EnsTren: (They went, and kept the horseplay to the
minimum in the backseat of the limo.)
Edmondia: (But they did have to straighten each other's
uniforms before they got out.)
EnsTren: (She told him to be invisible like the
tombrobber and cousin.)
Edmondia: ("Oh, all right.")
Edmondia: (And he went transparent with a tiny pout.)
EnsTren: (But it did make hikari happy.)
Edmondia: ("But I still get to beat the crap out of the
annoying cheekbone guy?")
EnsTren: (Sigh, yes Yamimine, but make sure I'm
someplace high visibility first--I don't want to get
blamed. And no shadow powers!)
Edmondia: (Okay! I'll just beat the living - uh, I'll just beat
him half to death.)
EnsTren: (Reasonably acceptable. Hikari
smiled--hikari liked it when he defended her.)
Edmondia: (Thank you pretty light.)
EnsTren: (And she still flushed sometimes when he said
that.)
Edmondia: (I loooooove you! And he flung his arms around
her and squeezed her tight.)
EnsTren: (Faintly smiling she touched his arms.)
Edmondia: (He beamed at her. I promise I'll be good and
smack him around.)
EnsTren: (Hikari was happy and went to class.)
Edmondia: (And he followed her and sat on her desk and
shot evil glares to the boy with the good cheekbones.)
Edmondia: Class~
EnsTren: bai
Edmondia: back
EnsTren: yay
EnsTren: Seto's all hyper aware, trying to figure who's
looking at her
Edmondia: it's just some silly boi with a crush
EnsTren: just him?
EnsTren: and did he have the crush before the femness?
EnsTren: why is he crushing?
Edmondia: for all the random reasons anybody crushes
Edmondia: prettiness, intelligence, intrigue
Edmondia: probably just one
Edmondia: and he might've been crushing before, but way
too embarrassed and fearing teh ghei-ness
EnsTren: *pets him*
EnsTren: seth better not mess up his cheekbones
Edmondia: methinks there will be
lifting-up-by-the-collarness-and-shaking
EnsTren: do you think more people would be crushing
if she consented to wearing the fem uniform?
Edmondia: probably - legs, yo
EnsTren: *snarks*
EnsTren: she's wearing girlness, changed when Seth
remerged with her
EnsTren: so if seth comes out he's crossdressing
Edmondia: cue the girly screech
EnsTren: and the smirking
Edmondia: and then the "Hmn, does this make my butt look
big?"
EnsTren: and then the facepalm
Edmondia: "Does it?"
EnsTren: Sudden evil smile, "Why don't you ask your
cousin."
Edmondia: "Cousin, does this make my butt look big?"
EnsTren: "Seth... Your legs!"
Edmondia: "What about them?"
EnsTren: "T-they're like a girls!"
Edmondia: "Huh?"
EnsTren: "They are all... like your hikari's!"
Edmondia: He looked down. "Uh, is that bad?"
EnsTren: Yugi looked at Seth's legs, "I think they are
better than the Dark Magician's!"
Edmondia: Seth promptly struck a pose. "Ha! Take that
Mahaado!"
EnsTren: "But no one can beat Kalim's chest."
Edmondia: He sighed. "This is true."
EnsTren: Hikari came up behind him and wrapped her
arms around his waist, "Eh, you'd look silly with a chest
that big and muscular."
EnsTren: Yugi was confronted by two nearly identical
pairs of foreverlegs.
Edmondia: Yami looked irked and wrapped his arms around
his waist. "Hikari, stop drooling, it's impolite."
EnsTren: "But Ya-ami, Look!"
EnsTren: "And it's easy to pretend Seth is a girl when
he's dressed like that."
Edmondia: "...hmn, you've got a point."
Edmondia: "Cousin, make out with your hikari!"
EnsTren: There was sputtering.
Edmondia: "I second the motion!"
EnsTren: Hikari looked like something short circuited,
"Why the hell should I?"
Edmondia: The Yugis blinked at her.
EnsTren: She held onto her Yami nervously, her lower
lip sticking out in a slight pout.
Edmondia: "Hotness," they said in unison, nodding
solemnly.
EnsTren: "...Then I get to watch you! Because Seth's a
prude."
Edmondia: "Okay!" they agreed readily.
EnsTren: A blink, they agreed!?
Edmondia: Both boys smirked at them. "What?"
EnsTren: Aw hell, she might as well get the most out of
this. "You can use the Jacuzzii in my house."
Edmondia: "Sounds good," Yugi purred, giving his yami's
thigh a squeeze.
EnsTren: She poked her Yami to see if he would agree.
Making out did not mean they had to take anything off.
Edmondia: "Making out is good!" he announced happily,
"Just so long as I don't have to watch them."
EnsTren: She looked at the Yugis.
Edmondia: Who were rather obviously groping one another.
EnsTren: She shoved them into her limo.
Edmondia: They made a very pretty tangle on her backseat.
EnsTren: She jumped in with a smile and engaged in
Seth kissage.
Edmondia: They cheered.
EnsTren: Much fumbling, and yami in panties and a
skirt was useful and... hot.
Edmondia: Yami groping up her skirt and panties was also
pretty hot.
EnsTren: Giggling and squirming, and she was fairly
sure they were rubbing up against each other on top of
Yugi's Yami.
Edmondia: Yugi's Yami didn't seem to mind much, if the
noises Yugi was making were any indication.
EnsTren: It was a very pleasant makeout session all in
all.
Edmondia: A bit messy and noisier than usual.
EnsTren: But pleasant.
Edmondia: Yami was very entertaining in a skirt.
EnsTren: Was someone else's hand on her boob
though?
Edmondia: "Whoops, sorry Seto-kun."
EnsTren: "Eh... It's fine, I think, which one of you did it,
though?"
Edmondia: "Uh, think it was me, yami's hands are in - uh,
yeah."
EnsTren: She craned her neck in an attempt to look.
Edmondia: Yugi lifted his hips helpfully. "See?"
EnsTren: She started staring.
Edmondia: Yugi started purring.
EnsTren: Seto wiggled and turned to admire.
Edmondia: Seth wriggled and busied himself looking
elsewhere. Mainly down her shirt.
EnsTren: The Yugis were pretty, she wished she could
be them.
Edmondia: Yugi giggled throatily and wriggled under his
yami.
EnsTren: They were happy and could be together.
Edmondia: Her yami seemed to be undoing her top with his
teeth.
EnsTren: That was nice too. She wasn't sure how she
felt about other people seeing her breasts.
Edmondia: Oh, his mouth was very nice.
EnsTren: She pet his hair and sighed, looking away
from the Yugis.
Edmondia: His hands were nice too.
EnsTren: They made her feel good.
Edmondia: As did his tongue.
EnsTren: They made her toes wiggle.
Edmondia: He was wiggling quite nicely against her, too.
EnsTren: So they made out again next to the Yugis.
Edmondia: It was very fun.
EnsTren: Though she'd need to change all of her clothes
when she got home.
Edmondia: They were getting very very wrinkled.
EnsTren: And some things were getting other things.
Edmondia: When had he taken off her socks?
EnsTren: Why did he take off her socks?
Edmondia: ...oh, because he was licking her ankle.
EnsTren: Why did that feel as good as it did?
Edmondia: Hmn, and his hands were very high up under her
skirt at the same time.
