Take hold my shattered heart never let it go
I don’t know how I came to let these feelings show
Give to me what I need inside this what I now see
But no matter how close you are its never close enough for me
Though I can’t let these tears fall
And I must go without
And I watch life through my window
Though I go on with doubt
Never thought about what you could mean to me
All these secrets I held tight inside of me
Illusions grown from faith decide what is real
But no matter how hard I try I can’t conceal the depth of what I feel
One step away
Come closer
I want to see ya
You've got nothing to fear
State your name
For the record
Could you please
But it's already here
Conflicting sides
Want to play on my mind
When I talk
Cause I can't find
In the tides of time
What I want
Cause nobody knows me
And I can breathe
With you next to me
In my space
Cause nobody knows me
Sometimes I think
That you can be
Somewhere else
There is no reason I see
Blameless fate
Take a slap
One the hand of life
There's no excuses for me
Treasured heart I want to free you
Somewhere inside the mind that sees it
Don't worry bout the mistakes that we make
It's what we have to do
Blood on my hands though I am blameless
Take it out on those who make us
Inspired thoughts to make a truce
It's what we have to do
And I wont let go
If you hold my hand
I don't want to loose it again
Control myself
In the middle of the mess
I don't want loose it again
My anger rent into violent rage
The screams at night are my message
To keep myself acting out
Its what I have to do
Sometimes I'll cry a flood of tears
But not when anyone is there
Don't want you to know the real me
It's what I have to do
Put all your thoughts in one space
So it makes it easier to go through you mistakes
never have your own place
And you can make them one more time
one more time
one more time
I dont know why I bothered
when it didn't matter anyway
I don't know why I'm here
when you didn't have a thing to say
Can you make it clear?
Then maybe I can stay another day
But can you tell me why
repetitive cycles are the safe road
So don't conform to societies mode
Never believe you are alone
And you can fake it one more time
one more time
one more time
Pretend that no one is watching
Pretend like you dont care
Your having the time of your life
just tell me why I'm here
Sometime when I call you
Can you set me free
The lies they have now bound me
And I am on my knees
A prisoner on my own
You watch through the grates
Nonchalance in your stance
and hatred on your face
Paint me a picture
Of a world where I belong
Anywhere but nothingness
where I cannot hold on
Burn the memories
Sometimes I dream about
Wings above the trees
Looking down on warships
Governing the sea
For a while I'm alone
Then you catch my gaze
Nonchalance in your stance
and hatred on your face
How long can you hold to burnt memories
Discoloured and distorted
Nothings what it seems
It's not a race to see
Who will make it out of here
I don't want to be
Surrounded by my fears
Turn myself around
I don’t want to see you there
Where my life is bound
Too much to worry for me to care
Just like everyone else
on the inside I cry
On the outside I'm fine
You don't notice
That under this skin
There's a place I begin
Just like everyone else
Beyond the mind
There's a place that I'm alone
No one to find
The heart that I must own
No more pleasant dream
Of fantasy that belongs to me
The realm of society
Is the place that I have to be
Just like everyone else
I think, I breath
I sleep, I feel
Just like everyone else
I talk, I dream
I run, I deal
Just like everyone else
She slapped her head had an apihpany
Typed the words that came so easily
She'd leave it here so no one misunderstood
She didn't want anyone to follow
She didn't want anyone to be there
When she sang the words of her life time
The blood of a thousand soldiers
reaching through the earth to save her
She cries, at night I find I'm
The one to break her when she sings
of all the wrong that's been done her
She cried, at night I find I'm
She clapped her hands, had a beat in mind
Sang the words that were easy to find
In a shadowed room so no one
interuppted her
She didn't need someone to follow
She didn't need someone to be there
When she sang the words of her life time
Blood are the words that flowed
So nobody knows
Cause it never showed
Singing are the veins she cut down
Breath like you want to bleed
Scream cause it makes you free
I don't know why I can't deny
What I feel inside
And I can't place the lonely face
That makes me hide
If I don't know in the middle of it all
What comes between
I'll figure it out
If I don't know in the break of the fall
What goes unseen
I'll figure it out
Blind, from the passion in your eyes
Deaf, to the soul of the surprise
But I can't say come what may
When I'm so far away
And I can't trace the bitter fate
That bleeds away
Dreams of death
they come to me
I dont know why
I have to change
I like me
The way I am
To bad if you dont
This is my stage
(prechorus)
Living to breath
the open air
something in here!
Covert the one you love the most
Jealousy is the curse
Bleeding demise of sacred sites
what could be worse
Than you
Walking alone
I can't do this
But I know why
Things dont change
I dont like
The way you are
To late for me
To start to rearrange
I know you need to believe
There is someone else out there like me
But you discard me again
But you have scarred me again
Cause I live my life in shades of Grey
I guessed you'd need to see
That someone needs you company
But you discard me again
But you have scarred me again
It flows by like we're nothing
It keeps moving in spite of all of us
Time is the enemy never defeated
Once we're gone it keeps on feeding
If I could bring it back again
I would say
I'm sorry
If I could bring it back again
I would stay
I'm sorry
I know I should not have gone
But nothing now can change it
To many things have happened since
and I cannot replace this
Let it happen again
Experience the pain
There she stands in the moonlight
Shadows resting on her face
I can't help but silently wonder
How those scars got their place
So though I've had my share
I asked her how they got there
She said
I once was a beautiful woman
But sometimes we all make mistakes
I was with a man who I thought was the one
Once we were together things changed
So there we sat talking
She smiled back on her life
Remembering the old stories
I thought this can't be right
So though I've had my share
I asked her how she can
Now I stand in the moonlight
Shadows resting on my face
I can't help but smile
Thinking how these scars got there place
Looking back in the mirror
I see things I dont like
Looking back behind me
I wonder if I was wrong or right
But you can't help me
Cause I have changed
And nobody's with me
I can't find myself on my own
Cause I dont know where I've gone
But now looking around me
I see I'm in a cemetary
Reaching back into my life
I see things that I regret
Reaching back inside me
I try not to be upset
But I can't help me
Cause I have changed
And nobody's with me