to think about where that road will take you. There is this movie, "Sliding Door" with Gwyneth Paltrow. I have only seen parts of it but it's about this girl who took the train and then it leads onto this life but another side of her life, her clone (you might say) didn't take the train. She missed it by like a second and now she leads a completely new life just because the door closed before she could get in. I thought it was interesting how that could happen. Just a second can change your whole life and you never know where it may take you. Isn't that amazing? So is it still your fate to do/don't do certain things? How can everything happen for a reason? If you choose not to do something, that's not gonna be what was planned for you, is it? Or can we change our destiny by our actions and thoughts? Hmm...*stroking chin*
Another thought that was raised was while I was talking to Aye just now. We were talking about the "stories" again. She said it's possible that everything in life is a game or a story. And that everything doesn't need a beginning. That was an interesting thought - that something can just exist out of thin air! Poof! That's possible but I don't really know what to think. And another thing we were talking about. Lynn has this theory that we are not really in the present time. What we are facing or going through is the past. Now is the past. In the actual "present" time, we are old people, maybe on the death-bed, telling someone about our lives or just simply remeniscing. I can believe that. That's because that person is still me, maybe writing my autobiography or something. That person had the same exact thoughts as me and went through the same things as I am right now. So that's possible. The theory that I can't understand is that there is an author (a different person) writing about me as a character in his/her story. Now that's just impossible. How can that be? I don't believe that. Some people say that author could be God but I just can't imagine someone else writing about me or that even God is creating this "story". It really strikes you, doesn't it? All these questions without answers...It's irritating, somewhat! Grr...haha...but yeah...some random thoughts. I think all these thoughts kinda make you wonder about your beliefs and find your identity, I guess. And I think that's what I'm doing right now with all these questions. Maybe I can have more thoughts on this subject later. More to read for you! *wink* Hehe. :D
Apart from all that mind-provoking thoughts and boring work, I'm reading a 2nd book, "Portrait of a Young Artist." My goal is to finish it by Sunday but I don't know if I can do it. It's really boring and confusing with all these Irish movements. And you have to flip it to the back of the book to find out what some of the slangs are and the symbolisms that the names or the cities represent. It's irritating and it kinda takes you away from the story as well. Right now, I've finished up to about pg. 55, I think. I started it yesterday so that's not bad, right? I fell asleep after reading it last night and didn't wake up till 6 am. That's when I found out I was still sleeping on top of the covers! Aye said when she woke me up last night around midnight, I sat up and talked to her but I don't remember any of that! Haha...I guess I sleep-talk!! Hehe...*blush*
Ok, g2g. Dinner time is here and I'm starving! I'll write more later when I have a chance. Bye for now!
~ Ei Ei :*
Share the laughter,
Share the tears,
We both know,
We'll still go on from here,
Cuz together,
We're strong.
In my arms,
That's where you belong. ~ Westlife "Unbreakable"
