Bothering You
All it seems that I do anymore is cry,
My cat has once again become my best friend
I never see you anymore
You were my love,
My friend,
My confidant,
Now it seems all you are is gone,
That you don't want me in your life anymore
Every car that drives by I pray it's you,
I wait by the phone,
Whenever it rings my thoughts fall to you,
You're pulling away from me,
It feels like you don't care anymore,
I even called you when I had a nightmare,
But you didn't care,
All you said is it would be all right,
And to go back to bed,
I felt like I was "bothering" you while you were hanging out with your friends,
During what used to be our time,
The time we used to hang out and love each other,
Now if I even want to call I am fucking bothering you,
And you don't even want to call me anymore,
You never want to see me anymore,
It feels like in you finding your life you are forgetting about me,
That you think it is alright not to call me now,
Even if it is just to say goodnight,
You can't understand why it hurts so much,
After we lived together to see each other only 2 times a week,
It feels like you don't even remember that we have dated for two years now,
None of anything has happened between us,
It's alright to ignore me,
I feel so alone,
So hurt,
All I ever want to do is cry,
Today I actually wanted to kill myself,
Take my whole bottle of pain killers,
It would be so easy,
To just lay in my bed,
And die,
Alone,
Forever
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