JUST
JULY 15, 2003
It�s been quite a while since I�ve said something to you all, huh? Some weeks to be exact, right? Yeah, well�I just could never really bring myself to say anything. Nothing�s been happening to me. I�m still going through the same old tired thing that is called my life. That waste of space feeling I previously spoke about is still here. I�m pretty much allowing my summer vacation to waste away. I haven�t done much of anything. The 4th of July was nothing. I don�t get excited about that holiday anymore. It wasn't like in the past when it was all exciting and stuff. Just the mere thought of getting fireworks back then would get me tingly. Now, that's not the case. Here�s the proof of that. My sister and I went to go get fireworks, and compared to the past years, our collection was very skimpy. I only paid $18 worth...well, actually $28 because my sister and I paid half-and-half for this one set. Then, I didn�t even use half of the stuff I bought that night. It wasn�t really worth it. I had more fun last year, and that wasn't great either. I guess the highlight of the night was when two groups of people went into this fireworks war. It was a bit hilarious�seeing this one dude chase all these other fools down the street while shooting a roman candle at them, lol. But that�s another thing though�with all the dusty kids that were outside, that also hampered any kind of excitement that was left of that day. It was just me, my sister, and her troll (a.k.a. boyfriend) shooting stuff. We tried to make the best of it. It wasn�t all bad, but it wasn�t very fun either.
Fast forward back to now. My time is only occupied by work, being at home, and sleeping pretty much. Between those three things, I got a whole lot of unoccupied time on my hands. I�m typing this up at work right now. I have nothing else to do right now, so I figured now would be a good time to let you know that I�m still around. I didn�t pass out or anything. I just put a little muzzle on myself for the time being. I need to get active on this site again. I had plans, and I could not bring myself to materialize them. I was going to try and �show off� more of my music, but now I�m having second thoughts about it. I have some uncompleted songs that should have been done a while ago. I started on something new last week and haven�t done much to it since. Then, I was working on a new graphic some weeks ago, and I haven�t finished that yet. I got poems that I started on last month that I didn't finish. Looks like I got a lot of unfinished mess. I always have that problem of starting a personal project and then taking me a long while to finish it�if at all. Well, maybe I can slowly bring myself back to doing stuff again. I need to.
Let's see...anything else to say? Oh yeah...today is pay day! More money in my pocket, and more money for the women in the house (my mom and sister) to try and take away...lol. I ain't havin' it though. I can't keep my money as it is, and then with most of it possibly going toward a new computer potentially for me, I gotta keep as much as I can. I'm investing most of it in my account, but I also gotta have spending money for myself. That can go away very quickly or slowly depending on the factors. It can go both ways for me. I haven't gotten my check yet, but I will real soon, of course. Gotta get that money.
Now, I�m running out of words to say, so of course this will come to a close. Peace.