A Perfect Matcb
By
Eamane-Shu
The day of their
mother’s funeral dawned with a grey sky. And Narcissa could hardly bring
herself to get out of bed. The house-elf had awoken her with a cup of tea, and
she had risen and dressed herself in the traditional black. She had sat down
and put her make up on, placed the veil of a mourning daughter over her face.
And then she sat and waited.
She didn’t know what
to do next, all her energies over the last week had been in preparation for
this moment. She had spent the last week issuing invitations, organising
flowers and food for the wake. Bellatrix had offered to help, but she had never
really been one for planning social occasions, and her father had been shut in
his study since she had delivered the bad news to him. So she had sat down and
planned her mother’s funeral and now it was all done, it was all ready and she
didn’t know what to do.
Bella came into her
room, after a soft knock that Narcissa almost didn’t hear; she was dressed
almost identically to her sister, same simple black dress robes, same dark
stockings, black shoes, and same black silk gloves. The only difference was
between Bellatrix’s raven tresses and Narcissa’s golden hair. Bella looked much
older today, it could have been the tired look in her eyes, or alternately it
could have been the fact that her hair was pinned up off her face, a rare look
for Bella.
“Narcissa it’s time.”
With a final glance
Narcissa glanced around the room, knowing that once she left everything would
change forever, that somehow the whole affair would now become real, she
followed Bellatrix out and down the stairs where Rodolphus and her father were
waiting for her.
Narcissa recognised
very few people at her mother’s funeral. There was of course her aunts and
uncles and cousins, and her mother’s friends, however many people that were in
attendance were there because it was expected of them, that they should pay
respects to a wife of the Black family. Buried in the Black Family Vault, with
the inscription Toujours Pur over it’s doors, Narcissa felt a rush of pride for
her mother, she had been the perfect wife for her father, doing everything that
was expected her, always knowing what to do in every situation. Narcissa missed
her guidance.
She tried to choke
back the tears but failed.
Then she felt a hand
slip into hers, she looked up expecting to see her father, or perhaps
Rodolphus, but her eyes met a pair of cool steel pools, who smiled at her
encouragingly and she squeezed his hand gratefully.
As she looked up
through blurred tears she saw a familiar figure standing opposite her, on the
other side of the grave. Andromeda was here with her husband, holding a small
infant, presumably her daughter. As her eyes locked with her sister’s she
looked away disdainfully. Andromeda had made her bed, and as far as Narcissa
was concerned she could lie in it until she rotted.
Narcissa had been
keeping an eye on her sister and father, hoping that neither of them would see
Andromeda in the sea of faces after the burial. Her father was currently
occupied talking to the Crouches, and walking back towards the house, so
Narcissa didn’t have to worry about him anymore. However Bella seemed to have
noticed Andromeda’s presence, and was currently angrily storming towards her
middle sister.
Until
she was intercepted by Narcissa.
She tugged at
Bellatrix’s sleeve until she turned away, and shook her head insistently. “Not
today Bella” Narcissa begged “don’t do this here, not today.” It was the first
time the two sisters had clapped eyes on each other since Andromeda’s defection.
Bellatrix turned haughtily and walked back to the house, escorted by Rodolphus.
Lucius offered her his arm, to walk her back to the wake, but Narcissa excused
herself for a moment.
She walked towards her
sister.
“You shouldn’t have
come here.”
“She wasn’t just yours
and Bella’s mother, Narcissa. She was my mother too.” Narcissa watched as the
woman who used to be her sister choked back a sob “She was my mother.”
“Yes” Narcissa agreed
“but she made it quite clear that you were no longer her daughter.”
And with that she
turned on her heel and joined Lucius for the long walk back to Ravensden.
She felt her mother’s
death even more when she returned to the house. Everyone was coming up to her
to pay their condolences, and Narcissa was starting to get tired of greeting
people. After a while, when people had begun to disperse she slipped out of the
gathering and upstairs into the private area of the house. She sat down gently
on a window seat and sighed, enjoying the five minutes of peace.
Until
she was interrupted by a soft voice.
“Hey.”
She visibly relaxed
when she saw it was only her cousin Regalus.
“Hey Reggie” she
smiled, because she should, not because she felt like smiling.
“I saw you come
sneaking up here, and I thought I’d make sure you were ok, you know?” He had a
soft, goofy kinda smile that made Narcissa smile back, genuinely this time.
“I’m ok” she told him
sincerely “just a little tired.”
“Wanted to get away
from everyone?”
“Do you know half
these people? Cause, there’s hardly anybody here I know.” He paused, but didn’t
give her chance to answer “Cissy, I just wanted to say I’m really sorry, you
know” he shrugged awkwardly.
Narcissa didn’t reply
for some time, and when she finally spoke she felt
more light hearted than she had felt in days. “Hey Reggie, do you fancy getting
out of here for a bit?”
“Sure, where do you
wanna go?”
“How about we go get
some ice-cream?”
“Okay, sounds good.”
