bartleby reincarnated in the style of e.e. cummings

i would prefer not
to feel (how i feel for you) anything
at all that is remotely like
nothing or something.
i would prefer not
to not prefer a preference
but to prefer does (not)
make it so (for my sake);
or so it would seem.
i would prefer not
to have (this weight of the fact that)
you prefer
that i prefer you.
for preferring is but wishing
(to be near your gentle hands)
and i would prefer not
to resort to such wishful thinking.