First Kiss

*knock, knock, knock*

I watch the door open and find Tai’s smiling face appear.
“Hey, Ma-“ he is cut off by a small yellow blur of feminin giggling that runs past my legs.
“What the-“ I say, looking over my shoulder, eyes following the young girl. When I look back at my friend, he’s blushing.
“That’s my cousin. She knows something that you don’t. seeing you sent her into a giggle-fit. I can’t say anything else without embarrassing myself.” The look on his face tells me that he knows that was the wrong thing to say. I grin evilly and start poking him.
“Okay, oKAY! I’ll tell you!” He swats my prodding hand away. His face now looks extremely stern. “But, you must promise not to laugh. Laugh and I’ll-“
“All right, I get the point.” I switch to serious-mode. “Now, what is it?”
“Well, its just that, well, uh, I’m, um, kinda, uh, ya know.. Come in for goodness’ sake! Why are you standing out there?” It was as if he had just noticed me for the first time.
I sat down on the couch. After closing the door, he joined me. “You were saying?”
Tai looks at me in confusion. “Oh yeah! I’m gay,” he says, before redirecting his stare to the ground.
“Oh.” I feel like such an idiot. “So, when’d you figure this out?”
Tai mumbles something incoherent. I move closer so I can hear better. “I’m sorry?”
“Mumble… 3 weeks… probably before… denial…”
I sit back down, nodding. “Ah, denial. So, who were you crushing on?”
Tai blushes as red as fire and dashes to his room. I shake my head. Silly, shy guy. I stand up and head in the direction of Tai’s room.
“Tai, open up!” This is not good. My voice is going hoarse and I have to sing tomorrow. I’ve been yelling for near half and hour. He just keeps telling me to go away. Fine, I’ll go climb in through his window. He’ll think I’m still at the door an he won’t be paying any attention to the window.
Now I remember why I’m scared of heights. Even though I’m only two stories off the ground…breathe, Matt, breathe. Aha! Tai’s window. I skillfully push it in and swing my leg inside.
Tai is laying on his bed, sobbing. I approach with caution; I learned that when Tai is depressed he tends to lash out. I sit down beside him.
“Tai, are you alright?” My voice is a surprise to him and he shrieks.
“Tai, Tai, its just me, Matt!” He’s clutching at his chest and sinking slowly to the floor.
“You… *gasp*… scared… the… *gasp*… living @#$%… out… *gasp*… of me!” I wince as his accusing glare penetrates my outer layer.
“Sorry. I was worried about you. Why’d you run off like that?”
Tai blushes again. “Because I thought you’d never be my friend if I told you and I don’t want to ruin our friendship.”
At first, I was puzzled, but now my brain clues in; he likes me! My best friend has a crush on me!
“Oh, Tai, I’ll always be there for , whether or not you like me! I’ll never abandon you for such a stupid reason! That’s what idiotic homophobics do!”
Tai looks up. His face is bright again, for the first time in an hour and a half.
“Now that’s more like it!” I smile.
It has been a month since Tai and I had our little discussion, and I still don’t think I’m gay. I might be, but I don’t know. I’m going to find out.
“Hey, Tai.”
“Oh, hi Matt! Come in. Sorry everythings a mess.” He holds the door open for me.
I turn to face him as soon as he closes the door. “Tai, I want to know if I’m gay or not.”
Tai gapes at whatever I just said. I don’t think he quite understands it.
“Can I kiss you?” Tai asks. “Okay, that sounded really pathetic, but can I?” He looks at me, pleading with his eyes.
I shrug. He presses his lips to mine. Okay, I am most definitly gay. This is so much better than when I kiss any girl! This feels so much more… right.
When we break apart, I tell him so. He’s so delighted that he squeals and glomps me, planting another kiss on my lips. I swing him around, his arms around my neck, with continous kisses. I ask him out, and, of course, he says yes.
We will go to dinner tomorrow, and it will be perfect, just like our first kiss.