Allowing these ignorant people to confuse us into hallucinations
Every second is another moment I have lived
And every second that I�ve wasted, is another moment I am dying

You create the enigma that you are dwelling in
Upon a battered past, you play out the future
Piece by ambiguous piece

Divulging in your sins of the past until you cannot comprehend
An extension of your inner self is beginning to emulate this denial
While everyone watches as you casually kill your innocence

Searching for an image of something you hope you can withstand
But instead you fold into your own state of deception
And you fool yourself into believing that you are ordinary by all standards
Because everyone assumes that is how it should go

Break free from these chains that pit you against yourself
Conceive this world in a different light, so you can exist once more
Removed from the chaos of your past while you are ingeniously placed
Into the chaos of your future

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Scathing

You send a wave of uncertainty through my flesh
Standing on end, I shiver from the sounds you make
I empathize with your worries, and catch your tears
Which melt into my cheeks, and sink upon my battered flesh
I almost feel your pain until I realize you are oblivious
Mark yourself with this red X to prove that you are still alive
Open your eyes for me and breathe into my ever-changing emotions
You wont be the one who catches my teardrops
Instead I empty them into this basin of emotion
Allowing only myself to comprehend the scars that cover me
You wouldn't understand this anyway
Perhaps if you were willing to sacrifice yourself for me
Risk your life at the expense of my own just to understand
These wounds are just the surface
Dig deeper to understand this pain inflicted upon my body
And maybe then
You can hold my tears in the palm of your hand
As well as the heart that binds me to myself

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Enchanted

Each vision before me
Dwells upon itself
Almost always forgiving the lies
Every moment re-lives itself
Underestimating the efforts put forth
Feinding for another mistake
Dripping down upon this earth
Lost somewhere in the silver sky
Anchoring itself upon your soul
Unable to release this grip
Wishing for something spectacular
Falling into a place and time
Nothing ever changes
Just like we always expected
Just like we always intended

Confirming this hysteria
Upon a swolen face
Reaching for your heart
To grab this phantom pain
I understand you are suffering
Tonight, another feind
Soaking into broken veins
Making them whole again
Making them live again

So into your bleeding heart
This passion will unfold
Manifesting itself
Upon a setting sun
Where it will be forever lost
With dignity, and pride.

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UNTITLED

Small, Shallow, Selfish minds
An indescribably feeling
Especially after a hero
And again a selfish act continues
It's all they know sometimes
And it wont be understood
It wont be fixed
It's just delt with
And the saddest part of all
The cycle will never end
As ignorance surrounds us
Simply by fate
Not by choice
So we live this way
To protect
To honor
And to serve
And the reasons
Shine even brighter
One the face
Of selfishness for some
Instead of what it should be for

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UNTITLED

Drowning, sinking deeper into something
Unaware of where I truely belong
And awkward feeling
And the losses
With a few "I told you so's"
A fuzzy memory
Mixed with a smile
And it pulling me again
Perhaps a bit selfish
A bit shallow
Left to harbor this emotion
And another faded cause
To relive a feeling
Only you could wish for
And your silly mistakes
Shudder and cower away
Because it isnt working
And you dont know
Not anymore
Because you forgot
And I realized
I did too

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UNTITLED

Inflicting pain upon my mind
Broken, unable to recognize
Dying again
Fading slowly by your hand
Teardrops emptied into your world
Thrown back by this selfish act
Pretending to care
Forgetting our past
To remember another
Because this is how it works
An act
Cowardly responses
Turn your back
And walk away
Because it's easier
Than feeling reality
And in walking away
Respect has diminished
And life goes on
While a past lingers
And you betray yourself
By fooling your mind
Into believing
You are
Who you say you are...

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And I

A word or two is all it takes
And you misunderstood again
And you showed me again
That you really don't understand
You really don't care
Oblivious to all of ME
I am sorrowed
And aparently oblivious
Perhaps not as much as you think
And I wait
Because I think it matters
Yet I ponder about the truthfullness
Of your touch
Only because I am a fool
And these mistakes haunt me
This stillness follows me
Trying so hard to understand
And I have lost it again
Because I cared too much
And I leave behind
Another dead-end memory
For me to re-trace
Until I can somehow make it whole
Until I can make it...
And I wait...

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UNTITLED

Unreal, almost took me in
Losing myself in something along the way
It might just be you
At some point along the way
I am lost again
Awkward
Silent
Gnawing at my heart
For the past and its memories
I want you back like before
But my heart is falling
To where yours already rests
And I can't fall that far down
Not even for you....

