My Awakening
You hear everybody talking about how they remember their Awakening. But in some ways, I've always been slightly awake. But in some ways, I was "asleep" and not aware of my 'kinly self. So that is why it is so hard to tell you where my Awakening began, for that reason. I remember strange things...like always being watched when I was younger and protected and of course, I went through a stage of being afraid of the dark when I was younger. But I "felt" things were there that I only remember vageuly. Then there was the instance I got lost in the mall...and I was called to the front desk. It was this nice lady who helped me, but my mother can't remember her. It was like only I could see her. I always called my guardian angel because of that. I remember somebody calling my voice too....
I got a jolt when I was 10. It was a brush against my awakening. My mother blocked me from the stuff that was beginning to take me away...to show me about being pagan. Of course, I didn't know about the term back then. So in some ways, I'm glad because I wouldn't know where to go or where to start. But anyways, back to the story. I thought my cousin went down to the stream. I saw him go down. So I went after him. As I drew closer and closer to the barn that was on my way to the stream I felt something...threatening there. I was half way down the slope when I heard, "Melissa get back now!" I ran. Trust me, I don't run like that often. I felt something chasing after me too. Nothing seemed to have happened for some years. But no matter what I did or who I was with, I felt...different, off. Not the same.
It was near the end of 7th or beginning of 8th grade when I became aware about pagans and magick again. This time I had friends to help. By the end of 8th grade, I was aware about the whole term Otherkin. I also gained a best friend who was Otherkin. For once, I had a name for this differentness...though this realization came slowly. But I didn't do much about it. I just kept learning. That is what I am still doing. I question who I am...and just what am I? I'm still unsure, but I've learned a lot since then and gained a few memories along the way. I remember being an elf and other different lifetimes. This may be short, but this is a story that is just beginning.
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