Searching
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My heart cries and my soul screams.
My thoughts clouded and my tears stream.
I'm lost in a crowd of clones I can't seem to find my place.
I stand to the side, no body sees the pain that has stricken
my face. My hands reach out to someone who is there.
Suddenly they vanish like the wind, without a care.

My body goes numb, my feelings run dry.
I can't help but feel tiny beneath this enormous dark sky.
I long for the closeness of another human touch.
But every time they grow close i shy away.
I want everything to be okay I and it to be alright.
Though I can't help but have painful pleas.
That fade within the night.

My world has grown cold now. All my tears are gone.
My feelings lie frozen,
my mind begging for them to lay unignited. My body is numb my heart remains jagged. 
My thoughts are distorted, my opinions serrated.

If you try to touch me don't be offended if i back away.
I'm having trouble dealing. I want to be happy.
I pray for that to happen again. If only for a moment if only for a day. I know it pains you to see me like this. 
In a state of hurt and rage.
These walls are pushing in on me. 
Please get me out of this cage.

I don't know where I am these days.
I can't seem to find my way.
I'm looking for a hand to hold, a light to see, a voice who will tell me it's gonna be okay.

I'm on a downward spiral now.
My demise is sickening.
I'm searching for a breath of reason, loving arms, anything.
Just keep me from giving up, cuz I don't know how.

My cries have been silenced now.
I'm looking for a friend, someone who knows what to do. I'll sit here and wait, until you can find me. 
Find me in my weakest moment and suddenly allow me to shine.

You'll help me find my true colors right.
And I promise I'll never let them fade.
Just as long as I can climb to the top again.
And stay out of the eternal shade.