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An Insecurity

Desperatley seeking some perfection
Just to protect a bleeding heart
Determined to impress someones expectations
Unwilling to do things on your own
A failure in your mind
Unless someone tells you what to be
This image you're portraying
Reflects your insecurities
And a realization of who you are
Is not who you want to be

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Internally

An array of roses you have bound for me
Perfection is an object that is pure and innocent
An unsuspecting emotion flowing quite free
Unaware of the changes that lie ahead
Trapped in your spell because well
Obviously...
You're fading
Collapse within yourself to be free
And although withered and frail
A perfect image still prevails
Because the pure beauty
Isn't always what you are seeing
On the outside

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Evolve Me

An interesting concept to see
Even more to understand
Who we thought we were
Is gone
Everything once new and real
Became dull and hollow
And in this concept we find a mystery
Quite unlike any other
Much different than you
Even more than this existance
So a new journey begins
And our existance continues
Expanding, rearranging
Emerging

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Lost In Time

Almost as if I wanted to
Just to see again
Almost kept me back
Gracefully
Ancient memories I hated
Maybe I still do
Tastefully
A distant reminder of the images
Places frozen in a moment
...in time
Just some event
Lasting
Even more after the fact
Enduring
The life of a day
Processing the past
And I almost wanted to...

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A Night of 'True'

An interesting concept I have revealed to myself
Surfacing after all these months
An interesting woman I once was
What a man you were...at the time
Perhaps I was a fool...Naieve?
Or maybe it wasn't that at all
Creeping into my memory
Daily...
Reminding me that I was
Perhaps wrong?
A friend?
...friend...
Trashed all in the name of...
Casual
Because I could and because
You did
But we knew
Or at least I did..
Normal for you and not so much for me
But we lied
And we liked it
We laughed and I understood
Sort-of....
Wasn't I something?
Resurfacing
Questions and riddles
Pretending to be solved
And you just keep walking
Because what I want
Wont be found
In a future memory

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Encripted

He spoke in riddles to cover up his life
Instead he revealed it all
An accident
No one should have known
That is what he thought
But now I know
And I understand your riddles
Hiding who you are
Because...
"It's just how I am"
Unaware of all the secrets you hide
The world continues to move
While you stand still
Stuck in a riddle
You cannot talk you way out of

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Yet Again

All at once
I am taken
And yet again�
You have received me

An awkward glance
You are shaking
And yet again�
You wouldn�t believe me

Offering a release
Into some form of oblivion
It�s not good enough for you
And you betray me
Yet again

Offering this to you
Regretting it all at once
Obviously shaken
Obviously�.

Nothing.
To you� Nothing at all
Everything
To me� Everything and more
Bend backwards to keep yourself
Away from me
Bend forward to get what you need
From me

And again, you reel me
Slowly
Into your trap
And I slip along the way
Falling even deeper into the game
And the pieces
Strewn out even farther
Too far from reach
Can never be put back together

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Bending Backwards

He could have made it up
Underestimating the value of a word
It was sold
Bought again
Misplaced once more
Being sold into this pitiful world
Dwindling even farther into unconsciousness
Add another lie to the pile that has been produced
Silently laugh to yourself
You are not thinking
Only doing
And in doing
You have lost
Eager to make your point
Endless games being played
Interested in some lie
But you cannot tell the difference
Each lie is your truth
Only because you fail to see
And eventually
All these lies blend into one
Becoming your reality

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My Rain

Head down unable to speak anymore
Tears blended with the pouring rain
Never forgetting these memories
Or perhaps forgetting too many
The cold rain runs down my forehead
My already swolen eyelids blink shut
Cringing.
Another raindrop enters my memory
Another memory forcing itself upon me
I need another to tell me who I am
Because I have been washed away
Doubting I can do it
My raindrops fade away
They fade into nothing
Except another lost cause

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UNTITLED

Exhaustion covers my body, mind, and soul
The realization of your unwillingness
It's faded away into my memories
But just for a while
Touching my soul, You have wounded me
From the inside out
You have covered me completely
Under your blanket of denial
Forget the unmentionables
Unimportant restrictions holding onto you
Catching these wings of life
When they refuse to function further
Sequential lies portraying your truths
Open your eyes
Unless you choose to relish
In your darkness.

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re-run

...... Run
...... Because...
Running is what you do
...... leave
...leaving everything behind
Do not look back anymore
.. You just might
Regret
...It.
Undetermined yet again
You stopped just
....short
You hesitated
Therefore
...You regret.
That thin line
It's beeen avoided
...and now
It is breaking
....... slowly
Fraying,
Like this world.
Our destinies
..Being revealed
Layer
...by
......layer
Until all that we have
Is pure...
Raw...
Real.
Like it always
Should
Have
Been

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Strung

The evenings rain clinging to her skin
She is running in circles again
Loosing all dignity in herself
She sinks even deeper into solitude
Clinging to herself, as the rain once clung to her
She is beginning to realize
And she begins to cry
Crying for a release
Which may never come
She continues to weep uncontrollably
For that betrayed memory
Of a day when she could smile

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Other Worldy

My fingers slide
Gently
Across your cheek
Making their way to your lips
I draw my head back
Just to take you in
Silent eyes, caressing me
As I
Melt
Into your warmth
Your body covers mine
I touch your skin
I shiver as you
Breathe
Into my emotions
Fingers running through my hair
Taking in my scent
Breathing
I forget all my worries
And I drift
away
Into our worlds
of
emotion.

