I was just taking a shit and I started thinking. This site is meant to be very personal. It's like a camera into my mind, typed out on a pretty blue background for ya. With all the things that go through my head I'm sure Erin, my girlfriend, is going to get upset. For example, the letter to a porn star. She was kinda upset about that. I got "You're such an asshole!!" "Promise you wont lick another girl's toes!" etc. It's cute really, that she's that attached to me that she fears me even WRITING to another girl that I've never met and have no fucking clue of anything about her. How's your hole? Anyway, What I'm getting at is Erin, if you read this shit don't be so goddamned touchy about it! I understand your concern and think it's cute. I just feel like I have to hold some things back because I don't want her flyin off the handle if I write something she doesn't like. She should know that there's lotsa things in my mind that I need to say. Like how I hate the way I can't tell her certain things or she'll flip out and start yelling and try to turn it around on me about how im such a dick how could i do that blah blah blah.. It sucks that everytime she does something that pisses me off I can't talk about it or she tries to turn it around on me and make me feel bad. I don't know if she's playing stupid little girl games or if she doesn't know she's being this way. We've talked about it. I'm pretty upset with her actually, but I think she should know that with all the things we've been through, a little complaining on a website should be the least of her worries. This is just venting. It helps me feel better about things when I don't feel I can talk to anyone. By all means I could list all the fucked up things that have happened between us and by all means im sure anyone would say "If you're not happy in the relationship why don't you get out of it?" I don't know. Because our relationship has come to the point where with me leaving it's up to her to come out now. It's up to her to be mature and stop this little-girl games stuff.
I met Erin a couple years ago through my then-gf melissa. She had known Erin online for a while. I had talked to her and seen pix of her but I thought she was kinda snobby. Anyway, one day Melissa was talking to Erin and apparently she was coming up to Seattle on a church group trip or some shit. Melissa started talking all this shit about "oooh its gunna be a 3some! We're gunna be allllll over you" and with the pix I had seen of Erin I was like "Ok.. sounds good to me." Anyway, we went up to Seattle to see her, and first thing out of her mouth was "You look like a preppy!" So I was like "Fuck off." And I ignored her the whole time. My catty gf melissa was pissed off cuz she felt in competition with Erin. Her stupid mistake for putting sexual ideas in my head with another girl that was prettier than her. Anyway, I was having a pretty shitty time. Basically didn't say much. Watched Melissa try to get on Erin's good side, watched them joke more about having a 3some yet none of them had the balls to make a move, and finally fell asleep in the hotel. It sucked ass. Then there was the hottub.
We all decided to get naked and get in the hottub. Melissa, being the slut she was got totally nude, Erin left her panties on, and I got completely naked too. Oddly enough after Melissa's comment about Erin's tits being uneven, she didn't let me see her boobs the whole time. Sooo in the hottub I decided to show Erin how I could stretch my ballsack out and make it look like a flying squirrel. It's really fun actually, you'd be surprised how far you can stretch that little bastard out. So Melissa says "Oh my god you gotta have him lick your toes.. its the most amazing thing.." so Erin holds her foot up, I do my magic, she giggles, gets extremely wet, and I say "melissa, is it cool if I kiss her?" She says "Sure.." so me and Erin start making out, for like 5 minutes. She was the most amazing kisser.. good thing melissa couldn't see my hands underwater feeling up Erin's tits and tracing down to her bush. ahahah! Anyway, Melissa freaks out when she sees that I'm enjoying it and goes "STOP!" then she's like "Kiss me Erin" and she does it all gross and sloppy, shoving her tongue down her throat and drooling, stops midway and goes "MORE TONGUE!" etc. etc. Erin and Melissa get out and go to "change" I dont know what the hell they did in their but they're both fucking assholes for not letting me in. Erin says nothing happened. Erin lies to protect her image. Melissa would probably say all kindsa shit happened, Melissa's a chronic liar by nature. I don't give a fuck what happened. I wanted Erin bad. Anyway, we went out to dinner, etc. and I kissed Erin goodbye. The whole way home Melissa bitched at me "SHE KISSES BETTER HUH?" "YOU'RE SUCH AN ASSHOLE!" I was like "Ok. Thanks, it was YOUR idea." So then I talked to Erin in email a little after that cuz I was having problems with my relationship with Melissa and she was a good friend ofh ers so I figured she could give me advice. I couldn't talk to melissa because everytime I did she threatened to move out cuz I said something she didn't like. Anyway, eventually I just said "Fuck off melissa, get the hell out then and don't call me." I kept talking to Erin, and one day several months later I was running out of places to stay and she asked if I wanted to come there. I ate up the oppurtunity and here I am, getting ready to go back home. I spent 7 months here with her and could list all the fucked up things that have been done, but it wasn't just about being here for her. It was about making a career move. Getting a car. Finding myself. And I've done all that. I don't have a place to stay here now so I'm going home, and it's on her if she wants to come with. She talks all this shit about how much she loves me and how she'll do anything for me but I guess we'll just have to see cause I don't believe she's going to come up. She's like "Oh I'll drive up with you, but I gotta fly back so I can work a little and I have court at the end of the month". Ok, I doubt she'll do either. But whatever.. we'll see. I don't know where the fuck this article is going so I'm going to stop now.