EnsTren: She moaned.
Edmondia: This was very nice.
EnsTren: She wiggled.
Edmondia: Oooh, yami was licking up her leg now.
EnsTren: She wanted him to go faster.
Edmondia: He obliged her.
EnsTren: So she made many nice noises.
Edmondia: Hmn, yami really needed to take off that silly pink
jacket.
EnsTren: So she pushed it off his shoulders.
Edmondia: He wriggled prettily out of it. And then put his
hands back on her thighs, which was good.
EnsTren: She mewled at him and guided him. Yes,
Yami made her feel good and forget about upsetting
stuff.
Edmondia: He purred at her and licked in a very naughty
place.
EnsTren: She made gorgeous sounds.
Edmondia: Oh, this was very very fun indeed.
EnsTren: She felt dirty because the Game Kings were
right there, but it wasn't bad dirty, and Yami's tongue
was much more attention getting.
Edmondia: And the Game Kings didn't seem to mind either -
they seemed to be quite wrapped up in each other.
EnsTren: If Yami's tongue wasn't so distracting she'd be
insulted.
Edmondia: Mmm, yami was very good with his tongue.
EnsTren: She threaded her fingers into his hair and
groaned.
Edmondia: Yugi giggled and wolf-whistled at her - before his
mouth was abruptly otherwise occupied.
EnsTren: Well, that mollified her somewhat--which was
more attention she could give her yami's tongue.
Edmondia: Oooh, yummy yami. Good hands.
EnsTren: She wriggled and enjoyed it.
Edmondia: Better tongue. Yum.
EnsTren: More moaning, yay.
Edmondia: Yami was very nice.
EnsTren: Good Yami, very good. He gets a biscuit
when they get home.
Edmondia: Mmm, yami's hands were soooooo nice.
EnsTren: Yami got his beer too, when they got home.
He was being a good yami and making her world
sparkly.
Edmondia: Ooo, and shiny and squirmy and oh my his
tongue definitely shouldn't be there.
EnsTren: But it felt really good.
Edmondia: Yami was a very very good yami.
EnsTren: Thank the gods she was a woman and could
thus take full advantage of his very goodness.
Edmondia: Mmm, yami's tongue...
EnsTren: She was dying, she was sure of it.
Edmondia: Anything this good was definitely illegal.
EnsTren: Did this count as suicide?
Edmondia: Death by yami's tongue - what a way to go.
EnsTren: She died in a supernova, it seemed.
Edmondia: Her yami purred at her.
EnsTren: She wanted another one.
Edmondia: He moved his hands again. That was nice.
EnsTren: She was warm and tingly.
Edmondia: His mouth was nice on her tummy.
EnsTren: She purred.
Edmondia: His hands were nice on her hips, too.
EnsTren: She was warm.
Edmondia: He was very warm too.
EnsTren: She considered demanding another one, but
decided cuddling was better.
Edmondia: She liked where her yami was.
EnsTren: Everything was good.
Edmondia: Yugi giggled.
Edmondia: ...oh, his shirt was hanging off her shoulder.
EnsTren: Well, that wasn't soo bad. And she was too
tingly to care much.
Edmondia: And he looked rather pretty like that, even if he
was a bit skinny and much paler than her yami.
EnsTren: She tried to measure his lickablility versus her
yami's.
Edmondia: Hmn, Yugi's yami seemed quite happy to lick him.
EnsTren: She poked the pharaoh, "What does he taste
like?"
Edmondia: Yami pulled back a little and considered it, licking
his lips. "Hmn... peaches and honey."
EnsTren: She reached and grabbed Yugi's hand tugging
it over while commenting, "Yamimine tastes like... well,
I'm tempted to say ham just to get on his nerves, but like
heavy cream and honey."
Edmondia: Yugi blinked at her. "Are you going to lick me?"
EnsTren: She did.
Edmondia: He giggled. "Tickles!"
EnsTren: "Hmn," another lick on the wrist, "Like those
crystallized fruits I sometimes get."
Edmondia: "Hee, hikari, you're a fruit."
Edmondia: Yugi giggled. "You are too, yamimine."
EnsTren: She grabbed Atemu's arm so she could taste
him.
Edmondia: "You're going to lick my cousin?" her yami
whined into her tummy.
EnsTren: "Yes, Kuriboh."
EnsTren: She licked the pharaoh and considered his
taste.
Edmondia: Her yami pinched her thigh. "Am not a kuriboh."
Edmondia: Yami snickered and nuzzled his face into Yugi's
throat.
EnsTren: Seto licked Atemu's wrist to irritate Seth.
Edmondia: Atemu chuckled. "Tickles."
EnsTren: "Tastes like my yami, but with... rock salt or
something."
Edmondia: "Mmm, salty yami-mine." And Yugi licked
somewhere much naughtier than she had.
EnsTren: "Yamimine tastes like that there," and she
pointed it out on their bodies.
Edmondia: Yugi cackled.
Edmondia: "Yami, you taste like Seth-dick!"
Edmondia: Atemu turned red and hid his face. "Shut up!"
EnsTren: Seto giggled and licked Atemu again.
Edmondia: Seth grumped into her tummy.
EnsTren: "Actually I'd say more like his testes,
Seth-dick is saltier."
Edmondia: Yugi snickered.
Edmondia: Seth gave a little wail of distress and nipped at her
tummy.
EnsTren: "What do I taste like? Yamimine only says I
taste yummy."
Edmondia: "Yami-yours isn't very eloquent. Here, gimme
your hand."
EnsTren: She held it out. Gay guys were fun. Well,
they were bi, but they weren't a sexual threat in any
sense of the word.
Edmondia: Yugi licked her palm, seemed to consider it for a
moment, and licked her again. "Hmn... cherry popsicle."
EnsTren: "Are you sure that's not my soap?"
Edmondia: "Hmn, not sure." He licked her again. "You might
be right - hmn."
EnsTren: She licked him as well, just to be friendly.
Edmondia: Atemu took her other hand and gave her a careful
lick. "Milk," he announced, "With honey."
EnsTren: "Does that sound right, Yamimine?"
Edmondia: "Mmmhmm," he mumbled. "Yummy."
EnsTren: She pulled her yami's hand up for sampling,
and communal licking of fingers.
Edmondia: "Mmm?"
EnsTren: "Doesn't he taste like your yami, but less
salty?"
Edmondia: Yugi gave him a curious lick. "Um... yeah, sorta."
EnsTren: "I wonder if yamis taste diffrent to their hikaris
and vise-versa?"
Edmondia: "Could be."
EnsTren: There was more sampling of each other's
flavors, Seto started to feel like she was part of a wolf
pack or something.
Edmondia: Hmn, it's an apt comparison, pretty light.
EnsTren: Mrl?
Edmondia: Hee, you're our kitten. But this is our family, ne?
EnsTren: Not a kitten!
EnsTren: And if I'm a kitten then what's Yugi?
Edmondia: Also a kitten.
EnsTren: And then what are you and Atemu?
Edmondia: Very big kitties. Well... sort of big in cousin's
case.
EnsTren: But I'm bigger than your cousin, and I'm
still a kitten?
Edmondia: Hikari, he murmured, and tweaked her nose.
EnsTren: Seto rather proudly pulled herself up as if to
deliver a scathing retort, "Meow."