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UNTITLED

It's another illusion
Casting itself upon my
pale
white walls
Flashing... intense
... as a lightening strike
Opening my wounds
Purposfully mutilating
...these memories
mutating
My memories...here
,but fading..but floating
Thrown away...
No looking back
Stronger than before
Burned-out flames
..a heavy smell
Drift away with ease
Leaving behind
Nothing more
..Than a memory

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Slant

Sleep will cure my illness tonight
But tomorrow brings new memories
New pain
Reaching for my heart
This power over me
Unable to recognize reality
I slip away into myself
Covered and suffocating
Begging for a release
I am on borrowed time
You are pushing me toward my end

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UNTITLED

Creating this pressure
Afraid of what you have done
Breathing in your scent
I see right through your game
Your world betrayed you
Reminded once again
You have lost all of your rights
Swallow this bitter pill
Propelling me into the unknown
Basking in your worries
I have felt your helplesness
Then I realized you are worthless
Drift away
Silently

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Endanger

Several shades of blue
Reflected upon my wall
I only chose one...
It reminds me of you.
I mumble to myself
Clenched fists again
My skin crawls
And begs...
Today I resist but tomorrow
I will bleed for you
And I will turn myself
That perfect shade of blue

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My little Rant

Irresponsible, I am not.
Imcompetent.. I am not that either.
I am an individual
I am..
Open Minded....Confident
...Independent
I am your sounding board
I am your friend
Your enemy
Your love...Your hatred
I am imaginative
...and creative
I am me.
I am the girl known as..
'Tom's siser'... The red-headed girl(even though I am not a redhead)...
The skinny girl... turtle.... or... turtleohs
I am a musician... A poet. A writer..
I am a listener.. a creator..a....
I'm your love
Your friend. I'm your bitch and your sweetie
I am your happiness.
Your..... guilt
I am your past.. and I was your future
I am your memories
I am your hero.
I am a simple girl to you..
I am extravagant to him.
... I am pathetic
And Greedy
I am mean.. and callous
I am a saint
I am human
I am sorry
and I am forgiving
.... I am jealous
and a kid at heart
I'm your partner in crime
Your gaming buddy
I am your whipping 'boy'..
I'm not general..
I am unique..
.. I am special
and lovely
I am hard headed
...and soft hearted
I am in love...
Just not today
I am sad
... and depressed
I'm a daughter
-a sister
-a grand-child.. a cousin..
I am a relative
I am your shoulder
I'm used and abused
I am a woman
I'm fun.. watch out!
..... I am nosey
I am addicted
.. but not to anything you would think
I am peculiar.. and ....... rare
I'm cold.. complacent
I am an individual...
and I am me.

I love music.. I love writing...
I love Incubus...
and men.
I love to be loved
I love to try new things
I love sex
I love the smell of spring
I also love my memories
.. I love my family
and I love the friends I have.
I love the weekends
I love the telephone and I love your voice
I love..... IT.
I Love:
the smell of pine sol....my jeans from 1998...
roller coasters
.... the rain
, the smell of a thunderstorm... the strike of lightening...
the ocean
I love.... To travel
to smell honey suckle
to meet new people....
I love ranch doritos...
and I love my animals
I love your eyes... Your lips..
I love the way you felt in my dream
I love dreaming
I love you.
.. even though I do not know you.

Sometimes....
I get aggrivated...
and I am petty
Sometimes I'm sorry...
and often I am forgetful
I often space out..
Or stare too much
I hate that I like you
And that you dont know
I hate that you are far away
and I sometimes wonder...
Is my face in your memory?
I cuss...
I complain
I am happy.
I smell good

My feet are always cold
I am open to anything
I am yours.
I am no ones.
I am Sarah.... with an H..... Meagan with an A... and Simms, with two M's....That hard to remember?
My birthday is in June.... Not July.. And my favorite roses are Peach. I hate chocolate candy.. I love romance.. and I love to spoil.. I am crazy, and wild.. I am ...
everything to someone....
I am........
what you make of me

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"Real Life Terms"

Sitting around, directionless
Grasping the problem
So you see my solution?
Details are left out
Imagine the issues
Look at the stages
Offer up the difference
We're ready to agree
Why not?
Change your mind
Pursuade ME
Adopt my ideas...
Convice me I am wrong?
How could you?
This is mundane
Your feelings are my concern
You don't concern yourself with me
Benefit my well being
If you are not too self involved
Look at my emotional appeal
Is it not excellent... and beautiful?
Real life terms
These conclusions are so... popular
Preview yourself
And then review me again...

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UNTITLED

Shadows in my dreams
Just another day
Desperate pitiful screams
They have somehow lost their way
Angels without wings
Hanging heads in shame
We will see what hate brings
Understand this selfish game
Misguided all along
The truth is gone again
You spoke your selfish words
.....Start learning to pretend...

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