I'm so alive
I'm so enlightened
I can barely survive
A night in my mind
I've got a plan
I'm gonna find out just how boring I am
And have a good time
Cause ever since I tried
Trying not to find
Every little meaning in my life
It's been fine
I've been cool
With my new golden rule
Numb is the new deep
Done with the old me
And talk is the same cheap it's been
Is there a God?
Why is he waiting?
Don't you think of it odd
When he knows my address?
And look at the stars
Done they remind you of just how feeble we are?
Well it used to, I guess
Cause ever since I tried
Trying not to find
Every little meaning in my life
It's been fine
I've been cool
With my new golden rule
Numb is the new deep
Done with the old me
And talk is the same cheap
It's been
I'm a new woman
I wear a new perfume and
You wouldn't know me if your eyes were closed
I know what you'll say
'This wont last longer than the rest of the day'
But you're wrong this time
You're wrong
Numb is the new deep
Done with the old me
I'm over the analyzing
Tonight
Stop trying to figure it out
It will only bring you down
You know, I used to be the back
porch poet with my book of rhymes
Always open knowing all the time I'm probably
Never gonna find the perfect rhyme
For 'heavier things'
I'm not alone, I wish I was.
Cause then I'd know, I was down because
I couldn't find, a friend around
To love me like, they do right now.
I'm dizzy from the shopping malls
I searched for joy, but I bought it all
It doesn't help the hunger pains
and a thirst I'd have to drown first to ever satiate
Something's missing
And I don't know how to fix it
something's missing
And I don't know what it is
When autumn comes, it doesn't ask.
It just walks in, where if left you last.
And you never know, when it starts
Until there's a fog inside the glass around your heart.
I can't be sure that this state of mind,
is not of my own design
I wish there was an over the counter test, for loneliness.
For loneliness like this.
Something's missing
And I don't know how to fix it
Something's missing
And I dont know what it is
Friends -check- Money -check-
A well slept -check- Opposite sex -check-
Messages waiting for me, when I come home -check-
I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continuously change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me
Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left cleaning up the mess he made
Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And the boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without the warmth from
A womans good, good heart
On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world
So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
She put him out like the burning end of a midnight cigarette
She broke his heart He spent his whole life trying to forget
We watched him drink his pain away a little at a time
But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind
The rumors flew but nobody knew how much she blamed herself
For years and years she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath
She finally drank away her pain away a little at a time
But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind
Until the night
She put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away her memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength she had to get up off her knees
We found her with her face down in the pillow
With a note that says I'll love him till I die
And when we buried her beneath the willow
The angels sang a whiskey lullaby
And I'd give up forever to touch you
'cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I dont want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'cause sooner of later it's over
I just dont want to miss you tonight
And I dont want the world to see me
'cause I dont think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you cant fight the tears that aint coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
I miss the look of surrender in your eyes
The way your soft brown hair would fall
I miss the power of your kiss when we made love
But most of all... I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say
to make me laugh again
let the light back in
I miss my friend
I miss the colors that you brought into my life
Your golden smile with those blue-green eyes
And I miss your gentle voice
in lonely times like now
sayin it'll be alright
I miss my friend
I miss those times
I miss those nights
I even miss our silly fights
The makin up, the mornin talks
And those late afternoon walks
I miss my friend
by G9
Pale blue pools of mystery draw me deep
A warm smile and an innocent touch
A fool to fall for one so loved
A tease lingers upon virgin lips
Hungry hands wander over familiar curves
Balancing on a fragile line of selfish pleasure and inflicted pain