Blackened Thoughts

I cannot even begin to understand what I feel and what I say
Declared void of emotion, like a deceased ocean
Will I ever see?
Is there no gray?

Why are blackened thoughts and all my thoughts so much the same?
Why am I feeling all of these things is this some kind of game?
Why are blackened thoughts and all my thoughts so much the same?
Where are all these feelings coming from, will I ever get away?

I cannot even begin to understand what You feel and what You say
Are You void of emotion, like a bloody ocean 
Will You ever see
That I need the gray

Why are blackened thoughts and all my thoughts so much the same?
Why am I feeling all of these things is this some kind of game?
Why are blackened thoughts and all my thoughts so much the same?
Where are all these feelings coming from, will I ever get away?

I cannot even begin to breathe without being forced to hear
The pounding waves and that Jesus saves 
And that he wants me near

But then my mind shouts back stabbing thoughts 
And then I�m told You do it lots
Are You for real?
Or are you not?

Why are blackened thoughts and all my thoughts so much the same?
Why am I feeling all of these things is this some kind of game?
Why are blackened thoughts and all my thoughts so much the same?
Where are all these feelings coming from, will I ever get away?