The only thing worse than death,
The only thing that stops my breath
Is not controlling my fate
Only knowing what I hate.
What happens today, or the one next
I don’t know, I leave perplexed.

I know what I want; it’s not a lot
In the story of my life it’s not in the plot.
No matter what I do, I can’t get there
It’s a pain I just have to bear.
I don’t ask for help, I pretend
I don’t want it, down to the end.

In the game of life who has the rules?
I have the strength, just not the tools.
I’m thrown around like a boat at sea
I’m walking around life so numbly.
My future is set, I have a future
But I’m not a coach, just a player.

I run the plays, I tough it out
But I always seem to strikeout.
Please tell me, what’s my purpose?
I need to know, it’s my business.
I need to know before I die,
What do I miss that makes me cry?