Raves # 1
Mystic Owl Dream
September 11, a day of vast pain and distruction....a day of healing and regaining balance.....a day of magic and dispair....loss and discovery.....a day I was named. It started with a sense of disbelief and a disturbing feeling of relief.....the horror at the death unfolding before my eyes and the feeling that it was needed for the Earth to breathe......a sense of a giant weight lifted off the shoulder of the World.....but also the shock and horror, anger, pain, helplessness and frustration.....the sky was deep blue, the birds were singing, squirrills playing.....a perfect day, a sense of joy in the air....with distruction all around.
I felt the need to be with my Sisters......so I got online around 2pm......checked my emails, reading of my Sisters reactions.....their pain and fears.....felt their prayers starting to spread out....and then an email from Cat....providing a place in the Healing Spirits chat room for us to go to share prayers, to start to heal, so I headed in, to join the prayer in session.....to be with my Sisters.....to join my prayers with theirs....and as they left, one by one to take care of other needs, I found time to talk to Cat of my pain, to share some of what I had felt that disturbed me so......and I realized that I was not alone, and that I was a child of the Goddess, that I could see her love and cruelty at once and come to understand her more, and have my love deepen from the knowledge. That I was strong enough to see that sometimes death is nessasary, and not have the knowledge turn me to stone.........rather, for it to give me more strength and love to give to others to aid in their healing.
Later on, after more prayers, Cat, Katie and I were alone.....the question of Magical names was raised and I admited I had not yet found mine.....Mystic Owl came to Cat, as we had been talking of our connection to these fine creatures....I saw it and it felt good, right....like it was the one....I have always known that my name would be given to me.....but I hesitated to claim it right away, I wanted some time alone with the name to see if it was indeed the one I had been waiting for...so I took the name with me as I went to watch some more of the unfolding events....wispering it softly to myself, liking how it felt....after a couple more hours, switching back and forth from online to the TV.....keeping candles lit.....touching base with everyone.....sending prayers and energy.....at last....time for sleep....
....as I lay there....starting to set off for dreamland, I stared repeating Mystic Owl over and over in my head, trying to set it there so that my dreams might reveal if this was my true name...slowly this vision built in my inner eye......a Woman, a Mystical Being.....huge and powerful.....holding the Earth in her arms, craddling it, almost suckling.......soothing the wounds on the surface, at one point I moved a hand tenderly over a big gaping wound on the planet.....I knew this Being was me....that it was I spreading healing to the Earth, holding it in my arms.....slowly....the Being morphed into a Giant Brown Owl.....the arms becoming wings.....still craddling the Earth like a child....and then I drifted into dreamless sleep.....with a sense of peace and profound power.....