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�Because I can�t.� she repeated, whispering. �Dammit.� She mumbled, pushing her way out of his grasp, she walked across the room, turning her back to him. �The night you and Jennifer got together. I knew I had lost you. I was so jealous I couldn�t breath. Jacob said I was green.� She remembered. �He always was tactful.� Mark smirked. �He�s always known me.� she corrected. �He knew what I didn�t. He knows you as well. He told me what, up to that point, you hadn�t. That you loved me.� She whispered. �It scared the hell out of me. I was clueless.� She laughed. �It never even occurred to me. Jacob told me you�d kept the guys away from me, but you�d never said anything. So I thought he was just wrong.� She shrugged. �That last night you were at the house. When we argued.� She whispered, remembering the night too clearly. She felt Mark walk up behind her. This time when she felt him wrap his arms around her waist, she didn�t pull away instead leaning back against him. She sighed contentedly when his arms tightened around her, loving the way he held her. �I was so close to asking you for a chance. I�d had weeks to think about what Jacob said. But I was willing to let you go if Jennifer was whom you wanted. I thought I was being noble, I was stupid.� She informed him. �That�s how much I loved you.� �Loved?� he asked. �Love . . .� she whisperedly confessed. �I loved you then, enough to not say anything and let you go. I�ve thought about you too much over the years. Knowing I made a mistake. Knowing I should have fought for you.� She admitted. �It hurt so much when you choose Jennifer.� �We both messed up that night.� Mark countered. �I should have said what was on my mind. I�ve loved you from the moment I saw you. Dammed if I know why I never said anything.� Vanessa laughed softly. �Me either. We used to tell each other everything. Why couldn�t we tell each other how we felt?� she asked softly. Mark turned her around; he sat on her coffee table pulling her to stand between his long legs. He reached up, cupping her face in his hand. �I love you.� He began. Vanessa felt the tears sliding down her cheek, as she felt he conviction in those three words. �I love you.� She answered. �I can�t pretend anymore. It was easy at first. Cause you weren�t around and I pushed it out of my head.� She explained. �There hasn�t been a day that you didn�t cross my mind. I�ve missed you so much.� She leaned down and laid her forehead on the top of his head as Mark wrapped his large arms around her, pulling her to him. She wound her arms around his neck, pressing herself to him. �Then you showed up on my door step.� She explained. �It hurt to just look at you.� Mark trailed his hands down to rest on her hips. She lifted her head from his, setting her hands on his broad shoulders, biting back the smile. �You were as ugly as I remembered.� She remarked casually. �Then I wondered if I was mistaken all these years.� Yelping when Mark pinched her butt then pulled her down on his lap while she giggled. �Smartass.� He growled into her neck, holding her tightly. Vanessa wound her arms around his neck again, laying her head on his shoulder. �I missed you holding me.� she confessed softly. �So all this has been what? Torture?� he asked. �Did you expect me to welcome you back with open arms?� She asked. �I�ve been pissed off for five years. I wasn�t going to make this easy for you.� She laughed. Nessa sighed heavily as she continued, �I wanted to hurt you. As much as you�d hurt me when you left. But I can�t do that anymore. It�s too hard. It hurts too much.� �Then,� she began again, running her finger down the side of his face. �I realized I was being stupid again. That I love you. That it hurts more to be without you than to be mad at you.� She explained softly. �Besides you might find someone else that reminds you of me and get married again. Couldn�t take that chance.� She informed him. �There is no substitute for you.� Mark assured her. �Damn right.� she confirmed, whispering. �I�ve missed you Bit.� Mark mumbled into her hair, tightening his arms around her. �Won�t Jacob be smug?� she giggled. ~~FIN~~ |
| Anymore Travis Tritt I can't hide the way I feel about you anymore I can't hold the hurt inside keep the pain out of my eyes anymore My tears no longer waiting my resistance ain't that strong My mind keeps recreating a life with you alone And I'm tired of pretending...I don't love you anymore Let me make one last appeal to show you how I feel about you Cause there's no one else I swear, holds a candle anywhere, next to you My heart can't take the beating, not having you to hold A small voice keeps repeating deep inside my soul It says I can't keep pretending...I don't love you anymore I've got to take the chance or let it pass by If I expect to get on with my life My tears no longer waiting Oh my resistance ain't that strong Oh my mind keeps recreating a love with you alone And I'm tired of pretending I don't love you anymore...anymore...anymore |