I have always tried to be friendly to my peers. I have been able to hide my emotions with a mask of sanity and happiness. It is a skill that has been honed to near perfection. In a way it is not something to be proud of but it has been useful, it has kept me out of being committed thus far.
Everyday it is harder and harder to keep myself on the sane side of being. Every now and then I flip out and do something stupid. Usually these events are self-destructive in some way.