If ever before my world had turned gray
The worst sense of lonely is walking right beside you
But feeling so far away
Why won't you let me in?
Why have you shut me out?
Ever together is never in vain,
But we're not together; dissevered in pain.
How many times can I fail to express
The feelings that hide inside of my chest
If I let me say it, I'm too scared to fall
So I hide and I scream to the world "f*ck you all."
Give me something for me to relate
Because all that's returned of my love is your hate.
Did I break away? Is my ego to blame?
Who gives a shit now; I'm a sad, sorry shame.
How can I try to forgive and forget
When I am the one that I'm out to get
What do you want me to feel? How can I
Not love you and live life a lie?
Ever together is never in vain,
But we're not together; dissevered in pain.
Did you tell me once your need for me?
I must be blind cause I can't see
How you can love me like you say
And make me stay so far away
I want us together, to not be in vain
But you won't accept me, dissevered in pain.
All I want is to be close to you
But all we are is dissevered in pain.
I smile, amused at the people around me that are falling away.
They put up their signs and they whine to their friends..
They'll never know what I know.
They can calcify and crumble into the earth that raised them,
And they will know release.
In the end it will be plain that everything they've ever done has amounted to nothing.
Those they love will move on, and will die,
And those that loved those people will move on, and die.
Nothing is brought into the world to stay forever.
But we fear.
And I hate.
Pathetic are the wretches that I speak to.
Am I truly so alone?
You all swarm around me, I turn the volume down
Can't hear you, you're fading into nothing
Now I laugh as you fall away
Because I know.. I know
It's all because of me.
You're such a screwer upper
It's time to close your eyes and forget
This head is so full of regret
Used to want to make it up to you
But you violated everything true
Get into your hole, leave me alone
This pain you will have never known
You're such a screwer upper
Why'd it have to be like this
And not a life of love and bliss
Hope you know you're gonna die
My machine wants you to hear its cry
You'll never understand these tears
Not in a million goddamn years...
You're such a screwer upper
I can't believe you
How could you do such a thing
What have you done
this is all your fault...
why did you do it?
it hurts for me to say
it's judgement day.
Try to screw me up now.
everything is green and swirly
so far away, spinning,
faint echoes of whispers
so dizzy
I turn the volume of the world down
everything is so faint
so surreal
all circling around me
fading
spilling out of my head
into a river of nothing
my head hangs low
cant tell if you're here or not
talking to me
over the ringing...
the swirl...
the blur...
ugh...
Can you hear that?
My nails run along your pale face
You can faintly see in these eyes a female trace
This demoness inside me whispers out my lips
The shadow at my waist has wider hips
My lashes longer than what they seemed
The last I told my deepest secret screamed
Look straight into my luscious mouth
This temptress inside of me is trying to get out
Can't help but feel particularly naughty...
I'm a lesbian trapped in a man's body.
My memory of everything except you escapes me.
Every face I've ever known, every picture I've been shown
every snowflake on my face, falls away from this bad place.
Every kiss recieved in vain, only adding to my pain
everything's washed clean, those images I wish I'd never seen.
Today I am a child again, feel like I did when I was ten
There is no time, there is no law,
embrace, don't hide, your every flaw
There is no space there is no light,
there's just this soulful heartfelt night
Just you and me, alone up high, we cannot hurt, we cannot lie
Forever's too short, a second's too long,
to sing my heart's embedded song
Wish you knew how much I loved you all along
You don't even need to say a word..
it's all been said, it's all been heard
Wish you knew you make me free as a bird.
The sky is pink, and I am too
All of it's because of you
Everything spinning and echoing
blurry now, nothing exists
you're pink, and I love you
tonight this room is black,
but for the first time in forever I'm not alone
bite a little harder, so I can feel you here,
your flesh, your bone
this seductive song I only wish i could think to have sung
and now more than ever I want to feel your tongue
I feel so inadequate, I ask for so little but to let me inside
let me heal you, show me these things that you hide
and tonight is the night the world will slow down
so that you and I can wear our gilded crown
and change eternity by curing what's dead
I want to get in and bandage your head
let me stitch your wounds, let me fill your hole
let me be the crutch for your wounded soul
though I'll say I don't need any more...
...I've never been kissed before.
I need more than forever to show you everything
I have inside of me to sacrifice to you
I want to give you my truth i want to give you my lies
I want to give you the images inside of my eyes
I want to give you my passion i want to give you my soul
I want to give you it all because you fill up this hole
I want to give you my virginity i want to give you a chance
I want to give you a spotlight, may i have this dance
we can dance on the wind of the breath of the dead
as all of these thoughts stampede through my head
I want to give you my hope i want to give you my dreams
I want to give you the whispers and give you the screams
I want to give all i can i want to give what's not mine
if all you can give in return is a hug,
well that's perfectly fine
I want to give you a new eternity to settle things out
to figure what all of these things are about
I want to lose it all in your name
the name i whisper late at night to keep me company
I am afraid of only one thing in this scary world
I am afraid to be alone
don't let me be alone
don't let me fade, don't let me fall
don't ever let me go
I love you
I am the first real god
But all I know I learn from you
My hate pierces your core
My machine runs through
Turn your blood to cold steel
I am gonna chew you up
Until you're too numb to feel
I'm gonna spit you out
A hundred miles in flame
Chained screams I can do without
I smile at you all. Pump.
Inject your lies
Pump out your happiness
inject disguise
Pump out all ignorance
Inject disease
Pump out my life
and inject my machine
.Kuroshiro Tenson.