I realised – I can’t write
Because I have no one to write for.
I realised love doesn’t exist
Because to be loved you have to know how to love someone yourself.
I realised life is lived at a cost
Because – yes that’s right…money means more.
I realised time is really not of the essence
It’s a fucked up word to delay and prolong.
I realised to believe
You have to be believed in.
I realised to dwell is to wait
And to want you must create.
I realised a thought is a creation and value of ones mind.
I realised to forgive and forget is a load of shit
Don’t you?
I realised rules are put in place to control
But you can’t control anything like a mad mind.
I realised pain comes at the most unwanted times
I realised to be is not to be, but think that you are
I realised a wish is a want…that you can’t have
I realised friends are only friends when they pick up the pieces,
Of your angered and hurt heart
I realised that something without meaning has no heart behind it
I realised you don’t know what you have got
Until it’s gone
I realised expression is a lie
...Well...most of the time
I realised what you feel is fake
Because I know that you know what your feelings hold
And what you cry about can only make you strong
And what you laugh about can only bring to tears
And after all these years of sitting and wondering has the world caught up
Do I really give a shit; do YOU give a fuck?
And I realised to stand up and be counted
Is to fall down and disgrace.
I realised the world isn’t safe
And we destroy ourselves
I realised that light only shines…forever
I realised ignorance hurts and kills
And leaves you with a guilty conscience
I realised when you pointed at me, and told me to move forward
You made me feel so low, and for that I won’t forget
How the fuck can you do that
You made me appear depressed
I realised when you stare…you have feelings you hide
Because time after time, same everyday
You deny your feelings
And my tears wash pain away
I realised to understand something so simple could have mass complications
Because of feelings enraged, misconceived and mixed up
I realised happiness comes from self and no one else
I realised you.
I realised us.
I realised nothing.
I realised...
I realise I don’t care anymore and forgetting isn’t easy
But once forgotten its hard to go back…
And you continue to move along with your life without caring
So fuck it, fuck you all