Broken by you
Not a day goes by that I don't think of you
What you did to me
What you took from me
You are always slithering around my head
I hurt myself today
Because it makes me feel
I said I hurt myself
Because it makes me feel something, anything
It takes away the pieces of humanity I have left
The small pieces you left to rot inside of me
You hindered my growth
Stunted my everything
Made me feel nothing
The mere sight of you makes me feel physically ill
You still make me feel inhuman
Like an object
Something you use and throw away
You silenced me
Helped make me quiet
I would always put my head down
Lost my spirit
Lost my sanity
Lost my innocence
You made me hate myself
You made me feel wrong
You made me feel worthless
Uneasy in MY OWN skin
I hate you for that
I shake and cry inside
You still make me feel small as a helpless child
You made me distrust my memory
I see the world differently now
Thru the eyes of a victim
Thru the eyes of a survivor who never really made it
I can barely feel pleasure now
You made me detach myself from this world
There was no place for me
I was so lost
He can only hurt me if I let him
But the problem is I don't know how to not let him
A victim's mentality