| May 12, 2002 |
| HEY! This weekend was sooo awesome! April, Karen, and me went to go see SPIDERMAN!! Hes so cool! I loved that movie! It was awesome! Today I had 2 work : ( but I made pretty good. And its Mothers Day today! I have a really cool mom shes so nice and she spoils me, but she can be a wee bit psycho sometimes. I love her though. What else happend..well, James came over Friday and I MADE him watch some Baby Vox music videos and listen 2 some really cool K-pop and J-pop music. He hates my Brintey and all pop but thats ok, we all have differnet oppenions:) . Im gunna go 2 bed now, its really late and I have school tomorrow! GOODNIGHT!! |
| May 23, 2002 |
| song:Baby Vox "Oo Yon" Emotion: Happy, silly HOWDY!! Its Thursday night and Brittany is over. I think she lives with us now. Anyway, Today was pretty cool. I ran the mile in P.E. which wasnt that bad and then I went tanning and I SWEAR I thought it was never gunna end. 20 minuets is a long time! I kept singing 2 myself and stuff. Then we went 2 Taco Bell and they forgot 2 give us our chips tortilla thingys so mommy did this U-turn in the middle of the road and it was really funny. OOH!! I brough the new Britney game for PS2!! BRITNEYS DANCE BEAT!! Very awesome game, go get it! All of my friends say its REALLY gay but i LOVE it!!! Shes so cool. This year is almost over and I havent accomplished any of my goals. I havent told any of the people that I like that I like them and Its kinda sad. Maby next year. And I think my friend is mad at me:( James is REALLY in love with Laura and its weird. He needs 2 realize he'll never have her. Shes too sweet 4 him. Sorry but its ture. Thats about it 4 now. Oh! And I saw Unfaithful with mom, Kim , Kelly and Shane last week. VERY cool movie but It was sooo full of sex! OMG! Oh and I brought Megatropolis. A state of the art in anime. Very cool and the characters are so cute! lata 4 now! BYE!!!:) |
| June 19 2002 song: Papaya "Listen to my Word" emotion: cheerful, aware, jolly Sup? Ive put up some more pics today, and Im going 2 draw some more in PAINT tonight if I get the time. I gotta make some phone calls and stuff. Im out of school and enjoyin my vacation, which isnt that good so far:( hopeully it will get better when i go to the beach! WOOWHO!! We just got DSL this Monday and it is SOOO FREAKIN AWESOME!! Much Music is like a music station that, get this, PLAYS MUSIC VIDEOS!! Who though of that? And then theres STYLE which is really cool and talks about fashion and cool stuff. And my other favoriet is International Channel. They show things from other places in the world. And on monday night, they played NEW KOREAN POP VIDOES!! OMG!! I WAS SO HAPPY!! It was surreal almost. I saw new videos from Fin k. l., S.E.S. and Papaya. It was so cool! And on Sunday nights, they show Hey! Hey! Hey! a popular Japanese variety show with musical guets and stuff! Hikaru was on there once! Cant wait!! :D PEACE OUT!! |
| June 23, 2002 Sunday |
| Song: "Dont Know Why" Norah Jones Emotion: ill, upset, sad, confused, angry Well...Today started off really good! Went 2 church, had a fun lunch with my dad, good hair day and my outfit is rocks, LOTS of cool shows on TV, watched Traffic last night(Movies u can relate 2 are alot better like Traffic's drug scenes and Vanilla Sky's car scene, they touch u on a personal level)Played outside with my mom and sister, goofed off all day. I saw Save the Last Dance and me and mom just made fun of it the whole way through and I watched Hanniable, which is pretty weird, but good. Then I FINALLY got 2 watch Hey! Hey! Hey! and Hikaru Utada performed "Can U Keep A Secret?" BUT mom was fussin about something and i couldnt enjoy it :( I also watched a raw Japanese version of DBZ (which is a HORRIABLE show, but its ok if its in Japanese b/c u dont know whats goin on and its not as stupid and gay) and the Slayers. After that I got online and no one was really on so i talked 2 my cuzin Jordan. He dont really like me b/c he thinks im gay or something. Thats his loss, but im nice so i decided 2 talk 2 him and he was a complete ass!! He is so mean and gets on my nerves so much! AND i have 2 go 2 Myrtal Beach next week and Jordan, Adam and Kelly just ruined the COMPLETE week 4 me. Sure I had fun at the Mall and at the Pavilion on July 4th, but the memory that stand out the most is looking at a beautiul, peaceful beach at night time with beautiful windy weather..crying my eyes out and thinkin about suicide. WHILE IM AT THE BEACH!!! Seriously, what tha hell? I had a blunt earlier that night b.c i was kinda ill. Of chourse it was nice and I flet better but everyone eles was so ill and me actin stupid was annoying. Kelly told me to leave(we walked 2 the arcade along the sand at like 11 pm) and Jordan was up Adams ass all week and Kelly was actin so weird. Everyone was just excluding me out of everything! I was like the 4th wheel, just DRAGGIN along. I would try 2 talk 2 Adam but Jordan would have just got all in the way and everything was just hitting me at once. Mabye the weed was bac, i dont know but I have NEVER cried that much or felt that bad. The beach is a bad memory 4 me now, so is the mandy moore cd MANDY, b/c i lisened 2 it ALL THE TIME at the beach. It was just an awful experience and I pray to God that it will be a fun experience this year. U have no idea how bad I actually dread going. I want to go sooo bad, but I know it will suck and I just wnat to go with MY friends, the ppl who REALLY care. Not my stupid, uncaring family. I just know it will all go to hell when I get there. I dont know whats wrong with me, I guess Im just keeping so much stuff bottled up inside and its starting 2 hurt and I want to tell someone but I never will. Its late so im going 2 bed. I DID GET A GUITAR THOUGH!! It just that no one understands me or really cares, and i wnat someone 2.... |