13/3/06 Air of emptiness

Now that I am sitting in the MO room, my mind is blank...stuck in the air of emptiness. For I felt there are so much to do in the coming months, and so much uncertainty.
Since entering into phase 2 training which require lots of devotion in time and energy, I am not sure if I will be elected into the phase 3 (HK baseball team), I am not sure if my annual leave in June will be approved for my exam in UK, I am not sure if I can handle the 2 exams in June.
For quite a number of months, I think that my commitment to baseball training was not a big deal, it certainly is no big business comparing to my career. But it grows to me that this seemed to be a serious business that it's second pirority other then career. I gave up all the other leisures, social gatherings...Having four sessions of training per week is really demanding.
But above all, I realised God is my life's pirority. The uncertainties redirected my focus to Him. The past experiences of His grace flashed back. It's getting more clear that without God, I wont be able to achieve the dreams. To work on the dreams with God together no matter the dreams come true or not...For there are lessons to learn in every sense.

31/3/2006 Dream comes true

I entered phase 3!! My dream comes true! Hallelujah! I did learn a lot throughout the past month- there is no such not-so-serious business that God should not be rejected but should be involved in things I do. Learn to be humble, don't think that you can achieve everything by yourself.

Gorgeous Days
I feel so good in recent days – my higher training is being confirmed; one of my dreams in life-being able to represent HK in a sport; got a really nice and close friend in workplace who drives my solitary and lonely feelings away...These are such blessings.