BY MY SIDE

DECEMBER 10, 2003

 

For the first in a long time

I get to see you again

I never would have thought

This day would come along

There was always the belief

It was all permanently to an end

Or nothing would come of us

Yet I had to be strong

 

Now that you've returned into my life

You took away a lot of my strife

I hope that you can say to me

That your presence is now guaranteed

 

Please stay by my side

I need you right here

Please be at my side

So you can calm any fear

Stay by my side

So I won't need to shed a tear

Be at my side

Because I need you...right here

 

When you first disappeared

I would always hope and pray

That you would somehow return

And everything would be okay

Everytime I made a wish

That you would come back one day

Then I felt it was a wasted dream

And all the good has gone away

 

Now that you've returned into my life

There are no more wishes to sacrifice

Since you're back I hope that I can see

Your presence this time is a guarantee

 

Please stay by my side

I need you right here

Please be at my side

So you can calm any fear

Stay by my side

So I won't need to shed a tear

Be at my side

Because I need you here

 

If only that day would come along

And I could witness your return

But this wish has lasted far too long

The reality of it all I had to learn...

 

After all the fun we had back in the day

And the things that we have shared along the way

In the shortest time you've become my best friend

And a good thing like that shall never end

When you left my life has not been the same

But I know that there is no one to blame

It's been far too long to not have you around

Because at the time you were the greatest friend I found

 

I always hoped that you would return to my life

So that everything again would be right

And if once again best friends we would be

You would make me better, and that's a guarantee

 

I need you by my side

I wish you were right here

When you were at my side

I never had any kind of fear

I hope you come to my side

Before I shed many a tear

I need you by my side

I honestly do...need you here...

 

If only you were by my side...

But I know that you'll never return here...

 

ADDITIONAL COMMENTARY:

I wrote this at the beginning of November, and I left it alone. Then, all of a sudden I came back to it, added a few things, and then placed it here because I haven't posted a poem here in quite a while. This piece represents something that has lingered on in my life for about eleven (almost twelve) years. It's the distancing of a great friend (due to reasons beyond my control) and wishing that the great friend would come back. It starts out with me imagining what it would be like if he returned, and then that vision ends as the reality kicks in. I just have to realize that it won't happen. With me expecting that something like this will happen again eventually, I'm sure that this poem will be indicative for many more years to come.