Pull away from everything forget how to breathe
I only know I’m alive cause my heart beats
It whispers inside me
Tells me what I want to hear
It tells me every secret
Removes my every fear
It knows I don’t want to be
Give me time to get out of this mess
I don’t know how it started
Don’t underestimate the loneliness
That came from the darkness
Inside me
I keep it to myself don’t know how to talk
To tell anyone I know my place is in the dark
It show me outside there
Shows me what I wanna see
It shows me every secret
Removes the light from me
It knows I don’t wanna be
Dream that it’s ending pretend it is real
Let it take over so I don’t have to feel
It knows I don’t wanna be
I’m all out of thoughts, Just want to go back where I belong
Want to make it right, thought I know that I am wrong
There is nothing left in me, my heart’s so closed inside
I don’t know what I want, but in you I will confide
Letters to my family,
written in my handwriting
love sent me home
but will you let me go
Say good bye to me
tomorrow I’m leaving....
I’m all out of reasons, coming up with excuses as to why
I want to tell you now, but if I do then I will cry
There’s no hope left in me, and I’m always alone
I don’t know how to live, remember me when I’m gone
Too many roads to cross, to build bridges in between
So many children lost, without being seen
I for once would like to take control of myself
And find a way to take the pain from this hell.......
Could it be, that you left me
Standing here
No More goodbye, so you can't take my
Lonely tear
The voice inside, will be the one to find
My rainbow
What I've lost, at my own cost
I savour
Outside I see myself,
It can't be anyone else
Because inside,
I'm all alone
No one to hear me scream
Nor take away my tears
My loneliness
Is my own
Could I say, That I would still stay
Standing here
No more I cry, so I can see thy
Lonely tear
The voice outside, Will be the one to hide
My rainbow
What I've gained through all my pain
I savour
I could wish forever that you were here with me
But I know, I don't know
Who I am anymore.
When you feel you’re safe inside
When you feel like you’re alright
You don’t hear the voices
Creeping up
When you see you’re demon side
Let it go for the massive ride
You don’t feel the monster
Creeping up
But I see you
What your anger can do
Don’t let me hear about it from someone else
Just
Take it out on me, Because I’m the one
Who will not leave
Take it out on me, Or there’ll be no
Future left to see
Take it out on me, cause I know why
You feel so angry inside
When you feel like hell is here
When you feel you’re close to tears
You don’t hear the voices
Creeping up
When you see you’re not ok
Let it go for those to pay
You don’t feel the monster
Creeping up
(Don’t let me hear) This is what your anger can do
(Don’t let me hear) This is what losing control does
(Don’t let me hear) This is what your anger can do
Don’t let me hear about it from someone else
Push me away, that’s what you say,
Every time I come near you
The look on you face, want another place
Every time that I see you
Didn’t occur to me, all that I see was
Your desire to run
Wanted to much couldn’t get enough
What did you want
And it was me on the inside screaming out
At the top of my lungs
But I couldn’t hear me reach out for myself
To hold on, to what I’d done
Blank face stares to space
And I take up arms
Against all these thing confusing me
That want to do me harm
I see inside all of your minds
But can’t se inside my own
Reach out for me so as to see
You are what you know
At the darkest hour of night, when the land has gone to sleep
Lights out, shut eyes, no ears to hear me weep
Inside the shadow I was born, a suffering cry was heard
Don’t make me go out alone in this forsaken world
There ain’t nothing left to hold onto
What you left behind is lost in the reaches of time
You can’t take back lies and words
Mostly taken from before I thought I knew you
I just want to know what’s going on
Inside you
You keep telling me to let it be
Guess it’s true
That I don’t know anything
About you
Cause you wont let me in
Let me in you
There’s not much more you can do
Remembering the feelings of betrayal in your hearts past
Don’t believe it’s here for real
Cause you can’t let these things take you over
Don’t leave it unsaid
Don’t break at the bend
Don’t let the stress take over
The world ain’t over yet
