DULL HOLIDAY

DECEMBER 23, 2003

Hmmmm...it's the bottom half of the 8:00 morning hour, and I'm at home. This is my second week of being at home since school is actually over and I'm on the winter holiday vacation. The way the school semester ended was not like I wanted. I have not received any of the grades that I have expected or wanted to get in any of my classes. Instead, in one way or another, I fell short. Nice...very nice indeed. Well, at least it was better than the spring semester. Anyway, once again I'm at home. That's great, isn't it? I'm away from school and don't have to worry about that place for a month. Great, right? Yeah...being at home, all alone with not a damn friend to escape to in sight. That's just great. Yesterday was a great day weather wise. The sun was shining, and it was pushing 60 degrees. On the flip side, today is dreary, possibly cold, and rainy. Normally, I would accept this (the sound of the rain is quite soothing right now). However, it's just adding to my lowly atmosphere right now. This isn't great, is it? It's two days until Christmas, and I'm not excited. Should I be? I don't know. Everything just sucks right now.

Ever since I've been home, not much has happened. First off, I actually got a new car. Well, not really a new "new" car, but a new, used car. Finally...my own set of wheels. Can everyone say..."wow"? Nah, you don't have to. Now, most people would be excited to get a car. I couldn't tell if I was or wasn't. I wasn't really looking forward to the actual process of looking for one though. This happened on December 14, two days after I arrived home. My mom and I looked around. We didn't do that much searching as we only went to two dealerships. At the second dealership, after we saw the potential vehicle, my mom was pretty good in lowering the asking price for the car, and I was good at looking nonchalant, yet serious about the aspect of getting a car. It's either that, or maybe I really didn't give a damn. Anyway, when I got the car, I wasn't that impressed. It was something I had to get used to. Everyone else in this house was somehow excited though. My mom drove it many times during the first week I had it. My sister took a few spins in it. My dad thinks I should keep that car. Well, it's not like I'm giving it away or anything. Here was the original plan. My mom said that she wanted to get an S.U.V., and she was looking forward to it. At the same time, she wants to get a new house sometime soon during the next year. Well, one of the things she has to do to obtain this house is to show that she can save money, so she has to do that and put her vehicle plans on temporary hold. Meanwhile, she said she would just get another car for the time being and then give me her current car. I was fine with that. I wouldn't have minded getting her car. So, when I actually got this new one on that Sunday, I was a little hesitant because the plan was for her to have the "new" car, not me. I'll take it though. It's actually a nice little vehicle. Some stuff has to be improved, but that's expected. If I were to take my mom's car, then more stuff would have to be improved to suit my needs. That sounds like my mom's car really isn't that good. On the contrary, it is. Yet, my car does have cruise control, and that was something that was gonna be added to the other car if I were to have that one for myself. So, all in all, I guess it's good that I have this car now. I am warming up to it. I guess I'll feel better about it once I'm back at school and I actually force myself to go places.

Since being at home, I haven't done many of my Christmas traditions. I haven't watched some of my Christmas shows yet, but I plan to within these next two days. I haven't played Christmas NiGHTS on Sega Saturn yet, and that's been a tradition for years. I think I'll play it today. However, I have been listening to my Christmas With The B.U.N.K.S. CD many times. In case you don't know, it's the holiday CD made by Smo Logic and Gromatic of One Mic Studios, and I got it last year. It is a great audio treat for this time of year. I plan to listen to that a few more times as well. Let's see...anything else I have to say? Not really. Eventually, I'll have to get out of this house, so I might force myself to do something today. I can actually do that now since I have a car. You know, it's really good for something...haha. Now it's the top half of the 9:00 morning hour, and nothing has really changed. So, I'll just get back to my lonely, dull life and close this little entry out. Peace.