| My Questions to Life By Heather A, Pierpont I see myself as a falling star in a state of confusion, as I see the things around me, I wonder if they're real or just a dream, an if a dream its a nightmare, am I a shadow of some great fortune or a poor soul left to wander around wondering what could have been, an if real was I ment to be, was I supposed to be hidden from all of the world, maybe I was never supposed to be like everyone else, maybe a test of ones will and strength, maybe a test of how much pain one person can take, a shadow, a lost soul, somebody's place for misery, gods test of life, its all I feel, is it what's ment to be, a failure of greatness, queen of being lost, I wish I knew if my life was real or somebody's worst dream, shut out of what people call normal, not deranged enough to be called freak, not smart enough to be called geek, not perfect enough to be called prep, and to plain to be amazing, where do I fit, where do I belong in this place they call world, a civilization, are there other's who pass each day, to scared to look back, to scared to look forward, to scared to move, but does for the hope that tomorrow is a new day, an maybe things will change, maybe one day I hope to know all the answers to my questions, is that life a bunch of emotions that no truly understands, is no one ment to understand, maybe no one can handle the truth, some say to know all the answer would make the world come to sudden stop, maybe that's it maybe I am frozen in one time period, I seem to stay behind while the rest of the world moves on, I am lost in a world of confusion, an undeserved torture, no one could understands life as I see it, they'll never feel what I feel, they'll never understand what they don't know anything about, sometimes I want to scream so loud I go deaf, just so I could see if anyone hears me, I'm so ill from trying to understand, trying to grasp the meaning of my life, the endless question's with no answer's, but one day my hopes, my dreams for the future I hope they will come true |
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