Things aren't as busy here, homework has seemed to have slowed down enough so that I keep busy but I am not frustrated and overwhelmed with my unfortunate conditions from taking two English classes. In place, God has chose to implement other stressors to make sure Kate still has issues to learn from about life and how the world works...My car was pronounced dead yesterday morning. Funeral services will be held tomorrow afternoon at the junkyard, the Pall Bearers are the Trails End Towing Service of Des Moines. To make a long story short, my head gasket blew out in my car and the cost to replace it was more than what the car is worth. So I am without a car now :( It is difficult to fathom life without a car once you have one, so I am learning....thanks to my beloved sister, she agreed to loan me her car for the remainder of the semester. She is volunteering in Honduras for 3 months, and leaves at the beginning of November. Good news! It's a Saturn, fully equipped with power everything, sunroof and CD player!! Very nice car, so yay to her! And I also say yay to Tanner for taking time from his busy schedule to pick me up stranded at the Des Moines Best Buy where my car chose to falter on me. In other news...haha just kidding...as you can see, I am trying to think positive about all this, I guess Abnormal Psychology is teaching me more about life than I thought. I lost 2 pounds last week, did my plateau diminish for good? I guess we'll find out tomorrow when I weigh-in again, won't we? I have had an awesome week health and fitness wise, I've worked out 5 days in a row now. I might go tonite to make that 6 days in a row however Fall Kill disrupts my life somewhat. Last night was not good...I chose to work at 8:00 at the rec center and stumbled upon 3 Theta Chis that I know who kept discreetly peering into the fitness center where I was and where 2 other DG friends were...they aren't too good at being casual about making sure that we are still there and ready to be shot down when we step outside the rec center doors. Katie P. had a car and was dead, so she ran and got her car in the parking lot while Ashley Z. and I darted fast out the front doors the minute we saw two Theta Chis standing outside for whatever reason. We sprinted to her car and made it safely...I suppose going to the rec center the night that Theta Chi has intramurals in the gym isn't the wisest idea, huh? I turned in my Austria application last Friday and I am able to call in a week from Friday to find out about my acceptence or not, can't wait!! No Milwaukee anymore this weekend, that makes me sad, I had that planned out for a month almost but the following weekend is Fall Break, yay for Twin Cities and no Des Moines for a short while!! Can't wait! HAVE A GOOD DAY :)
Friday, October 25 11:00 PM
When the schoolwork gets to you and the demands of realities of life gets to you, you began to wonder what is the meaning of life, is there really a reason that we are here? Ask anyone their answer, the vast majority will respond with religion, but the non-religious answer with something else. It's too ambiguous to sort through. Is there really a "right" answer, I suppose not because everyone is different, but doesn't it feel like we should all live for the same reason? Otherwise it's hard to believe what I want to believe without everyone supporting me.
Saturday, November 16 1:00 AM (So it's really Sunday)
Been awhile since I wrote in here but excuse me for going home every weekend. Hehe, my friends ridicule me now since it's my first weekend at Drake in awhile, "are you at home, Kate? I mean it's the weekend and all..." "Ummm noooo". My birthday was last Monday, so I went home for that. My sister left for Honduras two weeks ago and I will not see her until June since I will be going to AUSTRIA!! Oh gosh, Harry Potter last night was really good! My friend and I beared the cold Des Moines weather, camping outside the box office, fighting the aggressive parents of young children still in school. OK, I'm totally kidding, this is Des Moines where the population is massive...well...massive in comparison to Bigfork, MN, haha. Can you believe tickets went on sale the day of the preimere, while in Milwaukee they started on sale Tuesday before and sold out right away..gosh...it was pretty simple and I have to say we were damn proud to scored 8 tickets by only suffereing 45 minutes of waiting, which only 15 minutes of it was standing in line in high anticipation. Ok, enough about Harry Potter, I loved it and that's that. Studying abroad in Salzburg...::sigh::....I read up a little on it today. Did you know that the turn-out in the opening of the Sound of Music in Salzburg in Vienna was so low that they pulled it from theatres the first week? One thing can I add? Why do they sing "How Do You Solve a Problem Like Maria's?" as a wedding song at Maria's wedding? I mean who would really want to walk the aisle hearing a tormenting song belittling your personality? At my wedding I want people to sing of the annoying traits of my personality cuz it's a HAPPY HAPPY day! My final thought...did all my friends meet secretively and comply to drinking excessive amounts of alcohol?? Or is Sophomore year of college just the time to indulge flagrantly? Good night all!
