Chapter 11

 

“OMG!” I whispered slowly, before throwing everything i ate that morning, I reached the washroom of the restaurant in time. Meanwhile, Chris was waiting for me impatiently infront of women’s toilet.

 

“Are you feeling ok honey?” he asked concernly. I just nodded, I was too weak to speak.

 

“Look, this is happening  for the third time this week. You should definitely see a doctor.” He continued.

 

“Whatever.” I mumbled, we went back to our table. “I just wanna eat something since i left everything i have in my stomach in the toilet.” A waitress stopped by our table.

 

“Good afternoon. Can I take your orders please?” she said smiling. Chris waited for my order silently.

 

“Uhm..I want some mushrooms, some fries, two cheeseburgers and an apple juice please.” When i looked up from menu, i saw waitress and Chris gawking at me in disbelief.

 

“What?” I scolded.

 

“Nothing!” they both said. Chris ordered something also and waitress came back a few minutes later with our orders. As i munched on my delicious meal, he stared me.

 

“I’ve never seen you eating that much.” He said laughing.

 

“Well Mr.Smart, you weren’t the one emptied her stomach right there.” I grumbled still busy with my food.

 

“How can you eat mushroom and cheeseburger together?” he asked disgusted. “I hate mushrooms!!!!”

 

“So do I.” I stopped and swallowed the last piece of mushroom. “Chris, don’t tell me that i just swallowed a mushroom...”

 

He laughed. “Well sweetie, that’s what you’re doing for the past 10 minutes.”

 

“Oh my God...” I glanced now empty plates.

 

“Seriously Sky, we have to talk...I mean, you have all symptoms of pregnancy honey...”

 

As soon as these words poured from his mouth, my world turned upside down. No this couldn’t be happening...NOT TO ME...what would i say to my dad? Sharing the same destiny wasn’t what i wanted from life. Damn!

 

“NO!” I yelled. “It won’t happen ok? Shut up!” I stood up and left the restaurant, heading where Chris’ car was parked. I started crying. What would happen if I was pregnant? Besides, this month i hadn’t had my period. I wanted to kill myself right there. Then chris appeared infront of me.

 

“Where the hell do you think you’re going?” he grumbled between his teeth.

 

“I’m not pregnant!” I yelled.

 

“Skylar, baby, don’t make a scene...” he relented.

 

“I AM NOT!!!” I yelled again. Was i going insane?

 

“Let’s go honey, come on..” he said ushering me towards the car. I was crying frantically right now while poor Chris was trying to calm me down.

 

When we were on our way, I realized that we weren’t going home. My answer was ‘you’ll see’ when i asked him where we were going. Then it hit me.

 

“NO!” I yelled. “Stop the car Chris, I don’t wanna go there!” I reached for handle but he had already locked the doors. “Open it!” I yelled between tears. “Please Chris, I don’t wanna go there!”

 

“Shut up!” he yelled for the first time. “What do you think, do i like it? I hate doing this but WE have to make sure ok? Now shut your mouth up and sit still.” He demanded.

 

I was in a daze. He hadn’t even raised his voice to me in our relationship. Comprehending that i’d engraged him badly, i shut up and looked outside. Clouds were grey, it was gonna rain. Like my future, always rainy, always grey. I wouldn’t be able to go to college just cos of what was growing inside me. What would i say to my dad? He was going to be gandfather! Oh my good God!

 

When Chris stopped the car, i moved back to reality. I looked around, and saw the clinic that would change my destination.

 

“C’mon baby.” Chris whispered, a little scare was heard in his sweet voice. I got off the car, hand in hand, we entered inside.

 

“We have an appointment with Dr.Clark.” spoke Chris to the lady sitting beyond a desk full with lots of papers and a computer. Lady looked at the computer, wrote something then shot a glance to us and smiled politely.

 

“Please sit down, Dr.Clark will pay attention to you after a minute.” Chris thanked and we slumped onto uncomfortable chairs. The room we were sitting had several other doors connecting to other doctors’ offices. Secretary was now talking with someone on the phone. I continued glancing around, a sick looking little boy was sitting with his mother a few chairs away from us. I smiled at him and he smiled back, I felt pity for him. Our smiles interrupted by a strong voice. When i looked at the direction voice was coming from, I saw a tall  middle-aged black man dressed in whites smiling at us. Now, this was Dr.Clark, the person who will discover the truth.

 

“You must be Skylar.” He said with a full voice. What i did was just nodding.

 

“Will you two please follow me to my office where we can talk openly?” My heart was yelling No’s but i have to follow Chris who was holding my hand.

 

Dr.Clark’s room was also painted in white, but everything in this was white, from desks to couches to his own clothes.

 

“How old are you two?” he asked sincerely as he went behind his desk and sat down.

 

“We’re both 18.” Chris answered.

 

“When did you realize you’re pregnant Skylar?”

 

“I didn’t cos i’m not pregnant.” I retorted.

 

“Ok, calm down Skylar. Why did you need to come here anyway?”

 

“I didn’t want to come here nor i want to stay any longer!” I yelled and stood up but Chris pulled my arm and made me sit down again.

 

“Damn you!” I yelled between tears. No, I couldn’t be able to handle this situation anymore.”

 

“Shh....” Chris whispered in my ear and enveloped me into a hug which i needed very much. “Everything’s gonna be alright honey, just calm down and answer doctor’s questions ok darling?” I nodded as i started speaking.

 

“I haven’t thought I was pregnant Dr.Clark, this is what Chris told me today. I threw up again for the third time this week and then ı started eating strange things, such as mushrooms with cheeseburger and i hate mushrooms. Besides, what i didn’t tell Chris before that I didn’t have my PMS this motnh.” I finished.

 

While I was speaking, Dr.Clark was scribbling what i said down to a notepad.  He stared at what he’d written for a minute and then asked if it was the first time we had sex. We both nodded.

 

“Do you remember date?” We looked at each other dumbly.

 

“Uhm...I guess it was two weeks before Sky’s dad’s birthday party?” Chris looked at me for support.

 

“Yeah...” I said. “It must be the beginning of this year.”

 

Dr.Clark nodded and took a few notes again and looked at me.

 

“Skylar will you please follow me to this room?” I nodded as i stood up. Chris stood up also bur Dr.Clark told him to stay there. I kissed Chris and told him that I was fine. All of a sudden, some courage filled my heart. Cr.Clark gave me a large white  dress and told me to wear it. Then he made me sit down on an extreme poverty type thing. He examined, examined...after what seemde like a life time to me, i was finally released. I changed into my normal clothes and ran into arms of a worried Chris. Ten minutes later, Dr.Clark appeared. His moves were so slow, he sat down, looked at his notes, wrote something down while we watched every move he did impatiently. After another five minutes, he clasped his hands together, looked at us and spoke softly:

 

“As you already realized, beautiful Skylar is two motnhs old pregnant.”

 

I squeezed Chris’ hand tightly as he put an arm around my shoulder and kissed my cheek. My warm tears were pouring down non-stop. But I sat there, like a stone, my eyes closed, not responding doctor’s suggestions.

 

“....If you don’t want this baby, I can suggest you some good curettage doctors...”

 

“No!” I refused angrily, then looked at Chris’ face and closed my eyes whispering softly:

 

“I’m going to have this baby.”