amanda
sight is turned away until it focuses,
and i look up
at the moment looking you in the eye
your eyes slowly turn up from your eyelids
you know what i want
the blonde drapes slide past the side of your face
and i cannot breathe for a moment but hide behind my palms
hiding underneath my shadow
hoping you would notice, but
wishing you were mine
and the smooth skin i see
your navel looking at me
how i would like to
rub the tip of my tongue across,
pulling your belt
you are another envy
the place is deserted without you
i am closed
these walls are squares which push me into chaos
this life is pain pressing harder
this body is destroyed and no one wants it
what about the birds
pecking through the roof
hiding behind speakers
i don't care for no one
no one even me, and
i use emotions to show
i don't care, to show i am selfish
as i stroll into the room i
notice many things but
the first thing i always look to find
is your eyes looking at me,
even if they all care
even if you are theirs
and that little insignificant moment to you was the highlight of my day.