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I can see you clearly in my dreams
your red hair by your face
looking at me, with no care.
you are on top of my head
but at the bottom of my heart
flowing through a calm sea
on reed boats which sway.
do you remember then
when i carried you into the night
and the phone calls my name
asking me to call you
but if i ring you wont come,
for now i will drown my sorrows
so i can forget who i am
because i am tired of looking
at that pale reflection
with a crooked back
and pain in life
worrying about regrets
which tear me apart
i'd rather be left alone
to live like the sun
rising and setting into
the paths of the night
to never sleep
to never be approached
too strong to land
too much heat to accept
and you say it is weird
you say it is strange
but letting off this pain
is harder than denial
i dont know if i want you
i cant say that i dont
let me be there for you
when you are alone.