EnsTren: Somehow she kept a straight face.
Edmondia: Yugi burst into giggles.
Edmondia: Seth snickered and buried his face in her busom.
Purr, baby.
EnsTren: Seto was rather proud of herself, bitterness
drying away for now. She was happy to purr for him.
Edmondia: He was happy to wriggle his fingers along her
sides and purr back at her.
Edmondia: "Two words for you two: Catwoman costume."
EnsTren: She pulled up her shirt and poked one of her
breasts. "They are too small."
Edmondia: "They're good," the boys said in perfect unison.
EnsTren: She blinked, "Why are you all agreeing?"
Edmondia: They exchanged glances, then stared at her. "Um,
hikari-mine, they're boobs. Boooooooobs."
EnsTren: "They're small!"
Edmondia: "But that's the perfect handful!" Yugi said
cheerily.
EnsTren: "Small, tiny even."
Edmondia: He shrugged. "Personally, I'm more of a butt man,
so..."
Edmondia: Seth shrugged. "I love your legs."
Edmondia: Atemu shrugged. "Nice hips."
Edmondia: "So the boobs just add to the overall package,
you see?" Seth beamed at her.
EnsTren: "I have a boy's butt--which explains why you
like it," she deflated and stared up at the roof of the car.
Edmondia: "No, you've got a girl's butt," Yugi said easily,
and gave his yami's rump an affectionate slap. "Nice and
rounded, not like a guy's."
EnsTren: She sighed and didn't respond.
Edmondia: Her yami rubbed her tummy. "Only you could
have three guys draped all over you and still think you're not
pretty, hikari," he teased gently.
EnsTren: She turned on her side under him, facing the
back seat, and folded her arms under her breasts.
Edmondia: He tugged lightly at her. "Hikari.... look at me?"
EnsTren: She would not.
Edmondia: What's wrong?
EnsTren: She was quietquiet sadsad for no reason like
she was sometimes. Stupid tiny breasted boy hipped
little girl that tastes like cherry ice when everyone else
tastes exotic and good.
EnsTren: Stupid little whore making out in front of two
boys and can't even spread her legs for her soul mate.
Weakweak.
Edmondia: Beloved? He nuzzled against her, squeezing her
against his chest. What's the matter, my wife?
EnsTren: Was she even his wife if they could not
consummate it?
EnsTren: Her eyes suddenly flooded at the thought.
Edmondia: Beloved?! Baby, talk to me, what's wrong?!
EnsTren: She was sad, downdarksadsad.
EnsTren: She dug her nails into the back of her arm and
sighed.
Edmondia: He pulled her down into his lap and tugged at her
arm. Don't do that, you'll hurt yourself.
EnsTren: That was the point.
EnsTren: She hated her wildly swinging horomones,
hated herself, hated her weakness.
Edmondia: "Seto-chan, are you all right?"
EnsTren: She scratched herself.
Edmondia: "Don't do that," Seth sighed, and tangled his
fingers into hers.
Edmondia: Yugi frowned thoughtfully and slithered out from
under his yami to settle at her side.
EnsTren: She was quietquiet and wandering the
darkdarkbad halls of her mind.
Edmondia: Pretty hikari, beloved? Will you come to us?
EnsTren: No, no. She was filthy and plain and weak
and bad.
Edmondia: Beautiful beloved lady-mine, will you come?
EnsTren: No, no.
Edmondia: Pretty light, pretty wife, pretty mine, will you
come?
EnsTren: What if she wasn't his wife though? Because
they couldn't consummate it?
EnsTren: She scratched her arms and moved further
away.
Edmondia: Beloved! Stop that!
Edmondia: Come to me, please? Let me take care of you?
EnsTren: She wanted the tiny little blade she had at
home that cut shallowly into her skin, Sometimes she
didn't even bleed, but it hurt still.
EnsTren: Distracted her from the sadness that she couldn't
ignore on her own. Physical pain was easy enough to
overcome and so she could do her work or keep cutting
or anything else she wanted to do.
EnsTren: Except have sex, that is.
Edmondia: Beloved? Come to me?
EnsTren: She would not.
Edmondia: My light, my lady, my wife? Come to me, come to
us, let us protect you...
EnsTren: She wasn't his wife! Tears came from her
eyes, down her cheeks, tripping over her nose and then
down. She would sob but she was far away in her
darkbadsad place.
Edmondia: Beloved? Come to me, I need you with me,
please, pretty light? My lady, my love?
EnsTren: No. Nonono. She was bad and dirty and
not right and weak and filthy and badbadbad.
Edmondia: Beloved? Darling-sweet? Come to me, let me
hold you, let me take care of you, let us hold you and keep you
warm and safe and sacred...
EnsTren: No, she wasn't sacred, didn't deserve to be
safe or happy or warm.
Edmondia: My lady, my wife, my darling, my goddess, please
come to me?
EnsTren: She wasn't a lady, wasn't his wife, not in act
at least, and goddesses were... pure, good and right and
not fucked up like her.
Edmondia: ...Seto-chan? Pretty lady, where have you gone?
EnsTren: Deep dark, farfar away. There were all
broken and sharp edges to her mind down here, selfhate
and crushed hopes like broken obsidian.
Edmondia: Seto-chan, pretty other, pretty twin, why won't
you come to us? Your husband needs you.
EnsTren: Twin? She paused in reaching out for the
darkdark shards that would cut and hurt her. Twin?
Edmondia: Seto-chan, sister, come to us, please? We need
you.
EnsTren: She listened to the voice. Not Mokuba. Not
her brother. Cobwebs and echoes.
EnsTren: Besides, why would anyone want her? She
was bad and filthy and weak and not at all feminine.
EnsTren: She wasn't right, would never be right, could
never be right. She was filth and weak.
Edmondia: Seto? Sister? Where are you, my twin?
EnsTren: Twin? Twintwintwotwin?
Edmondia: Pretty mirror, pretty match, where have you
gone? Why are you in the dark, pretty light?
Edmondia: Sister? Where are you?
EnsTren: She ignored the voices and touched the
shards of broken dreams. She bled brightblackblood
and she smiled because it hurt.
Edmondia: Sister! Loud, brightbrightbright. Leave this place
and return to us! Come home!
EnsTren: No, this was a place that's been with her for
nearly forever. Where her monster came from, her
companion from before the Blue Eyes.
EnsTren: Her dragons had borne her up on their backs
and silver wings out of this place to the light, but they
failed and fell and burned up leaving her in a bright place
that hurt and she couldn't control.
EnsTren: She liked coming back down here sometimes
instead of her soul room. Her bed creaked there, here
the shards dug into her flesh and she bled and bled and
bled.
EnsTren: She wished she could die from it.
Edmondia: Sister? My soul's twin, come home - your
husband is waiting.
EnsTren: Who was this twin that claimed to be hers?
Edmondia: A boy, certainly.
EnsTren: She was a boy down here sometimes; if she
could find the right broken thing and bleed enough on it.
Edmondia: Sister, he can't reach you, he needs you now.
Please come home, back to us, back to our family - where you
belong, pretty sister, pretty twin.
EnsTren: Who are you? Why should I go back before
I want to?
EnsTren: And I'm not pretty.
EnsTren: She cut herself again, and her blood spoke for
her. Ugly, hateful, plain, weak, murder, bad, filth,
notwoman, notright.
