A long time ago, I made a website listing all the things I love about you. I included this list and then added more down at the bottom. =) Even if you don't read all these, read the last one, it's the most important!! :)

1. You are the nicest person I've ever met.

2. You mostly always treated me good.

3. It took me a while to understand you and why you acted one way or another sometimes, and when I finally figured it all out, you were even nicer than I thought and more appealing. :D

4. You respect girls and you don't cheat on them.

5. You're sensitive (whether youll admit/realize it or not).

6. You aren't too full of yourself.

7. You know what's goin on in the world, and you aren't stupid about people and life.

8. You were always the most fun to talk to, I got addicted to you like a drug. Lol.

9. You were the first person I loved (besides familia) and even though you can love more than one person in your life, you'll always be the right one - the one that's in my heart till I die. ;)

10. You're damn sexy to me, you make me wanna rip all your clothes off and rape you. >=)

11. You aren't selfish.

12. You're polite around me

13. You don't try to be something you're not. Shit if you do, you do a good job of it.

14. Thinking about you brings feelings of love, sadness, sex, anger, and happiness all in one. Sometimes I feel so much love for you I can barely stand up. =) For real.

15. You like pretty much the exact same kind of music I do.

16. You're very smart.

17. I can't help feeling that you aren't happy (so deep down inside that you can't even recognize it) and it makes me want to make you feel good all the time.

18. I would do anything for you because you don't ask for anything out of me and you are worth it. 

19. You have great dark eyes and eyebrows - dramatic features that not every guy has and you're BEAUTIFUL!! =) jk but one damn handsome man. =)

20. You make me feel good and help me go to sleep at night happy. =)

21. You're really smart, REALLY good looking, and you're nice like no other person i've met, and it really really hurts me to see you do drugs for the rest of your life and change into somebody else besides the amazing person that you are - the guy who has more good qualities all in one than anybody i've met does. Im for real.

22. You would call me "sweets" sometimes =)

23. You're somebody with the biggest heart i've ever seen, but you've had bad shit happened to you that has hurt you. =/

24. You'd get mad over stupid things with me - really stupid things but i always thought it was awesome in a way cuz it's how I could tell you cared for me.

25. Sometimes you'd act really sweet after we had a fight becuz I would explain the situation and once I explained it you'd get happy :) damn,  sweetheart.. lol.

26. The way we played that phone game - and when you called me and said goodnight and hung up, then fought with me because you said i never called you and said goodnight, when I seriously was going to do it and even did call you a few times before! but you wouldnt believe me, you'd just say, "you never called me blabla" what-eva. :) it was funny =)

27. I still can't believe I didn't use my head and ended up hurting you, the fact that you got so hurt over me saying what I did when i was angry shows how much you really cared about me and how big of a heart you have. The thought of hurting you breaks my heart every goddamn day without fail.

28. You're living proof of an angel.

29. You try so hard to show that you're not a pussy, when you don't even have to try, because you aren't anyways. =) You're a little confused on what a real man is, trust me, you are one. :D

30. I like your familia (what I know of them).

31. You can definitely make me laugh =)

32. "Cuz a real woman knows a real man..always comes first"

33. You help me get through life... all I gotta do is think about you, realize how lucky I am, and then I start smilin =) cuz I know you'll always be with me through whatever i've gotta go through, in a way.

34. You have the same sense of humor I do.

35. I could tell that you liked me a lot when you did, so even if you don't like me now, or don't think that you do, I'll always have the good memories in my head. =) Fuck the bad ones anyway, you are my right one forever, whether you feel it anyway. :)

36. You have a good heart.

37. You let me love you and were always nice to me even after I periodically have to send emails trying to express my love for you, and were always nice to me even every single time I say I love you even if it makes you feel uncomfortable or weird or anything.

38. You understand me and if I ever need someone to talk to and you are there, you always take me seriously and will talk to me and always make me feel better too.

39. There are little things you do indirectly that show me that you care about me too.

40. When I came to visit you the last time, you even came out of the apartment to see me even though you felt really uncomfortable and had a cut on your lip :) And I gave you a hug.

41. One of the best memories I have is a long time ago when we did something together and I was dropping you off at your apartment and I hugged you and said "I love you" and that was the first time I ever told you it out loud and I remember you hugging me back and saying "I love you too." Whoa. :)

42. When I think about you, who you are and our times together, my heart melts and I get this feeling inside my stomach.

43. And even after five years, I still get butterflies in my stomach when you get online.

44. The biggest thing I love about you is that I feel that you are me and you are the love of my life and one of the best people I know. None of the surface things matter, all I see in you is your beautiful heart, your intelligence, and how nice and good of a person you really are. I love you =)

45. You are respectful of me.

46. Basically, I love everything about who you really are. It's amazing how many stupid people in this world who aren't that great of people, who are disrespectful of women and other people, who aren't polite, who aren't honest, who are selfish, full of pride and greed, who don't use their heads, who have a black soul yet still think they are saints, people who only care about money, people who are racist, judgmental, and narrow-minded. People who don't care or think about the suffering of others, who are violent, who live their lives in their ignorance not acknowledging that they might not know everything. But Gary, you are NONE of those things. You are sensitive, with a beautiful heart, intelligent, caring, honest, not selfish, open-minded, someone with a lot of feeling, and for the wonderful person you are you deserve the most happiness in this world and I wish that I could give it to you. But all I can do is give you credit for how great of a person I know you really are, and that I love you with all my heart.

**NEVER listen to what other people tell you about who you are. Most people don't have the courage or the intuition to look behind appearances to see who someone really is. That's why it feels better to just be alone all the time sometimes. At least that is how I feel. But my angel remember you are never alone, I'm with you all the time, in every minute and second that passes by in this life. I am always with you, thinking of you and loving you. :)