The two stole
downstairs, slipping past the Lestranges and Lucius Malfoy, making their way
into Narcissa’s father’s office, to use the quieter fireplace on their way to
Diagon Alley, then onto Florean Fortescue’s Ice Cream Parlour. It was
surprisingly quiet when they got there, with the many deaths the previous week
people were avoiding Diagon Alley, indeed Narcissa had
read in yesterday’s Prophet that Hogsmede had been doing record trade, with
people currently preferring to go up north to do their shopping. She ordered a
banana split, with chopped nuts and whipped cream, though she wasn’t really
that hungry. She and Regalus sat and ate their ice-creams in relative silence,
enjoying each other’s company quietly, though Narcissa had begun to listen,
with interest, to a conversation happening between a witch and a wizard in the
next door booth.
They were discussing
the bodies of the McKinnon’s, which had been discovered yesterday morning. They
had been involved, somehow in the raid on Dempsey’s and the retribution of the
Death Eaters had just begun to fall.
“Well they were found
in the house by a neighbour, who obviously called the Aurors, who announced
that it had been the work of Avada Kedavara. What they didn’t announce, that I
heard from a friend at the ministry, was that the house had the dark mark above
it all night, only faded this morning I hear.”
“What’s the dark mark?”
“It’s what the
ministry have dubbed Lord Voldemort’s sign…”
The witch’s voice
interrupted rudely “Oooh, don’t say his name, makes me feel all goosebumpily.”
“It’s what they’re
calling you-know-who’s sign, the dark
mark. It looks like a skull with a snake coming out of its mouth.”
“Creepy.”
“Yeah! Especially when you take into account that
it’s getting sent it off into the sky every time that the death eaters kill
somebody.”
Narcissa stopped listening; she’d had enough of death for one day. She
looked across at Regalus, he was so young, only in his second year, and already
signing up to join the death eaters, not that she blamed him, everybody was. She just couldn’t imagine Regalus using the
Avada Kedavara, he was far too sweet.
Bellatrix on the other hand. Narcissa was worried about her sister joining
the death eaters. Bellatrix had never been one to do things by half measures;
she would be in the thick of things, the loyalist member, the one who would be
there till the very end, no matter what the circumstances.
She sighed and pushed her ice-cream away, it was tasteless in her
mouth. Regalus had already polished off his chocolate sundae, with the appetite
that only a thirteen year old has.
“Come on” she told him gently.
“We should be getting back.”
“Will we get into trouble?” he asked suddenly “for sneaking out, I
mean?”
Narcissa shook her head “No. Not today we won’t Reggie.” Who was going
to complain that she needed to get some space, today of all days.
Things hadn’t changed when they arrived back at the house. People were
still milling about, being served cups of tea and sandwiches by the
house-elves. Her father was sitting in his chair alone, gazing into the fire.
Narcissa was worried about him. It was true that he had never been desperately
in love with her mother, but he had relied on her, and they had been married
for nearly thirty years.
She left him alone with his thoughts for now; there would be time
enough for them to talk later, when everybody had gone home. When there was
just the two of them left.
She made her way over to where Bellatrix was standing; she was talking
to her father-in-law in hushed whispers. Narcissa knew what they were talking
about, even if she couldn’t hear them. It was rumoured that Lestrange senior
had gone to school with Voldemort himself. Though he wasn’t a death eater, due
to his age, he had strongly encouraged both his sons to join up. Rodolphus had
been a member months before the Dempsey’s incident,
and his younger brother Rabastan would be joining as soon as he left Hogwarts
next September.
She approached them cautiously, they may not want her joining in the
conversation, but as she got close to them Bellatrix smiled slightly.
“Oh there you are. We couldn’t find you and I was starting to get
worried. Sirius is still looking for you out in the grounds, I didn’t think
you’d have gone back outside but he was getting restless and his mother thought
it would keep him out of trouble.”
“Sorry, I just needed to get out for a bit, it was all just getting too
much. But I’ll go mingle for a bit if you like – give you a bit of a breather.”
Narcissa played the good society witch for the next hour as the guests
began to depart. The last to leave were the Malfoys. Belinda Malfoy, pulled
Narcissa to one side, instructing her, that should
Narcissa need her at any time of the day or night, all she had to do was floo.
She had hugged Narcissa and Bellatrix tightly before they had left, leaving
both girls with pangs for their real mother, whom no surrogate could replace.
Eventually there was just the four of them left, Rodolphus, Bellatrix,
Narcissa and their father. He still hadn’t left his chair by the fire, and when
Narcissa took him over a cup of tea he seemed surprised that everybody had
gone. He soon after made his excuses and retired for the night.
Shortly afterwards Bellatrix had made a move to go, suddenly reminding
her sister, that this wasn’t her home any more.
“Will you be okay?” Bella asked with concern, “you could always come
back to the town house with us.” She felt awful leaving Narcissa in the cold
empty house.
“I should stay here with Daddy” Narcissa replied softly “He might need
me.”
Bellatrix and Rodolphus said their goodbyes in the hallway and Narcissa showed them out. She then returned to the sitting room, it had always been her mother’s favourite room in the house, with dark wooden panels on the walls and velvet covered furniture. She wrapped her arms around tightly as realised to her relief that for the first time that day she was now completely alone.