May 2005 Losing my way - who you wanna be?

In the past few weeks, I have been troubled by the subspecialty training opportunities. I would love to enter the field of gastroenterology. I know God does not meant to make me being proud after have such outstanding PACE score, but deep down I do become arrogant, the idea of " why being the top in HK, I can't choose the specialty I like most, why there are always obstacles??"

Another problem is my recent relationship with my sister, Gloria. We are having "silence" since a quarrel which was already 1 or 2 weeks ago when she yelled at me. I do want her to apologize for being rude. But she did not. And there were some misunderstanding few days ago when mom twitsted my words and tell Gloria that "i dont think she should have further education"... these makes me even harder to talk to her.

Perhaps i did change, the uncertainty and stress I am undergoing makes me became rather easily get annoyed. And I feel that I am not the gentle old self before...more impulsive, more easily get provoked...