Edmondia: I'm your soul's brother, sweet twin. Your
husband, your lover, needs you now, he can't feel you when
you're so far away from him. You are pretty, sweet sister,
lovely twin. His lies have poisoned you, made you hurt inside,
but they are only lies. Come to us, let us heal you, let us love
you and make you whole. Please, pretty sister?
EnsTren: Soul's brother?
EnsTren: And why were her eyes hot and wet? Was
she bleeding from her eyes? She had not yet gouged
them out down here, and she never cried down here, for
it was far too cold and made her numb.
Edmondia: Your twin. Different, but the same. Come home
to our family, sweet sister? Your husband misses you, my lover
cannot soothe him. Come home?
EnsTren: But she wanted to be here.
Edmondia: Sister, you're hurting yourself, come home to us
and let us heal you.
EnsTren: Couldn't she be here if she wanted to?
EnsTren: Couldn't she hurt herself if she wanted to?
EnsTren: Couldn't she have what she wanted?
EnsTren: She would get indignant or angry now, but
it was cold down here so she didn't.
Edmondia: Sister... why do you want to hurt yourself?
EnsTren: Mine. It's mine. Want peace, sleep, purity of
thought.
EnsTren: Maybe bleed the filth out.
Edmondia: It's poison. You're not filthy. You're my sister, my
twin, and your soul is pure and right. Your husband loves you,
my sister, he's incredibly unhappy that you're not with him. He
needs you.
EnsTren: He said that about the injections too. Those
would make me right again though. Make me better.
Put me back in control. Aren't I allowed to have
something I want, something greedy, just once without
being punished?
EnsTren: Please?
EnsTren: More of the burning, more wet stuff. Did she
cut her eyes down here?
Edmondia: Oh, sweet sister, sweet light... don't go back to
the way you were before. We can't stop you, pretty light, but
we love you more than you know. How can you want to go
back to the way things were before? How can you want that
much hurt again?
EnsTren: Because it was cold and numb and didn't feel
anything until he beat her and ripped her out of this place
took away the only thing that was only hers.
Edmondia: And will you leave your lover to have this hurt
again?
Edmondia: Will you leave our family for this emptiness?
EnsTren: Why can't I be greedy? She wasn't sobbing,
because sobbing was impossible down here.
EnsTren: But her eyes burned like the sun and streaks
came from the corners, also burning.
EnsTren: Her blood was cold though.
EnsTren: Why am I punished when I want something
just for me?
EnsTren: Why was the only thing that was only hers
taken away?!
Edmondia: What was yours and stolen, sister?
EnsTren: Title, place. Nothing else was ever only mine,
always sharing, never a sole claim.
EnsTren: Why wasn't all she had worked for, all she
had given up, all her determination not enough?!
Edmondia: And what of your husband, sweet sister?
EnsTren: Not mine, because I can't cosummate it.
EnsTren: Because I'm weak.
EnsTren: Which is why I had my gender and my
Identity taken away. Why I let him use my designs to
kill people. Why I wasn't able to win.
Edmondia: Your husband is yours. You won his heart and
his soul and his life. All yours forever, sister. Consummation
is sweet, yes, but not vital to your marriage. You are my sister,
and I love you. You are not weak. You are a beautiful woman
and a beautiful person and you have saved him from the night.
You have a loving husband and a loving family and a sweet
brother.
EnsTren: Her flesh was like wax on the black shards.
I'm weak, my body is a mishmash unshapen notright.
EnsTren: Tinkling sounds as she moved, crushing,
sliding, obsidian falling and moving. She hid behind the
cracked shells.
Edmondia: Sister, come home. Your husband needs you. We
love you, pretty twin, we want to keep you safe.
EnsTren: How could anyone love as anything as wrong
as she?
Edmondia: Because we do.
Edmondia: There is nothing wrong with you.
Edmondia: There is nothing wrong with our loving you.
EnsTren: She was... defective, faulty, blasphemous.
EnsTren: Profane.
Edmondia: You are my sister. Your soul is pure. I love you.
EnsTren: She threw shards at where she thought the
other was. That's Pure?!
EnsTren: She was debased and disgusting.
Edmondia: You are the wife of the high priest of Kemet.
Edmondia: You are the sister of the pharaoh's consort.
Edmondia: You are a holy woman.
EnsTren: But she wasn't a woman!
EnsTren: She was never one, could never be one. She
was filth and a girl who'd never grow up right.
EnsTren: She was a boy who could never be a man.
EnsTren: She was no woman.
EnsTren: She hated herself.
Edmondia: We love you.
Edmondia: You are a woman.
Edmondia: You are a sister.
Edmondia: You are a wife.
Edmondia: You will be a mother.
EnsTren: She threw up.
EnsTren: Mother, children, sex.
Edmondia: You want to be with him, don't you?
EnsTren: She skittered backwards, not even noticing
the shards that pierced her back. Nononono not that
waaaay!
Edmondia: He loves you, sister. He'll never hurt you. He's
sweet and gentle and careful with you. His touch is soft, you
know you love him. He loves you. You needn't fear his touch,
he only loves you. And, sweet sister, you don't have to have
sex to have children - you need not even be pregnant. Breathe,
pretty twin, remember we love you and never want to hurt you.
EnsTren: She pushed a shard into her leg to make the
fear go away, back off, to make her able to breathe.
EnsTren: But he had, he had touched her and she hated
it and didn't want it and he had done it againagainagain.
EnsTren: He had taken her first kiss, she had sold it to
him.
EnsTren: She didn't want to but he insisted and she
hated it and it made her want to cut her stomach open to
get the queasy feeling out.
Edmondia: Sister, that was then. Now he makes you feel
good, now he's your lover and husband and mate.
EnsTren: He did it before, she could still feel his hands
on her body from that time sometimes. And she
couldn't... spread her legs for him, she wasn't his lover,
wasn't his mate. He had penetrated her in no physical
way except her mouth with his tongue.
Edmondia: Is your lover, is your mate, is everything you ever
wanted. You're all he needs.
EnsTren: He could force her anytime he wanted to and
she wouldn't be able to stop him, hadn't been able to
stop him then.
Edmondia: Why would he force you?
EnsTren: Because she couldn't give it to him willingly.
Edmondia: Why would he want it if not willingly?
Edmondia: He loves you.
Edmondia: You and you and you.
EnsTren: He wanted it before.
Edmondia: He's different now.
EnsTren: He took it before.
EnsTren: No, he's not different, he's the same person.
Only she was different but not different enough.
Edmondia: He's different now. You've changed him, gentled
him, soothed his shadows and calmed his darkness.
Edmondia: You love him now.
Edmondia: You've saved him now.
EnsTren: She wanted to die.
Edmondia: You would die when you've found your mate?
Edmondia: You would die and leave your brother alone?
Edmondia: You would take him with you?
EnsTren: We would have been parted, that's the only
reason why we're alive.
EnsTren: I want to be selfish sometimes too.
Edmondia: We'll miss you if you go.
EnsTren: Why?
Edmondia: Because we love you.
EnsTren: Why?
EnsTren: When there was so much wrong with her,
why?
Edmondia: Because we do.
Edmondia: Because you're sweet and strong and wonderful
and brilliant and beautiful and have so much potential.
EnsTren: Not sweet, not wonderful, not beautiful.
