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My first exposure to the 100th monkey story was a couple of years ago a
friend took me to a house downtown, where a bunch of people were meeting to
listen to a shaman speak, and before he did, his apprentice was required to
share something with the group. That was part of his topic. Sometimes I find
myself thinking about a loved one, and they call, or I am concerned about
one of my friends that is still using drugs, and suffering, and I will
call them only to hear they were waiting for a sign, something to let them
know they were needed. Or, the connection I have with my cat. Quite often,
I will come home from being out of town, or late at work, and He will be
standing in the window, and will be very talkative and excited when I come
in the door. And my roommate or house sitter or whoever, will say" He started
acting like that about 2 minutes before you pulled up, how could he know
you were coming?" The answer is of course, Love. Love creates channels of
activity that become more than familiar. I want to use the word addictive,
but I know there is a better term. I believe that Love is what spirit is,
and when you Love someone for a period of time, it strengthens that channel,
and Grace, Higher spirit,God,or whatever you call it, reveals itself as the
source of that Love, and it becomes like something you can't do without...because
we can't do without that higher self, or power, it creates a bond that is
powerful, weakened only by the fear that we could lose that relationship!
There is a secret truth right there, that we all know, but we all know that
fear, too
I used and drank for 24 years a full autobiography could be written and
that's a good idea!) I could probably write something that would be more interesting,
structured and informative if you wanted me to. I would ask that it be anonymous,
just for personal spiritual reasons.Let me know and I would be glad to compose
something a little better.
I am a recovering addict, have been drug-free for 7 years monthes,and
21 days, but hell who's counting! I found my spiritual connection with life
through drug use, which became drug abuse, but in essence was the baptism
of fire that helped me find my original self. I attend 12 step groups and
consider that work part of my gift back to life, and a basic symbol of my
gratitude, for the wonderful life I have now. Thats a primary core of who
I am in life, and that is an incredible part of that Karma I spoke of earlier.
I believe that I chose that path as part of my human endeavour,and feel
fortunate that part of that gift to life is to help others see that they
were just trying to re-claim original self when they started taking drugs.
We all just want to feel connected. Where am I going? Down a road of happy
joyous destiny of my own making, the end result of that road being re-membrance
with the maker of that original self. But the pathway is walking towards
that re-membrance, with wonderful glimpses of that most beautiful of all
truths! Who am I going with? With all things! The maker is the consciousness
behind all things, and all things are returning to that truth, whether they
believe it, or have told us so, I believe it is so.
The question is, who will walk beside us, and be part of the immediate
focus of that channel of Love, I mentioned?
I have this friend named **** that I grew up with, we
went to school here in ______, had our first girlfriends, listened to music
before the Beatles, did our first drugs together, lived in a commune in
____ in the 70's,and he walked to the Gates of Hell with me, and waited
until I came out. And now we are inseparable. There is nothing in God's universe
that will ever disconnect us again, not even death. Do you know why? Because
we saw the face of God in each other, and we know there is no death in that
reflection.
Gosh, I just want to meet some nice lady that can share that same
vision...am I asking too much? Get back to me on that. LOL! Let's "do lunch"
it may not be as lengthy as what *--- and I have done, but the sparkle between
the eyes of those that have glimpsed heaven and hell, often reveal some wonderful
things!
I got sober in 1996,and hold those ---- alcoholics responsible
for me being there for that wonderful experience. Just a brief rundown,
so that you have the idea behind the spiritual principles of the steps:
1)Honesty
2)Hope
3)Faith
4)Courage
5)Integrity
6)Willingness
7)Humility
8)Love
9)Forgiveness
10)Discipline
11)Awareness
12)Service
When I stopped using drugs, I was devoid of any of those principles, and
didn't have a clue how to apply them in my daily living. The people that
I met there were addicts just like the people that I knew from before, people
that seemed like friends that I already knew. And they taught me how to
apply those principles in my daily affairs. And my life has changed more
than I ever dreamed possible. If you examine those concepts, think of how
many people you know or have known that exhibited those principles in their
day to day actions. I don't know that many people that come close. But now
I know a large group of people that are trying, and intend to keep up the
practice. And I intend to hang out with them the rest of my life. And if
I didn't my chances of having a happy sober existence would drop off severely.
The willingness one applies to humility and since humility is about knowing
oneself,and if not,then being humble enough to be teachable.Therefore Willingness
becomes indispensable! Discipline is about having the humility to find your
part in things on a day to day basis,Awareness is just about meditation
and prayer.
Anyway, that's my gig.
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