It is not the rosy picture all the time everywhere. I mean these are the times to be a bit lunatic and do the day dreaming but the truth is I really need to take it easy as I just want the people around me to support and not to just brag along. I want peace of mind and expect it to come from friends with whom I am living with and are my family since 3 to 8 years.

There are several issues which need to be addressed as I am not at the place of my wedding and everything needs to be arranged by my father. To organize an Indian wedding is not an easy task and I am so ashamed that I left him to do all the arrangements all by himself and living here in Pune for a job, 650 KM away from him. I need to rent a house and I am trying hard for it. A cooking gas connection is needed immediately and cannot get it without the new rent agreement. Do my friends understand this?

Loose weight, Find house, Get Gas connection, save money for post marriage expenses, Trying to help Dad from a remote distance and wishing him not to take it too heavy on his brain, I am in all this closed world and not ready to take the garbage in form of reluctant comments and idiotic jokes at least till the things get over.

It is not easy for me to just say good bye to the life I lived so far and friends do remind me, at least for thrice a day that I have only a little more than 2 months to go! Don't they understand the state of mind in which I am presently? I am not blaming anyone; it is just me who is in a mental block. I am not sad or something. I am happy that I am getting married but it is something like a bride feels when she leaves her family and comes with her husband. I really feel sad about leaving my friends but wish they realize that something is going to change and these days will never return.