Weak, my potential is dead, my dreams destroyed.
Edmondia: Strong, brilliant, uncertain. Need new dreams to
replace the old.
EnsTren: No. Nonononono. Dreams... she'd get selfish
and then she'd be hurt and punished. This selfish no one
can hurt her, because no one can get to her here.
EnsTren: She'd hurt if she dreamed.
Edmondia: Sister, we can protect your dreams.
EnsTren: She was crying and pulled away and curled
up tightly. Nonononono.
Edmondia: Sister, sweet twin, we love you. We're a family
now, and families protect one another. We'll keep you safe.
We'll cherish your dreams.
EnsTren: No, families don'tr protect each other.
EnsTren: She protects her family, her Mokuba, she
provides for him, and for Seth.
Edmondia: And Seth protects you from those who would do
you harm. He blesses your home and uses his magic to keep
you safe. We help you when you need us because we love you.
EnsTren: If... I... I had protected myself and Mokuba
since before he came to me, since before I heard of the
damned items!
EnsTren: ...Does everyone see me as so weak now because they know
the truth?
Edmondia: We know you protected yourself and your
brother. We want to care for you now because we love you.
Edmondia: No one sees you as weak, sweet twin.
Edmondia: We all know better than that, precisely because
we know the truth.
EnsTren: She didn't have a twin, only a Yami. No one
was equal to her but her Yami. Everyone was below,
and two above who took away hers.
Edmondia: Sister, I don't mean to steal from you.
EnsTren: Nothing was hers. She trembled.
EnsTren: Yugi... Yugi always blathered about fighting
for your friends and family and what you believe in and
the damned heart of the cards and she STILL lost.
Couldn't protect her brother, failed at the second thing
she put her heart too. Still had to be saved.
EnsTren: She should have been able to save herself.
EnsTren: Her flaw. Her weakness.
EnsTren: She HATED.
Edmondia: ...I'm sorry you hate me, pretty twin.
Edmondia: I love you.
EnsTren: She cut herself and shook and shook.
EnsTren: Only hers only hers. Her title, her
championship.
EnsTren: She had bought her first damn booster pack
with pennies she had picked up off the street and change
found in between cushions in the orphanage.
Edmondia: I'm sorry we make you sad, pretty twin, sweet
sister.
EnsTren: Why wasn't she good enough? She was
sobbing and her tears made vene the painsharp shards
seem dull and rounded.
EnsTren: Yami always said she was brighter than she
should be. And didn't she break that stupid prophecy?
EnsTren: But she wasn't good enough.
EnsTren: She was shaking.
Edmondia: Sister, you're wonderful and we love you more
than you can ever know. You saved him, you saved yourself.
You helped us win, pretty twin, you saved his soul. He's all
yours. Yours and yours and yours alone.
EnsTren: No. No she wasn't. She was a murderer.
And a loser, she had won and lost.
EnsTren: But he was hers.
Edmondia: He is. We love you. You're strong and beautiful
and good, so good, so bright it almost hurts others to look
upon you. He's all yours to keep and hold and love forever.
We're your family, we love you.
EnsTren: She wasn't good.
Edmondia: You are, my soul's twin.
EnsTren: HOW?!
Edmondia: You love. You care. You seek to heal, never to
hurt. Your soul is sweet and brilliant.
EnsTren: She was a murderer.
Edmondia: You did what you had to do. I see no fault in you,
pretty twin.
EnsTren: She could have put defects in the weapons, or
something.
Edmondia: And paid for them dearly when the scientists
discovered them? You did all you could, sweet sister, to save
yourself and your brother.
EnsTren: She was smarter than them, it could have
been some subtle defect or something.
Edmondia: And when they didn't work right, Gozaburo
would have taken it out on you and your little brother.
EnsTren: She was a murderer. Hundreds and
thousands of people by her hand.
Edmondia: You did what you had to do, sister.
Edmondia: You seek to repair the damage you have done.
EnsTren: Sorry doesn't make it better.
Edmondia: It makes you better.
EnsTren: No, she was filth.
Edmondia: You're my sister. You are light. You are precious
to us.
EnsTren: She was dark, look around.
Edmondia: You're sad and hurting. That's why it's so dark.
But you're beautiful and brilliant and light.
EnsTren: It's always been this way down here.
Edmondia: You've been sad and hurt for a very long time,
pretty sister.
EnsTren: ...Why aren't I allowed to be greedy?
Edmondia: I don't know.
EnsTren: Why... why does it have to hurt here? It never
hurt her in the bad way before. I was allowed to be
greedy here and hurt and not hurt.
EnsTren: This is your fault!
Edmondia: Because I love you?
EnsTren: You brought the hurt here!
EnsTren: This was my place, where my monster came
from but no words to shape the hurt, only my will here!
EnsTren: This is where it never hurts unless I want it
too! Where it's cold but you make it burn and make me
hurt inside when I never had to here before!
Edmondia: ...I'll go, he whispered, and went.
EnsTren: She was shaking and holding herself an
rocking and hating and hurting and it burned.
EnsTren: Why did it burn? It was cold here,
coldcoldcold.
Edmondia: She was... lonely here.
EnsTren: If it got cold again it wouldn't matter.
Edmondia: It was good to be cold... wasn't it?
EnsTren: It didn't hurt.
Edmondia: It didn't make her feel good, either.
Edmondia: Was it better to have hurt and good at the same
time, or just cold?
EnsTren: She never said she wanted to be here forever
though.
EnsTren: Just enough to for the hurt to go away so it
was safe to come out again.
Edmondia: But the hurt wasn't going away.
EnsTren: Because that other one had ruined her place!
Edmondia: ...how had he done that?
EnsTren: She brought the heat.
Edmondia: It was very lonely here.
EnsTren: DAMN HER!
EnsTren: DAMN THEM!
EnsTren: Damn whoever it was that ruined her place.
Edmondia: ...she didn't like it here anymore.
EnsTren: She got up and looked for a new cold place.
EnsTren: She needs a new place. Maybe the cold
would come back, like radiation poisoning fading over
years.
EnsTren: But until then she needed a new place.
Edmondia: ...'loved?
EnsTren: She shied away from the voice. The last one
had ruined her place.
EnsTren: She wanted to go home and cut and hurt with
a real blade. She could put that on ice and then it would
be cold again.
Edmondia: Beloved?
EnsTren: Why did that one take her place away!?
Why did he!?
EnsTren: She started to sob and curl up.
EnsTren: Whywhywhywhywhy was it taken away too?!
Edmondia: Beloved?! Where are you?! Hikari!
EnsTren: She was sobbing silver tears. It was her
place, not only her place because it is where the monster
came from, but it was a safe place and it was taken
away!
Edmondia: Hikari hikari hikari where are you where are
you where are you?!
EnsTren: She went towards the voice that made her cry
and hurt sometimes but could also make it better
sometimes.
EnsTren: It was taken away!
Edmondia: Hikari?!
EnsTren: It was corrupted now, just like the rest of her.
EnsTren: And she couldn't use it anymore because of
him that other she hated HATED!
Edmondia: Someone screamed.
EnsTren: She sobbed into someone's chest, and she
might have been talking, or she could have been the one
screaming.
Edmondia: Warmwarmwarm arms around her, salt on her lips.
EnsTren: It was too much too much tootoomuch.
