| ~*I woke up in a dream today To the cold of the static And put my cold feet on the floor*~ I awoke to a new dawn, a new day. My bed was huge, but empty and cold and I longed for the warmth that I took for granted so many times before. Bared to the world, I pad to the bathroom, the beauty of space and the stars shining my dead eyes and cold heart. ~*Forgot all about yesterday Remembering I�m pretending to be where I�m not anymore*~ Looking in the bathroom mirror, I don't reconize the face that stares back at me. Am I Milliardo Peacecraft, Zechs Marquise, or...what? My eyes, ice blue, the color of life as he used to say, stared back at me with all the lifeness of gundainium. My mane of hair is tangled, matted, and a mess. 'No way for a prince to look now is it?' I think ruefulley and a smile quirks the corner of my mouth. It's not one of humor but wry bitterness. I closed my eyes and thought of the feilds that I used to play in in my youth, running wild and free, ignorant to the turmoils of the world. I think of the way that he looked, indigo eyes smiling in a challenge, whether it be fencing, shooting, or... But I won, I always won. "Trieze..." I'm anything but a prince. ~*A little taste of hypocrisy And I�m left in the wake of the mistake slow to react*~ I used to say that you killed without heart or meaning. I remember we used to debate it till late in the night until you sealed the argument with a kiss. Now look at what I'm doing; starting this war, using people as meer pawns... I wonder if it's all a mistake, if I'm wrong, whether this will do any good at all. Whether this will stop the evil of war that has been waged on Earth and space. I wonder... ~*Even though you�re so close to me You�re still so distant And I can�t bring you back*~ I can see the reflection of your forces Treize. I can see them in my bathroom mirror. Can you see mine? Are you doing the same thing I am? Are you looking back to the times where I held you in my arms, your prince and protector? All the times that you said I lo-- My fist shot out before I could stop it, shattering the mirror, thick slivers of glass embedded in my skin. Deep red blood ran down my fingers on to the prinstine white tile of the sink and I slowly began to remove the shards. 'This very blood used to belong to you, Trieze, just as yours belonged to me...why does it have to be like this?...' ~*It�s true the way I feel Was promised by your face*~ I was your prince, your lighting count. Around me, you didn't have to be leader of the world. You just had to be who you were. And I still loved you just the same... ~*The sound of your voice Painted on my memories Even if you�re not with me I�m with you..*~. "Milliardo..." that one word spoke volumes, smooth tenor yet so afraid. "I won't hurt you, I promise..." I whispered, sliding up his strong and solid body, my hair falling like a curtain to protect us both. The sound of your cries, your gasps, your moans of passion...they're still there, inside my mind, haunting me in my dreams. Do I haunt you, Trieze? ~*You Now I see keeping everything inside With You... Now I see Even when I close my eyes*~ You know, it took you forever to say three simple words. That's all I ever wanted. After one night of shared passion, your curled in my arms and whispered to me those words. I wanted to cry tears of happiness; I was loved, wanted, and cared for. What every thing a lie? Were those words a bunch of lies? I still see you when I close my eyes, your smile and those eyes that showed and hid everything. Would it have hurt that much to tell me, Trieze? ~*I hit you and you hit me back We fall to the floor the rest of the day stands still*~ When I knew he was with the gundam pilot, I felt...betrayed. The one person I'd ever cared for had nearly destroyed me inside. You whispered those beautiful acidic words in my ear and I struck, throwing you across the room. "Don't lie to me, Trieze! Don't you dare!" I yelled, wanting to cry and run at the same time. Eyes as deep as the ocean stared back at me, thin line of red running from your lip. "As you wish..." you whispered and walked out. If I could take back those moments, God how I would... ~*Fine line between this and that When things go wrong I pretend the past isn�t real*~ There's such a thin line between good and evil, right and wrong. Even in the heat of battle, I wonder, what side am I on? I've already been damned by God so does that make me evil? Or since I'm trying to right those wrongs, does that make me good? An explosion rocks Epyon and I blast away, thinking of sunkissed fields and moonlit walks in rose gardens... ~*Now I'm trapped in this memory And I�m left in the wake of the mistake slow to react*~ I'm getting pounded by the Gundams, my reaction time is down because my thoughts are wandering. Epyon is telling me I have no future. Did I ever have one? I've been living in the past, the biggest mistake I've made... ~*Even though you�re close to me You�re still so distant And I can�t bring you back*~ I see you fighting with your gundam lover. He has the advantage. Did you want someone stronger than me? Was I not strong enough for you? You're only seconds away but it seems like years, decades. 'You're fighting this battle, why Trieze, why?' ~*It�s true the way I feel Was promised by your face The sound of your voice Painted on my memories Even if you�re not with me I�m with you...*~ I hear your voice, faint on the intercom. "I'll...see you on the other...side, Milliardo..." An explosion rocks the space around me. "Trieze...Treize?! God-damnit, no, God no!" I yell and charge at Zero One. 'Kill me, gundam pilot. Finish ending my life. As long as I live, I'll never forget those words...' ~*Now I see keeping everything inside With You... Now I see Even when I close my eyes*~ For some reason, I was spared while you weren't. I lived to see the sun rise again over the Earth, to walk in the early morning dew, to pick a rose. My feet carry me aimlessly as I think. 'Did you ever really mean it? What you said? Could you have said it in those final words?' ~*No No matter how far we've come I can't wait to see tomorrow*~ My body has carried me to your grave. It overlooks the sea on a cliff that you and I used to journey to. I twirl the rose that I had in my hand before placing it on the headstone. The wind makes my hair billow behind me and dries my tears and I look up to the sky. 'Is there a tomorrow, another side? Trieze, I can't live like this...' ~*No matter how far we've come I can't wait to see tomorrow*~ I always carried one broken shard of that mirror with me. I carried it in memory of the pain that I caused. 'Now those souls can rest in peace...' Crimson flowed from my wrists and over my hands. 'Trieze...I'm coming to be with you...are you there? I'm so afraid...' Dark blue eyes regaurd me with...love as I stare over the sea and wraps me in their embrace before everything goes dark. "We're going home, Milliardo..." ~*With you...*~ Other fanfiction |