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It had been easy.
So easy.
Or had it?
 
I'd wanted a perfect world,
And I'd gotten exactly what I'd wanted.
Or had I?
 
The clearest day turned into the darkest night,
So fast I'd nearly missed it.
 
But the sun is rising again,
Like it always has before.
 
And I've been waiting...



Can you see it?
            See what?
 

The light.
It's so beautiful.
How can you not see it?
                                                           See what?!

 What do you think when you look at a beautiful sunrise, or a gorgeous sunset? Do you think, "Wow, what a blessing it is for me to even SEE this!" or do you even stop to ponder the events that brought you there, to that exact spot at that exact moment. Do you think it happened by chance? That those moments in time were all cataclysmically bringing you to the pinacle of who you are standing there? Or do you know, deep down, that nothing happens by chance, that some greater Power is guiding each and every person's steps?
                                                            Do you know who you are?
    Do you ever wonder if you'd just taken that left instead of right a while back, could you be somewhere completely different than where you are now?
    Do you stop to think about all the things...memories, fractions of a second.....that came between you and the great beyond so many times?
                                                            Of course not.
    Most so-called normal people don't usually take the time out of their busy daily schedule to think such "deep thoughts." They don't feel it necessary to look back before looking towards the future. But a wise man once said, "If we fail to learn from the past, we are doomed to repeat it." His words hold true today.
    So why is it that all we do is sit around and as "Why?" instead of getting up and doing something about whatever it is that is bothering us. The tendency to act before thinking, and the tendency to think so much you are incapable of action...Is that what keeps tripping us up?
    Or is it the notion...deep down within us...that we know something's hidden inside...we just don't know what. And we don't know how to get at that dormant "specialness" that we want so badly to find.
                                        How does one even begin to discover who they are?



You must take the first step.
            But how will you know when to take it?
 

Follow your heart.
Choose your destiny.
Brave the fear.
                                                           Learn to live.

These sayings may sound cliche, but are they really? Faced daily with the question of my "Future," I am unsure as to what to do next. I can only hope that God is leading me in the right direction.
                                                         How do I know?
    I just think that I'll KNOW when I've found the right school to attend, and the right career to follow. But who knows, really, that could all change in time. I'm not one to talk. Everyone has the right to change their mind. The real issue is, I must be brave enough to trust. And that, right there, is the hard part.
                                                           Or is it?
    There was a time I thought I'd never trust again. There are still times when I think that, for even a fraction of a second, I might not live the life I want to live. I want more than anything to enjoy what I do for a living, and I know that I can make my dreams come true. I have only to try.
                                        And so I talk out of faith, courage, and hope that the Future is one I can live with.
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