EnsTren: Too much hurt inside, and she couldn't get
hurt on the outside because the cold place was ruined.
EnsTren: She folded her arm over her breasts, fingers
curling under her arm, and squeezed.
Edmondia: Nononodon'thurt!
EnsTren: She dragged her nails, short and only a little
blunt, across and slightly down. Then did it again.
Edmondia: Don't hurt!
EnsTren: And again.
EnsTren: Her thumbnail was longer, it sliced, pressing
into the flesh and raising an unbleeding welt.
EnsTren: She shuddered. Better, better. It was good.
It wasn't all gone yet, she'd need to bleed for that.
Edmondia: STOP IT!
EnsTren: She flinched and stopped and tensed. She
was unmoving and her eyes widened. Need to getout
needtogetout!
Edmondia: Stay with me.
Edmondia: Stay.
Edmondia: Don't leave me.
Edmondia: Don't leave me.
EnsTren: She was terrified of the yelled command,
and her cold place wasn't cold. She couldn't call up the
coldness and make it numb again.
Edmondia: Stay?
Edmondia: Please stay?
Edmondia: Please don't be afraid...
EnsTren: She was afraid of him.
EnsTren: She whimpered.
Edmondia: Not going to hurt you.
Edmondia: Not going to hurt.
Edmondia: Never going to hurt.
EnsTren: Why did he ruin the cold place? What did I
do wrong? I'm sorry for throwing the shards, just
make the cold come back, pleaseplease I need it.
Edmondia: I can't.
Edmondia: You can't.
EnsTren: She started sobbing again.
Edmondia: I'm sorry but you can't and I can't and it's not
right for things to be this way.
EnsTren: I didn't do anything bad enough to take it
away. Giveback I need it I'm sorry I-I-.
Edmondia: Shh... you don't.
EnsTren: She wailed and she hurt and as soon as she
got her hands on that little knife in the bathroom she was
going to jam it into her thigh to make the pain and tears
go away.
EnsTren: And maybe she could bleed the heat out.
Edmondia: No. No. No.
Edmondia: My heat.
Edmondia: Good heat.
Edmondia: Heat burns away the tears.
Edmondia: Heat melts the hurt.
Edmondia: Love you.
Edmondia: Let me love you.
EnsTren: "What did I do that was bad? Why'd he take
it away?"
Edmondia: You left. Why did you leave?
EnsTren: She was shaking and didn't understand why
someone would want to hurt her so much. Leave here
or there?
Edmondia: He fumbled for her hand, pressed it against his
chest. Left here.
Edmondia: Hurt... not want to hurt. Want to heal.
Edmondia: But to heal, have to hurt first.
EnsTren: I leave sometimes where I can't cut or it's
not the right kind of hurt to make it go away.
EnsTren: I like the cold. The other one said they
were good and I was good but ruined my place so
now I hurt!
EnsTren: Now I can't go away until the hurt goes
away.
Edmondia: Kiss me.
EnsTren: NO!
EnsTren: Badfilthydisgustingwrongvomitbad!
Edmondia: Why?
EnsTren: If the nice voice thought she was bad enough
to take away one of her few solaces, how could she kiss
Seth?
Edmondia: Good enough to help heal you. Not intentional,
not meant to hurt.
Edmondia: Kiss me.
EnsTren: Nonononononononono....
EnsTren: She curled up and tried to hide herself,
making a desprete lunge within. But it was still warm
there.
Edmondia: I love you. I need you. Kiss me.
Edmondia: Please?
EnsTren: She was going to throw up if he made her.
Edmondia: You're my wife and I love you and I promised you
I'd never ever force you into anything you don't want.
Edmondia: I love you.
EnsTren: Why am I punished?
Edmondia: You're not!
EnsTren: You say I'm good but I'm always being punished,
espically when I want something for myself.
Edmondia: You are good and precious and beautiful and
brilliant and right and I love you.
EnsTren: No... No I'm not.
Edmondia: You are.
EnsTren: Bad things don't happen to good people.
Edmondia: Yes they do.
Edmondia: All the time they do.
Edmondia: And the truly wonderful people out there are the
ones who are hurt worst of all.
Edmondia: I love you. I love you. Kiss me?
EnsTren: But one right after another? Getting hurt
over and over and over and over again? Punished?
Edmondia: Have I truly only hurt you?
EnsTren: Other things. Not just you.
EnsTren: Other one who took away my cold.
EnsTren: Gozaburo.
EnsTren: My "family."
EnsTren: Noa.
EnsTren: Pegasus.
EnsTren: One after another after another after
another.
EnsTren: Accidents happen. But... why do bad
things keep happening?
EnsTren: Accidents happen to good people, I'm a
bad person though, see?
Edmondia: You're not a bad person, my lady, my life.
EnsTren: I am. The other one was so good and nice
and right and if he hurt me then how can I be good?
Edmondia: He loves you.
Edmondia: He never meant to hurt you.
EnsTren: She scratched.
Edmondia: He seized her hand and enveloped in his own.
No. Hurting yourself won't make it go away.
EnsTren: She brought her other hand up slowly and bit
hard on the back of her hand.
Edmondia: He took that one too, and pressed a kiss to the
wound. No. No more hurting yourself, it doesn't make
anything better.
EnsTren: IT'S MY BODY NOW!
Edmondia: Hurt me instead!
EnsTren: But I can't feel that.
Edmondia: I can let you.
EnsTren: ...No.
EnsTren: I'm being punished for hurting you from
before, I'm sure of it.
Edmondia: No.
EnsTren: She was bad.
Edmondia: You are not!
EnsTren: She was bad.
Edmondia: Kiss me.
EnsTren: Leave me alone.
Edmondia: I can't.
Edmondia: I love you.
EnsTren: Hate me.
Edmondia: I can't. I love you. Kiss me.
EnsTren: She flinched.
EnsTren: I hate me.
Edmondia: I love you.
Edmondia: Kiss me.
EnsTren: She was feeling ill.
Edmondia: I love you. Let me touch you. Let me hold you,
let me make you feel good.
EnsTren: She jerked violently away from him, thumping
onto the groud between the seats.
Edmondia: He slid down with her, not touching, eyes dark
and warm and inviting. I love you. I love you and I always
always always will.
EnsTren: She didn't want touch now, only her own,
only to hurt. She didn't deserve to feel good.
Edmondia: You're my wife and I love you and I want you to
feel good because you deserve to feel good.
EnsTren: Seth had thought they had gotton over this,
thought she was healed of much of this. But part of her
stability had been shaken, her release valves and a
coping mechanisim rendered unusuable.
Edmondia: Hikari. He pitched his voice to a soft, inviting
purr. Let me make you feel good. Not hurt. You can hurt me
instead but don't hurt yourself.
EnsTren: She didn't like his purr, she inched away from
him presenting him with her side. Nononotouch, no
good. Badbad.
Edmondia: Touching is good. You know that. We're married
now. You know that. Touching is right. You like it when I
touch you, I like it when you touch me. No more hurting
yourself, my angel, no more fighting yourself. Hurt me instead,
let me hurt for you, give your hurt to me.
EnsTren: She sobbed and curled. Nonono. Her pain,
hers.
EnsTren: She couldn't control it before but she could
now, it was hers, even if the cold was taken away. She
HATED the one who had taken it away.
