Dilemma

Searching through the night
Looking for endless delight.
Looking why
Everything is this way.

I try hard not to be mad,
But always I feel so bad.
I let myself fall
Too hard too fast.

I want to be with you,
But you need your space,
You are all I have
And you have more.

It�s hard not to feel
The way I do.
I try to let it go
But get pulled in harder.

I wish I had more
I don�t mean to control,
This feeling I feel,
I don�t want to lose.

I am scared of losing
The person I love.
For I am not worthy,
And I try to tell her
How to live.

Please help me through
The phase I feel.
I don�t want to hurt,
Only to feel.

I don�t want
To lose the one I love.
Please lord help me be strong,
And show me more to do.
Plight

It�s been a long hard fight
In the light
Of endless night.

All skies are blue,
As one has said,
When he lowered his heard
In praise.

Please guide me through
My plight,
My plight,
My endless night.

It will end soon,
My angel in my sight,
It doesn�t have to
Be all black.

Just look to what you gain,
What you desire,
What you deserve.

The love of a good man
At your side, My
Love for you.

You brighten my day,
And now, If I may,
I must brighten yours

I love you,
More than I can say.
I would gladly give of my
Own life just for you.

You have become a part of me.
Each waking day,
Each hour I spend.

Now come take my hand.
I will show you the way
As you once did for me.

I love you, my angel.
Your true best friend,
Your true romance.
The missing part of you.
Forever

Feeling like
Never before.
Endless joy,
Endless bliss
From a feeling
I�d hate to miss.
I�ve fallen in love
And am a new man.
You�ve shown me
A new way
With every day
We spend.
Thank you
For this feeling,
This joy.
This Bliss.
Forever used
To seem long,
Now it is
Nowhere near
Long enough
Four us.
We are here,
Now and
Will be
Forever.
Ok, here's a side of me that very few people, espically those that know me now, know about. I wrote this after about two months with Sophie, and this is how i felt at the time, and would feel for a long time. This one's a little hard for me to read...
This is another one written during that period. I remember the exact moment i wrote this. It was during a Religion class in December of 2001, and during that time i was trying to get my "baby" back. She stopped talking to me during the class and went over to talk to her best friend, and were talking about going to see other guys. I blamed myself cuz i didn't want her to hang out with her friend, and felt like i was trying to control her. Amazing how easy manipulation is huh?
This was written during that confused time where i was trying my hardest to get her back. At the time i loved her more than anyone else, and i blamed myself for all that was happening between us. Luckily i didn't stay in that stage too long
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