So, boyfriend broke up with me. I guess that makes him exboyfriend now... And it hurts. Nothing happened, he just didn't want to be with me, didn't really like me as more than a friend. I don't know how I got through the day. Although, I didn't really do a good job of it. I just feel so empty right now. We had plans to do stuff this summer, at least, I thought we had plans. I guess they were just my own cause he wasn't that intrested in me. The way he did it just hurt. I knew he was going to break up with me, but he was going to wait till Monday. He was acting like everything was fine, but at the same time being cold and distant. This hurts. I really liked him... This hurts so bad. You know, I've been around the block and I know what I'm looking for... He was, just, everything I was hoping to find. I really did love everything about him. I guess I just wasn't good enough. And it hurts. It hurts so bad. I don't want it to be real. I don't want it to have happened.

I had the urge to cut my hair today. I really want to just shave it all off. I don't know if I'll go that far, but I might cut it in the next few days. The more I think about it, the more I want to.

Holy fuck, this hurts. I didn't know it would hurt this bad. I want it to stop hurting.