Edmondia: He crawled to her, hovered over her, but didn't
touch. Beloved. My light. My life. My lady and my only love.
Stop fighting it, stop fighting me, let go of the hurt and the
pain and let me make it better.
EnsTren: She leaned away from him, backing up by a
half an inch. She was going to vomit if he got any closer.
Edmondia: Do you love me?
EnsTren: I hate me.
Edmondia: I love you. Do you love me?
EnsTren: ...Y-yes. Butdon't touch!
Edmondia: I won't touch unless you say I can touch.
Edmondia: I love you.
Edmondia: I love you and only you..
Edmondia: I love you more than anyone else in this world.
EnsTren: I want to go home. I want to cut.
Edmondia: We're going home. But I won't let you hurt
yourself anymore.
Edmondia: Hurt me instead, but not yourself.
Edmondia: Do you understand?
EnsTren: Why can't I? She sounded petulant.
Edmondia: It's not healthy and it scares Mokuba.
EnsTren: I can heal it, and hide it better too. I need
it.
EnsTren: More now because her dark place was too
warm now to work.
Edmondia: You do not need it. You will hurt me instead. I
will let you feel it, but you will not hurt yourself anymore.
EnsTren: What's the diffrence to you?
Edmondia: I won't want to throw myself off a cliff if you hurt
me.
EnsTren: Why does mehurt make you want to do
that?
EnsTren: She'd shield better.
Edmondia: You will not.
Edmondia: Every time you hurt yourself you make me sad.
EnsTren: Why?
Edmondia: Because it is unhealthy.
Edmondia: Because it betrays my vow to protect you.
Edmondia: Because you are my wife and I love you.
EnsTren: I want the pain.
Edmondia: Why?
Edmondia: What does it make better?
EnsTren: Because it makes the
paunfearclutchingcan'tbreathe go away.
Edmondia: And what happens when we make love, pretty
light?
EnsTren: I only let you touch me when it's not too
bad.
Edmondia: Why?
Edmondia: Why don't you let me touch you when it's
terrible?
EnsTren: Because I don't want it then.
Edmondia: You would perfer your own pain?
Edmondia: You would prefer to rip open your own flesh?
EnsTren: Yessss.... And she hissed as if the very
thought were pleasurable.
Edmondia: Why?
Edmondia: What can that give you that I cannot?
EnsTren: Makes it go away, matches hurt, beats the
hurt. And I can ignore physical pain.
Edmondia: I can make it go away.
Edmondia: I can match it.
Edmondia: I can beat the hurt.
Edmondia: And I can give you physical pleasure.
Edmondia: Why choose that over me?
EnsTren: You do, you can, you can't, not with
pleasure.
Edmondia: Have you tried?
EnsTren: Yes... I can't... I can't concentrate on it, I
start to worry and I get upset and dry and I hurt
myself once in a way I didn't like.
Edmondia: What happened?
Edmondia: Why didn't you tell me?
EnsTren: It just hurt.
Edmondia: You should've told me.
EnsTren: Why?
Edmondia: So I could make it better.
Edmondia: I love you.
Edmondia: I'll do anything for you.
EnsTren: Hate myself.
EnsTren: Why did the other one ruin my place, I
don't know if it's ever going to get better.
Edmondia: Good.
Edmondia: I HATED that place.
Edmondia: It took you away from me.
EnsTren: She glared at him.
EnsTren: I needed it.
Edmondia: He glared back. You're stronger than that.
EnsTren: Need it. I could go there instead of cutting
Edmondia: You don't need to cut. You don't need to drown
yourself in your own misery.
Edmondia: Hit me.
EnsTren: NO!
EnsTren: She was terrified, she had been drugged
during the time she was hitting him.
Edmondia: I love you.
Edmondia: I worship you.
EnsTren: Something horrible would happen if she hit
him.
Edmondia: I adore you.
Edmondia: Anything you want to do to yourself you do to me
instead.
Edmondia: Hit me, bite me, do whatever you want to me but
do it to me.
EnsTren: How will that make it better?
Edmondia: How does hurting yourself make it better?
EnsTren: I told you how it does already.
Edmondia: And I told you I can make it better if you'll let me.
EnsTren: I can't enjoy it if I'm upset.
Edmondia: Let me seduce you and you won't be upset
anymore.
EnsTren: I don't want you to touch me sometimes
when I'm upset.
Edmondia: I know. But that's the only way I know how to
make it better.
Edmondia: You won't give me your soul to heal.
Edmondia: All I have is your body.
EnsTren: She shivered and looked ill.
Edmondia: As you have mine to do with as you will.
Edmondia: I belong to you.
EnsTren: I don't understand.
EnsTren: You don't want me to hurt myself, but I can
cause myself pain through your body?
Edmondia: I don't want you to cause yourself pain at all.
Edmondia: But you'll be unhappy with that. I'm trying to
compromise with you, my wife.
EnsTren: Why am I bad? She looked at him sadly and
blinked, a tear going down. Why am I punished? Why
can't I have just a few things of mine?
Edmondia: You're not bad, he whispered tenderly, You
punish yourself, my love.
EnsTren: I DIDN'T DRUG MYSELF!
EnsTren: I DIDN'T SHOVE MY SOUL INTO A
GODDAMN CARD!
Edmondia: Was that a punishment? Truly?
Edmondia: Or were those just very bad things that happened
to you?
EnsTren: Over and over and over and over again!
EnsTren: She was crying now, again.
Edmondia: Baby, hikari, my love, my light, listen to me.
Edmondia: I love you.
Edmondia: That will never ever change.
Edmondia: I want to take care of you.
Edmondia: I want to heal you.
Edmondia: I want us to be happy.
EnsTren: But she didn't deserve to be.
Edmondia: No. Look at me.
Edmondia: Baby, look at me.
EnsTren: She wouldn't. She was buttoning up her shirt
and fiddling with her skirt, trying to make herself look
presentable and ignoring the three sets of eyes on her.
Edmondia: Seto.
EnsTren: Knifeknifeknifeknife.
Edmondia: I said no.
Edmondia: Take it to my body if you must but I will NOT
allow you to harm yourself anymore.
EnsTren: My body, I can do what I want to it.
Edmondia: No.
Edmondia: I won't let you hurt yourself anymore.
Edmondia: Kill me if you must but I won't let you.
Edmondia: I love you.
EnsTren: She shut down on him. So she owned him,
and he owned her--and could dictate what she could or
couldn't do to her body. Did he ask the other one to
make her place uninhabitable?
EnsTren: She seethed.
Edmondia: Why are you angry at me?
Edmondia: Do you hate me now?
EnsTren: She didn't answer, her movements only got
more curt.
Edmondia: I did not fight everyone and everything for three
thousand years to lose you now to your own fury!
Edmondia: Hate me if you must.
Edmondia: That at least I can handle.
Edmondia: I can't watch you hurt yourself anymore.
EnsTren: "MY BODY, MINE. NOT YOURS.
MINE. I KEPT IT FROM HIM WITHOUT YOUR
HELP, YOU HAVE NO CLAIM ON MY BODY."
Edmondia: He stared at her unflinchingly. "Are you
divorcing me, then?"
EnsTren: "I kept my sex without your help. My body is
MINE."
EnsTren: "I let you touch me, I let you make me feel
good and you let me touch you and make you feel
good."
