well
i know i already explained and such, i just have alot of potential
energy. i wasnt mad at you for whatever you didnt do, oh, i said you were
gonna say you liked potatoes. is that so bad? someones gotta case of taking
what i say too literally! and about me knowing everything, its called articulating.
i can make it sound like i know anything, but all im doing is trying to
be right. and most of the time i am, which makes it easier for me. but
people only know about me what i tell them, they dont even try to figure
anything out like i do. ah ya shoulda known when you were clueless about
what was wrong. if your clueless...well, yeah. in a way it could be said
that im trying to take over your mind. i purposely do whatever i do and
i make you think about me. but i still dont know what i want, so i cant
say that im trying to take over your mind. i dont want to take over your
mind, that sounds like a bad thing to do y'know? i like to have some standing
in people's minds but taking over...nah. jay's even harder than i am to
figure out. most of the things i say actually are true even if they are
covered up by stuff. everything jay says sounds like hes either making
it up or hes just stupid. i dont know what, if anything, i meant to him.
but you have to understand what was going on. i was mean to him alot of
the time towards the end there, sometimes i feel like i made him break
up with me somehow. im sure with enough of my sweetness i coulda kept him,
so maybe somewhere i didnt really want to. oh well. vince is yet another
mystery. but i think if i thought about it i could pin down what he thought
he was doing. i knew what i was doing, i totally changed his mind about
everything. i picked him up, dusted him off, and stuck him in my pocket.
until he got in pk's pocket, then everything went wrong. like i said, he
must have either nothing in his head or nothing in his balls. seriously,
some mean ugly disgustingly sweet girl tells you to break up with someone,
and you do it cuz you feel "threatened". now thats lame. my english
teacher said something today. she said "there is no such thing as a platonic
male/female relationship." this gives comfort and dismay to many. because,
this means all the male firends ive ever had have been attracted to me.
but this also means all my guy friends who had other girl friends were
attracted to them too! what a drag. yeah, i doubt a girl and a guy can
be friends if one of them isnt attracted to the other. oh, it turns out
i do have to go to the lake for thanksgiving. until friday i think. ill
be missed. i really like the name xanthe. ill probably name my pets that
or something. but i wanted to get a pair of something and name them hero
and leander. it was quite cold today. il fait vraiment froid..oooh yeah
on my biology test i got it back and one of the questions she marked wrong
WAS NOT! AHAHA! oh and i got the question right about that lysosome stomach
thingy. i was happy cuz i got all the short answer ones right. so what
if jennifer got a 109.5. hehe...she got a .5 cuz she forgot what the golgi
aparatus does. AHAHA! i know that. it distributes newly synthesized proteins
and lipids, of course. i should get ready and stuff. aw, if chucks there
you wont get to read this. darn chuck. well, bye now.
JAYNE
ok well im ready now so i can
type some more. do you ever notice how many times im wrong? im wrong alot
with you. either im wrong alot or you do your best to contradict me. oh
well. anyway, by seeing your status after what i did, im going to analyze
why you may feel that way. alright, basically you said i... then i said
like potatoes. you musta said no, i cant remember, and i said i heard it
all before, and bye. you might have been going say something important,
so maybe thats why you got such a big reaction. yeah, you had something
opposite of i like potatoes, and you thought i was being antagonistic by
saying that. its obvious that i said that because yesterday you said you
liked potatoes in the same format. i was being yelled at, and so i didnt
have time to hear it. now the interesting part. one must think, was he
really that worried about it? no, i wouldnt think so. ive gotten far more
angered at you than that, and at times you barely flinched. so, you were
perhaps blowing your situation out of porportion. i am not accusing you
of trying to deceive me with your hopeless antics. i think its impulsive.
its kinda a trigger. if you think im upset with you, you mold yourself
into a depressed lovesick poet. and that is exactly what you are. i am
not saying that you dont mean what you say. i think you mean what you say,
but not to the same degree as you say it. and what do we end up with? nothing.
no matter how hard a person tries to figure out someone else, there are
always details missing, things overlooked, and one may have a totally different
opinion than the other. as inexact as anything can be. i just find it interesting.
^_^ well, yep, ill be going now.
jayne
