Today is the first day of my enteries. I warn you i might not keep an everyday entery. But i will try. Alot is going on in my life right now. My Grandfather just passed away about two months ago. A friend from school was shot and killed, and I just met my real father less then a year ago. My mother and i, are presently fighting because of the simple fact, she is used to being the only parent i had. I mean other then my Step-father.But Now that i am seeing my real father, things have changed. She gets mad because i go there most of the weekends. And i would rather go there , then go on some boring trip with her to see relatives that don't even like me. She thinks i would do things with him, and for him. but its differnt for her. No, its not. I guess the simple fact that seeing my dad is new to me still, that must be why it seems that way. But my mother thinks he is trying to over rule her and take me away from her. He isnt trying to do that. Nor would he. He understands she is my mother and has been my life since i was small. But still the words she said. it hurt me to think she thinks i want and need her less .. but really.. i want and need her more. there are things in my life, i do not know how to handle.. this is one of them. It's like im having to choose between my mother and my father.. and i hate it. I love them both. But, i dun know.. there are just things i have to think about i suppose. Things are happening in my life, i can not explain.. nor can i control. But one day, i will understand it all. I hope. Anyways... enough of this.. i will write more some other time. Thanks for taking the time to read this.. it means alot. *smiles* Be safe. And love always.
Amy Lynn Stewart