EnsTren: Gozaburo had stolen most of her body from
her, but she kept more of it that could be expected in her
situation. As such she was fiercely possessive about it.
Edmondia: I had everything stolen from me and I won it back
for you.
EnsTren: He had stolen her body and she had
perservered. She had survived. "I have your
permission, I give you my permission anew every time I let
you touch me."
EnsTren: "But I don't tell you what you can't do with
your body, what you should do with it, what you must
and must not."
Edmondia: Am I treating you unfairly?
Edmondia: Then I retract my foolish demand and beg you
instead.
EnsTren: "Nothing's fair. Nothing, not life, not games.
You know that."
Edmondia: You're my wife. You deserve far better than what
I can give you.
EnsTren: She straightened her clothes.
Edmondia: You deserve to have a better husband than I can
be.
EnsTren: She asked suddenly and quietly, fueled by
nervousness and paranoia, "Did you ruin my place?"
EnsTren: "The only place in my own skull that I was
safe, because I hate my own Soul Room, were you the
one that ruined it?"
Edmondia: What are you talking about?
Edmondia: That place I hated?
Edmondia: That place that took you away from me?
EnsTren: "Yes."
Edmondia: I couldn't FIND it!
Edmondia: If I could have I would have but I didn't know
where it was.
EnsTren: "..."
EnsTren: She wondered if any other parts of her mind
were saturated with the intolerable heat.
Edmondia: Why is heat so repulsive to you?
EnsTren: "Cold numbs."
Edmondia: Heat sears the pain away.
EnsTren: "Heat," she said carefully, "Makes me want to
take a steak knife to my own flesh to gouge it out."
Edmondia: Even when we make love?
EnsTren: That's diffrent.
EnsTren: Liquid, given, willingly taken. Not forced.
Edmondia: And if I wanted to steal your cold away?
EnsTren: Depends how you do it. I let you do it
sometimes.
Edmondia: Let me do it instead of you.
EnsTren: I need to take the edge off the hurt first.
EnsTren: I think I'd become ill if you touched me
now.
Edmondia: Bite me.
EnsTren: I don't want to throw up on you.
Edmondia: Then wrap a cloth around your hand and hit me.
EnsTren: Why?
Edmondia: So you don't get sick.
EnsTren: Why hurt you?
Edmondia: So you don't hurt yourself.
EnsTren: But I need the pain.
Edmondia: No you don't.
Edmondia: You can have mine instead.
EnsTren: How would that change anything? I'd still
have the pain. I don't understand what you don't
want me to do, the whys.
Edmondia: I want you to not hurt yourself.
Edmondia: Ever.
Edmondia: I want you to find a healthier outlet for your
emotions.
EnsTren: But pain is okay...?
Edmondia: As long as it's not yours.
Edmondia: If you need it as a crutch, I'll give you mine.
Edmondia: But I can't stand yours.
EnsTren: I don't understand, what diffrence does it
make where it comes from if I still feel it?
Edmondia: It makes a diffrence to me.
EnsTren: You're strange.
Edmondia: Hikari, how would you feel if I started ripping
myself open every time I was upset?
EnsTren: I don't do it every time I'm upset and I don't
rip--usually.
Edmondia: Even so - do you know how it feels to watch that?
EnsTren: No, and you don't have to watch.
Edmondia: How can I not?
Edmondia: How can I ignore the signs of my own failure as
your husband?
EnsTren: No, my failure, because I'm bad and weak.
Edmondia: No.
EnsTren: She moved and sat on the seat as far away as
she could get from the other three. Yes.
EnsTren: (and what do the Yugis think of this
conversation?)
Edmondia: He followed her and leaned into her space, never
touching. No. You are my wife. I love you. How can you be
bad if I love you? How can you be weak?
Edmondia: (they're confused but worried about Seto)
EnsTren: (And what does yugi think since seto is very
upset about what he did, and didn't recognize him, and
her views of him and his yami?)
Edmondia: (he's basically very very close to bawling)
EnsTren: You'd be surprised.
Edmondia: You're right. I would be. Very. Because it seems
to me that the woman I love is stronger than even she knows,
and has a soul purer than she dares imagine.
EnsTren: My ruined place is blackdark.
Edmondia: Your heart isn't.
Edmondia: Kiss me?
EnsTren: She shook her head.
EnsTren: I want my knife, I want a bath and a change
of clothes, and I want Sarah, in that order.
Edmondia: Only if you use the knife on me.
EnsTren: ...But something bad might happen.
Edmondia: I don't want you to hurt yourself anymore. If
something bad happens I will make it better.
EnsTren: I'm still not better from the last time
something bad happened.
Edmondia: Baby, nothing bad will happen.
EnsTren: In my head I kind of know that.
Edmondia: That's good. That's a start, baby, that's a start.
EnsTren: But it all seems like... divine retribution. It
happens when I get greedy, it happens all the time
when I get greedy.
EnsTren: She was starting to cry again.
Edmondia: No. No, baby, it's not divine retribution. Ssh, I
should know, trust me baby, it's not that. You know it's not.
EnsTren: "But it happens whenever I want something
for myself!"
EnsTren: "I wanted to stay in my place and it was
ruined."
Edmondia: Baby, look at me.
EnsTren: Why?
Edmondia: I want to see your eyes.
EnsTren: She lifted her head.
Edmondia: ...beautiful.
EnsTren: Her eyes lowered.
Edmondia: I do love you.
EnsTren: I know.
Edmondia: Kiss me?
EnsTren: N-no. But you can kiss my head.
Edmondia: Are you sure?
EnsTren: No.
Edmondia: Then I won't.
EnsTren: "Too good for me."
Edmondia: Not nearly good enough.
EnsTren: "N-no. I'm bad, wrong," she paused
loooking for a better word. "Blaphemous, I'm not either,
I can't be either, not really, not ever. I'm a blasphemy,
I'm wrong."
Edmondia: No. You're a woman, you're my wife, you can be
and you are exactly that. There is NOTHING wrong with you.
EnsTren: "See? Too good for me when you know
better."
Edmondia: Beloved.
EnsTren: She was quietquiet. Low feelings, but not
feeling like she was falling into deepdeerblackdark, not
scratching dark.
Edmondia: None of this is your fault.
EnsTren: It had to be, had to be. There had to be a
reason for all this crap to happen to her.
Edmondia: Not your fault. Probably mine.
EnsTren: He wasn't there when it started happening.
Edmondia: Not your fault.
Edmondia: Not your fault at all.
EnsTren: Had to be.
Edmondia: No.
EnsTren: Why not?
Edmondia: Because I say so.
EnsTren: "Bah."
Edmondia: Kiss me?
EnsTren: Can't. I'll be sick.
Edmondia: Once we're home?
EnsTren: Maybe.
Edmondia: Do you want bubbles in your bath?
EnsTren: Yes.
Edmondia: I'll take care of it.
EnsTren: That made her happy, but she kept her
distance.
Edmondia: Do you love me?
EnsTren: Yes.
Edmondia: Really?
EnsTren: Yes.
Edmondia: Why?
EnsTren: Mine.
Edmondia: Heh.
EnsTren: She settled some and wrestled with her
emotions while occasionally poking at her lower mind
where she hid sometimes.
Edmondia: He sat quietly at her feet and watched her.
