Note: This ~*~ changes the character's point of view.
It first
starts off with Anya.
I couldn't believe this...... we kissed??
I...everything is so clear.......like a dream....
"I...I..have to go..." I watched you grab your stuff and coat and
literally ran out the shop. I didn't know what do. What to
say....hell who was I going to speak to? Myself? I sighed and did
what came to me....
I ran after Giles.
~*~
Run....run......have to get away...
I turned around a corner, leaning against the wall, trying to catch
my breath. Little thought's crept into my mind.
I kissed her. HER! Of all people. She's engaged to
Xander....dammit....Remember him?! The one that like a son to you.
Hello Rupert come on now. How can you do something like this...
Something that you know could hurt him if he ever found out.
/But he wouldn't.....would he?/
Shut up.
/You know you liked it./
Oh crap..
/How good it felt to have her in your arms./
Dammit! Leave me alone!
"Giles?"
I almost jumped out of my skin at the sound. When I saw it was her, I
swallowed hard, feeling my legs go weak at just the sight of her.
She's so beautiful... Her soft curly hair bouncing with the slightest
move. I never thought of her in anyway but just as one of the kids.
My kids....my family...Xanders soon to be wife.
"Giles?"
I blinked startled from my thoughts, as I heard her voice sounding a
mixture of frustration and anxiety. "Yes?" I replied, though I tried
to avoid her eyes as much as possible.
"Giles....look at me."
Her voice was gentle but serious. Though I didn't have the nerve to
look at her after what happened. I felt a hand gently caress my chin
and felt her make me look at her. "Giles...we have to speak."
I sighed in defeat. "About what?"
"About us...about what happened...there's-"
I cut her off before she could finish. "There's nothing to discuss
Anya. I have a plane to catch in an hour or so.......I really don't
have time to sit around and chat over a cup of tea." I sounded so
distant...cold to her.
I could see her eyes cloud. Her shiny glow in them fading slowly.
"I...but...You can't go...."
"Anya...unless you have something REALLY important to talk about.
Then I kindly ask that you move out of my way, since I'm in a hurry."
She blinked, opening her mouth to object, but closed it in defeat.
She moved away, letting me pass by her. And I did...not looking back
at her...not looking back.
~*~
I wonder what the others are doing. Do they even know about Giles
leaving???
I haven't seen them around....Do they even care?
He only cares about his Buffy.....
No offense to her....She's my friend and all.....
But everyone cares about her.....Putting her in number one place. I
know she's the slayer and all....But HELLO! She's not the only there
either. There are other people to care about.
But I could never beat Buffy out of the number one spot in Xander
heart, and who says I can beat her from Giles heart. They both
treasure her...as she was a precious jewel.
I guess I'm not really important here. Thinking about it....should I
leave too?
Pack my bags...and leave....Leave Xander and my dreams of being
married to him. But why doesn't it really matter to me now if I'm
engaged to Xander or not....If Giles is leaving....
He's leaving all of us...
Leaving me...
~*~
*At the Giles apartment*
Okay, my bags are packed. Got the plane ticket....I got everything
ready. Now need to get to the airport.
I sighed, knowing that I lied to Anya. Telling her I was going to
leave in a hour....But I really am not...I'm leaving now.
I grab my stuff and head to the door, I give it one last glance
before turning the lights out and heading out of it for good.
~*~
*About an hour or so....*
Anya ran into the airport, looking everywhere......everywhere.....for
him......
From a far distant she saw him.
Shit. She inwardly cursed, he's about to board the plane. She ran as
fast as she could, dodging people around her.
She yell out his name. "Giles.....Giles........Giles..."
She notice him glance in her direction once as she was getting
closer. She stop right near a glass window, freezing in place,
knowing in her heart that he was looking directly at her. She
couldn't move. She watched in tears as he boarded the plane, never
taking her eyes off of him, until he was inside
of it. Watching the plane take off in tears....Finally knowing that
she was watching the man of her heart leave......
Watching how the love of her life slipped away...slipping away slowly
and painfully...
~*~
Sitting in a seat, with the plane in the air, heading straight to
London, Giles knew he was loosing part of him.
Yes, leaving Buffy and the others hurt him deeply.......but it hurt
him most that he was leaving Anya.
He'll never get to tell her that he loved her. Never.
He'll never tell that the reason for leaving, wasn't really for
Buffy's sake. But for her's. He couldn't destroy her soon to be
marriage with Alexander Harris. He couldn't.....he could remember
her silly but cute enthusiastic about it.
He better take good care of her.....he's lucky to have her.
He closed his eyes.....trying to force himself to sleep. But
couldn't...just couldn't...
Every time he closed his eyes....he saw her...... Beautiful as
always...smiling at him with love in her eyes. But that would be
always in his dream... Never a reality.
Though he will always remember and treasure the one kiss they ever
shared.
~*~
Walking home...alone....
Alone... No, Giles......no Giles...She lost him for good.
"Anya? Sweetheart? Why are you crying?" Xander asked worriedly as
he rushed to his fiancee, taking her into his arms. Though she just
pushed him away.
"No." She said in tears. "I can't.....not now........please.....It
hurts..."
Xander blinked in confusion. She wasn't making sense to him, but he
could notice she was hurting but before he could say anything she ran
away from him. Running fast as she could....
Anya ran fast.....letting her legs take her anywhere...just far from
Xander.
In her mind and heart she didn't want to hurt him. He been good to
her....but her heart belong to another. Giles.
"I'm sorry Xander." She said as she ran away from everything.
The End.