When the sun rises, shines in on me warm and bright,
I wanna sleep forever, the one thing that seems right.
There’s nothing for me out there,
Cuz there’s nothing for me in here.
My mind is gone, senses shot,
I feel lost, the last feeling I got.
I hate this world, it won’t go away,
But I will be the one that’s gone someday.
They come to me, they tell me their woes,
I ease their pain, that’s how it goes.
Despite the past, they’re happy now,
How do they do it? I want to know how.
They get shit on, it goes away,
I get shit on, it builds on my pain.
I need some help, I need a call,
The phone is silent, just fuck it all.
There’s nothing genuine anymore,
Everything’s phony down to the core.
We try to be different, but that’s still the same,
If it’s not “cool”, we’re filled with shame.
Doing something new, that idea’s so old,
But our true dreams are always put on hold.
Everyone’s a puppet, we all got strings,
I want to cut them and see what it brings.
Everyday I want to step in front of a car,
But I can’t quit now when I’ve suffered so far.
But what would it be like to feel my wrath?
To slit my wrists, drown in a bath.
Poison my drink, put a bullet through my head,
Just leap off a ledge, now I’m dead.
I’m sure there’ll be a few that think that’d be bad,
But most will probably just say, “Oh, how sad.”
“You’re life’s way too good to waste, can’t you see?”
Fuck off, you don’t know how it is to be me.
Day after day I toil and drudge,
Like some almighty has an almighty grudge.
What did I do to deserve such pain?
All my spirits of hope have been slain.
There’s nothing in sight that can ease my mind,
I wish I would just hurry up and die.
What on Earth could save my soul?
Making it to tomorrow is my only goal.
But with nothing one day comes the same the next,
Searching for meaning leaves me perplexed.
Maybe I should do like my peers and look for good,
Maybe if I didn’t think at all, then I could.
I don’t want this life of hate and dread,
Maybe it’ll be better after I go to bed.
