My Dearest Severus,
I
hope this letter finds you in a better mood, for my poor owl’s sake. You gave
her quite a fright. I had to make a lot of promises to get her to deliver this
one. Do try to be gentler with her this time.
You let the children
get to you too often. Its quite silly for a man like you—but I shan’t get into
this again. I know you too well to waste words on such a futile cause. Need I
remind you that I love you in spite of it?
I have also enclosed
the potion formula you asked for. Are you certain this is what you really need?
Why not try what I suggested earlier? Ah, I know, darling; I know all too well.
I won’t speak of it.
I
suppose you still aren’t going to allow it, are you? I understand, but I do
miss you, love. I miss you terribly. Life is so dull and lonesome without you.
Only you know how to make a room glimmer with passion. I never thought I’d want
so desperately to return to Hogwarts, but, oh, how I do wish to return: To
Hogwarts, to you, love. You’ll never know how much, you prat.
I
often dream of your hands caressing my skin, your lips, often so down turned
with a sour frown, curved in that sly smile as you lean in… Oh, to be with my
beloved! How I long for you! Ugh, it’s too much even for me. I hate you for
what you do to me, you sodding bloke.
Are
you certain I cannot come? No one need know. Although Dumbledore would
undoubtedly discover us, he certainly would have no objections. I need never
leave your chamber, love. Please, do think about it. I need you, dearest. I
want to kiss you, to cheer you, to beat you senseless with passion. Oh, bloody
hell, Sev, just let me come already!
Do
think of it, love. And always think of me, as I am ever thinking of you. Soon,
darling, you will feel my love again, whether you like it or not.
Your
ever-loyal heart,
Eva
Eva,
Your rotten owl tried to bite me again! Please find another owl as I look forward to your letters too much to have my hand torn off every time I try to read one!
You know I would love nothing more than to have you here forever, Eva, but we can’t risk it. These letters are dangerous enough. If someone saw us together… I can’t bear to think of what might happen… I won’t lose you, Eva. You don’t know what they would do to you… I won’t allow it.
The summer will be here soon and then we will have three glorious months together. I long for your presence; I am ever wishing you were by my side… Oh, Eva, someday, I promise you, nothing will come between us. I will leave this bloody school filled with its sodding wretched children and be with you always… but we both know it cannot be, not now. It isn’t safe.
Thank you for the formula. It is exactly what I wanted. Apparently, youth can learn obedience! Ah, Eva, you are finally coming to your senses. I’m a stubborn old man and I am set in my ways. Not even you can change that.
Though just a glimpse of your face can bring an unnatural smile to my lips. I keep it with me always, and so close to my heart. Your wry smile has gotten me through much suffering at the hands of these insufferable dunderheads. I thank you again for sending it to me. I do wish it would move though. You are always so alive and this picture hardly does justice to that. Ah, well, but it still gives me great pleasure to peek at your face.
I send with this letter a token of my great affection… keep it close, my love, for it shall remind you that I am constantly thinking of you. Darling, I love you with every breath. I live only because I know you wait for me. Please do not forget me… I would surely die if another man stole your heart away from me…
Yours Faithfully,
Severus
Severus,
Oh, darling! Thank you! I shall
keep it with me always!
You know damn well there isn’t
another man in the world that could handle me! Besides, you’re more fun than
any of the rest … most assuredly the best.
Do stop complaining about the
picture. I don’t like wizard pictures for the simple reason that every one of
them would try everything possible to embarrass me. I’ll not have that, now,
and you know it. Muggle photos are simple and charming. They always look how I
want them to, no ridiculous faces or random disappearing.
Old man are you? Ha! You are
most assuredly NOT old. Not if your actions, ah, in more intimate moments, are
any indication. Set in your ways or not, I can get what I want from you every
now and then… Yes, I am grinning with much mischievousness as I write this. Old
man!? You know damn well I wouldn’t waste my time on an “old” man! You’re no
more an old man than I am a first year student. Don’t make excuses for being
too stubborn, love. I know you far too well to believe that bullshit. You are a
stubborn git and I still love you. Merlin only knows why.
You shall never again see my
“rotten owl”. Do be satisfied with this one. He’s less liable to find you so
offensive. He is a bit more temperamental, but I do believe you will get on
with him much better. Just don’t forget to give him a treat or something. He
tends to bite when he isn’t paid in a timely manner. He quite reminds me of
someone… stubborn and temperamental. Hmmm, who could that be?
For now, I will stop pestering
you about it. I understand why you refuse. I accept it, but I don’t like it. I
miss you, you sodding…
Oh, why bother? I shan’t insult you. It’s a waste time. Do send word the
instant I am welcome to come, love.
Now,
about these students of yours… I have heard that Harry Potter and his friends
are on your particularly hated list. And what is all this rubbish about Draco
Malfoy being your favorite student? You must have lost your mind. Honestly, a
Malfoy!? Merlin’s ghost, Severus, this simply won’t do!
Your
{Omniscient and Omnipresent} Conscience,
Eva
My Eva,
Thank Merlin! You’ve come to your senses at last and bought a worthwhile owl. I no longer fear for my life every time I receive a letter from you.
Perhaps I should fear for my sanity instead. What ever possessed me to take up with such a mad witch as you? Honestly, preferring muggle-made anything! You are quite mental, as those detestable students of mine would say.
Dear me, but I do find your insults rather charming. I am old, compared with you my dear, and quite rightly so. I will not bend to anyone, least of all a simple girl like you. I only give you exactly what I want to, young lady.
Now, about my students: what do you mean by all that rubbish? I don’t care a wit what Potter and his friends do, so long as they don’t involve me. But of course, they do, so I do what any proper teacher must. I punish them for their misconduct. As for Malfoy, he is one of my best students and as he is a Slytherin, he is my responsibility. I do not favor any of these simple-minded saps and nitwits.
And what business are my students to you, anyhow? Plotting after my job are you? Or are you trying to undermine me and make me act all fluffy towards that incorrigible Potter? Yes, dear, I know you are fond of him, but please, do remember that I’m the one who loves you. I’m the one you visit here. I’m supposed to be the one you desperately await word of every moment.
Has that headmistress of yours sent word yet? I was under the impression that you would have a position there when you left Hogwarts and my tutelage. Has the wizened old hag made good on her promise yet? If she hasn’t, I believe it’s time I had a word with Dumbledore on the matter.
Dutifully,
Severus