with all its twists and turns.
Sometimes they are so painful
and tortuous I burn...
they say unconciousness is a friend,
a place to go to escape the torture of this world.
I close my eyes and envision monsters, great creatures
who have come to devour me.
Or, I will be surrounded by complete and total darkness.
Such evil I never knew existed. This pain is nearly
unbearable, and would be so completely if not for the one
angel in my life, who brings a faint light to my world of darkness. Sometimes, its just a glimmer, just barely
visible. But I know it's there and so I focus in. Other times, it's so bright I'm consumed by its presence.
I don't know what has happened to me, the one who was in control for so long, but I can no longer stand the pressure, or withstand the pain; something has to change. Hmm, if only I knew what. Why must things affect me so? If only I knew what to say, to change the inevitable. My life is drained, and is not worthy of her presence, if only she saw that. I just don't know...