Monday, December 3rd 1:00 PM
Many authors and poets have written their best works while severly depressed, is that what makes their writing so inspirational because a sorrowful writer comprehends the complexities of life more consciously because they are well aware of the forces working against them moreso than a "happy" person? People like Virginia Woolf, Emily Dickinson, Sylvia Plath push us to decipher the meaning of life and question the values we possess and uphold. Are they really what is keeping us going in life? Around us we see happy people by the way they project themselves in public. When you ask "how are you?" to a person, in responding "I'm depressed" as opposed to "I'm happy!" it is obvious which answer although more trite and superficial one will more likely adhere to. Strangers to us don't want to see melancholia or witness it because it means there is a "problem" present, therefore happiness is the only form of emotion that should be expressed to others. We should watch TV shows that promote happiness and ways to achieve success (which equals happiness regardless if one admits it or not). To question society's quirks and dysfunctions is miscontrued that you won't comply to the general happiness feeling that floats the air where we are exposed to the public. The literature written by the person possessing a black bile humor contrasts conformity and what we are taught to believe about life. Ignorance is bliss, certainly until you are presented with works that inevitably force the mind to question everything. Awareness of both worlds is bliss; not only awareness, but the ability to learn how to battle the notions that push you away from harmony is the definition of a wonderful life. Those that aren't aware of noncompliance may as well live happily but have they lived? They exist by conforming to what is "right". Never do they contemplate the potential of their good and dark sides emerging, they don't explore that there is more to life than doing what you are told. You don't learn about yourself and you don't experience life beneath the surface of the skin. One does not need be depressed in order to contrive these thoughts, but we need some sort of despondency present at least by others that help introduce and influence our notions of "another world". We are all here to learn from others, society is made not for an individual person but for everyone. If life was about being solo and without the aid of others, wouldn't you be the only person in existence? People are the best resources and everyone needs a good lesson or two in life in order to fully live
Tuesday, December 31 1:00 AM
Happy New Year! It has been nearly a month since I lost wrote in here but I came home for Christmas break and the holidas are almost over. Tonite I think me, Mitch and Lauren are going to some party at Mitch's co-workers house, it should be massive and full of strangers ::cring:: Finals went well, I still have a few more days to wait for grades, ugh, bite me! Can you believe there is about a month left before I leave for Austria? ONE MONTH! My goodness, I remember last spring thinking about how long it would be before I ever went, ::sigh:: I decided that I will create a new e-mail address for when I am in Austria, then I can create an Austrian website, strictly covering my Austria trip that you guys can check up on. Anyway, I'm not sure at the moment there is anything else I would like to say at the moment to TTYL :)
Saturday, January 4 5:00 PM
Operation Winter break is in full effect. Plan: Find Kate a job. Methods: internet searches, browsing the newspaper, desires to stumble upon it while going about my everyday life and it will be PERFECT. New Years was good....it was fun until some dickass yelled at me cuz apparently drunken me spilled a teensy bit of champagne in his hair (um, it had to be like two drops cuz my cup was still full). Then this same jerk asked me "we're going dancing at Tropics, want to come with!?!?" And I couldn't hear cuz the music was so loud and so I cried "What?!" several times, finally he yelled at me what he was trying to say making me appear foolish and a deaf dumbass. Lauren at that point yelled at him (much to my dismay) which made me feel more stupid, but I know she had her best intentions at heart :) The next morning involved hungover me talking to Pete who crashed in the same room at Mitch's as we watched "Harvard Man" (UMM NO!!!). Then I persuaded Mitch and Lauren to go out to Breakfast which turned out to be a 2:00 late lunch (we were hungover and slow). It was an adventure for Kate who got 2 hours of sleep.