Prologue

By Danielle

July 2000

Melissa's View

It seems like only yesterday when I found out that I had it...had Aids. The feeling that I had when I heard those words come out of the doctors mouth was horrible. I didn't know what to think at first but then I began thinking that this was it...I was going to die. I remember hearing my Step Mom tell me that it was too late to do anything...to late to treat it. I didn't feel anything at first...just plain shock but then a miracle happened. Not just one...but two. Two miracles happened that changed my life forever but I'm already getting ahead of myself, Let me start from the beginning....

December 1999

My name is Melissa Johnson. I am 17 years old and diagnosed with Aids. I am 5'7" with long brown hair and green eyes. I live in New Hampshire with my father, my Step Mom, my brother Josh, and my sister Dawn. I love my brother Josh to pieces. Dawn is just as great but Josh and I have a connection with each other that I would probably never have with Dawn. Josh and I are like best friends. He is so great. He does anything I want and always finds some way to make me smile or laugh. I'm going to miss him a lot...more than anything. More than he will ever know. He's really sad about all of this and he's spending as much time with me as he can. I'm doing the same with him. Dawn is there for me a lot too and I love her for that also, I just love her period since she's my sister but as for my Dad and Step Mom, that's a whole other story. They aren't there for me...They never have been. I bet they wouldn't mind me dying at all but we won't talk about that now, we'll get to that later on.

I found out I had Aids a couple of months ago. That's a long story but to make it short I hurt my arm and I had to go to the hospital. That's when they found out I had it. You would think that if they caught it early enough they could treat it right? Well, that wasn't my case...They waited too long. They CAN'T treat me now. The doctors are saying I won't survive but they still are doing tests on me. I don't see the point, if I'm going to die then why can't they just let me? I'm sick of all the tests, I just want things to end so I won't have to go through all this anymore.

You would also think that I'm in the hospital until I die right? Well, that's not the case either. The doctors let me go home. I'll get to stay home as long as I take my pills and go to the hospital for check ups every week. I think I'm doing well but that isn't a fact, it's my opinion. An opinion I want so much to be true.

All right, enough of the Medical talk and depressing stories. I'll tell you more about myself that does not involve Aids. I am currently single and I'm pretty happy about it. I don't need to deal with relationship problems or anything related to that for a while.

You might here this a lot but I am the Backstreet Boys biggest fan...or at least one of many. I have followed their career since it started. I think they are great singers with great talents and I'm happy that they are sharing it with the whole world. My dream is to one day meet them, That one day will probably never come. Most people say 'Don't worry about it! You have your whole life ahead of you!'. Yeah, easy for them to say, they DO have their whole life ahead of them, I don't. All I want is to meet them and then I'll be completely happy. Their music helps me a lot and I want to thank them for making my life much more happier.

Meeting them would be a miracle...a miracle that I want so much. A miracle that I would do anything to make come true. I just wish it would come true... before it's too late.