BOSp4

Aug.3,2002
I find more and more daily that I have always been on the Celtic Shaman path all along. I find this by reading a book called By Oak,Ash,& Thorn modern celtic shamanism by D.J. Conway. I am writing a book on a vampire in love with a Jewish woman and one of the scenes in it (according to Conway's book) turns out to have been a shamanic journey to the Astral Plane that I possible remembered from a pastlife.
In my opinion from reading this book and the Bible, Jesus was a shaman; because both He and shamans journey off alone to the woods and are tempted to ignore their ethics.Both have visionary "journeys".

Nov. 14,2002
I have finally found a "Tribe" of Druids I am quite happy with being in. I promised to keep things discussed with them so I will keep as to which Druid Tribe I am of secret here to keep the bond with them. I just want to say I have been looking to become a Druidess for a long time and now I am on my way (if I don't mess things up for myself). I have found that one group who I look up to a bit has kicked me out but I will always suggest them for they are very wise and resourceful- The tuath group owned by Padraig=Darkedeloup. It is sad that they didn't understand me nor could forgive me. We all make mistakes but some just don't want to accept that truth and refuse to forgive and give the person another chance, but such is life. We just pick up the pieces, take with us what we learned from them, keep the good memories of them close to our heart, and move on and be glad and happy and thankful for the ones who do love us unconditionally and forgivingly. I am happy with my new family and tribe and very glad they accepted me as a member of their tribe. I am truelly home and praying that I do all that I must and can to do right and never get banned from them, that they will always be my family and tribe and guide me to the druidess I long to be. IMBAS is a great group and I can still learn through them thanks to the Ancestors and Gods and Godesses for that. I still got a lot of studies and that is why the gaps in my entries, and I got to get back to them so I will stop here. Fielte! Fesgar Math! (if I got this all right it should all be nice greatings but forget exact meanings)