Been on my own for so long.
Taking care of myself.
Everyone was too scared to take that jump.
I was too but I had nothing, no one.
No speech to break the silence.
Shoved in a corner like always.
The person I was is deep inside.
I like to think of him as someone else.
Not me, it couldn't happen to me.
It happened to him.
His thoughts from that day echo in my head.
"Please, just do it. Just kill me..."
Opened up just a little.
Let someone near me.
I had to stop it this time.
Disappear into the darkness. Again
"Get off. No. No. No!"
"Get-get off! No. Get off. No, no-o. G-get"
"STOP"
"Who are you?
What do you want from him?"
Are they ever going to fix this?
In my head.
Boxed up items and memories.
"Just take what you need"
I tell them without words
I don't deserve anything
Trapped behind a chainlinked fence
I helped to put myself there
Something has severely damaged that innocence.
Somewhat scratched and broken.
I'm not gonna make it through the next ten minutes.
I hate this.
You have no idea what it's like.
Nothing is in control,
Nothing makes sense.
Peace is not an easy thing to find.