Sad was the story she told me
True as it came from her heart
Her soul seemed lost within herself
Her heart torn and broken apart
Taken were the choices she made
He one’s where he stayed never running away
Always wanting to play but never breaking her heart
Broken were the promises said
The one’s where he bled, always fighting instead
Never keeping his head and tore her feelings apart
It’s always been the same for her
Never was she treated right
Crying for days she’d be so sad
But it was worse at night
Sleep was a luxury
Always worried about the morning
Taking tired eyes to work
But it was always without warning
Laying awake in the middle of the night
Feeling lonely and lost from the sight
It’s not something you like to get used to
But I’m doing the best that I can
You can fight the reasons
But tonight I’m staying with you
Lately all my thoughts have been too blue
I don’t want to be on my own anymore
That’s what you’re here for
Tears fall just as much in the day
You know I miss you what more can I say
It’s not something I want to get used to
But I’m doing the best that I can
Take it away, all this loss all this pain
I don’t want to go through this again
I have had it all before
I don’t want it no more
Hear my words as my voice does strain
Why do I see fire burning in your eyes
Like a sense of things to come
Yet your not satisfied
Why do I feel lightning, comin’ down like rain
When all the voices tell me
That you are still the same
Why can’t I feel the thunder beating in my heart
The way it used to beat
Before you lost the spark
Something precious
Now it’s gone
Something precious
and you’re gone
I can’t see through these tears in my eyes
This pain that’s inside
And I wonder who will guide my way
To another day
With you... gone...
You cannot light my way
With you.... gone
Can I live another day
Why do I have to remember things that you said
Like when you were upset
And wished you were dead
Why couldn’t I help when it mattered so much
I just ignored what you said
Told you life was just rough
Why didn’t I hold your hand in your last breath
Couldn’t look at your eyes
Couldn’t imagine your death
Something precious
Now it’s gone
Something Precious
And you’re gone.
She’s awake in bed, Listening to strange voices in her head
They’re not real to her, though she wishes they were
Along with all the bullshit she’s fed
Taking in the solitude, even those voices can’t intrude
Take a deep breath, hold it as she cries for death
But they don’t like here attitude
And I wish that I was there
Silent tears show that I care
How I wish that life was fair
But I’m a million miles away,
With a smile on my face
Caught out in her lies, those voices
the only ones to hear her cries
She wants to die but she’s still alive
She’s just waiting for the flies
Another day another dream
But nothing as is seems to be
The hope of wanting gone and rotting
Along with all its gleam
Don’t cry no more tears
This broken heart will hurt no more
the pain now gone
Lost somewhere outside
As soon as I come in
Then I will find
Someone to love
Someone who cares
No way that anyone compares
To deaths release
Come now take me
They can’t break me
Because I’m lost inside myself
Should I listen
And show them in me
And fall apart without my shell
Watching time tick by
This lost soul will feel again
the memories lost
Gone in burnt picture
Don’t take this wrong
Cause I’m still here
Someone to know
Someone to feel
No one to take my world away
for deaths release
Tomorrow faded before it begins for me
Today was yesterday repeated
A week from now I’m hollow bones
Left behind like stolen stones
And weak, because I believe
In deaths release.
She lay awake, blood stained hands
Marking her mistake
It’s another day, but she doesn’t want to stay
But she’ll tremble as her mind does reassemble
And she’ll run from everything she’s done
Curse the dreams that told her
That as the lies grow older
Then she’ll believe them too
And take the means that made her
From a friend into a stranger
So she’ll believe them too
Out in the world all her lies are unfurled
What she said ticks around in everyone’s head
They’re all thinking their eyes are unblinking
She’s unforgiven from the truth she is driven
Secretly she’ll tell herself
That everything is still the same
And nothing left around her has yet changed
And all the colours in her head
Making her see what’s true
So she can believe it too